The moment leading up to it is like no other. It’s intense, overwhelming, powerful. My stomach sizzles, my heart flip flops, my knees knock together, I almost don’t want it to end...
But then his lips crash into mine and I wish he hadn’t waited for so long, the sensation is electric. My mouth fizzles, my whole face lights up, it’s phenomenal. He starts with a delicate soft pressure, treating me with kid gloves in a sweet, romantic way. But then he pulls back and he sees the desire in my gaze, and he drags me back to him. This time, the kiss is passionate, it’s deep, his tongue darts in between my lips. He gives me everything and I freaking love it. I roll my body into him, sticking to him like glue, wanting more. Everything actually.
Oh wow, this is… I don’t even know what to think. There are no words. I want to wrap myself around him, have me press me up against a wall and take me right here. I just want to start my fling…
* * *
“Why didn’t you go home with him?” Kayleigh demands in the cab home. “I don’t understand.”
The throbbing at my core doesn’t understand either. “Because I’m not ready for a one night stand.”
“But he’s so hot. And those kisses looked incredible. The sexiest thing ever.”
I groan and fling my head forwards into my hands, desperation flooding me. Rejecting him was the most challenging thing that I’ve ever had to do, I had to go against every fiber of my being but I just felt like it was the right thing to do. I didn’t want to end up doing something that I regret.
“His kissing was off the scale,” I admit. “The best I’ve ever had.”
“So, why didn’t you go home with him? I don’t understand. He’s so gorgeous even I want him.”
“Because I didn’t think it wise when I have to see him all the time at the gym.”
Kayleigh shakes her head hard, barely understanding me at all. I don’t understand myself either. It was just one of those snap, spur of the moment ideas that I thought was right but now I’m consumed by self-doubt.
“You have to see him all the time anyway… hopefully now he will ask you on a date though.”
Hope blooms, maybe she’s right. Maybe I did the right thing by not going home with him and now he will actually want to date me… oh, but I don’t know if I’m ready for that either.
“What is wrong with me, Kayleigh? Why can’t I do anything normal?”
“I don’t know.” She pulls me towards her for a hug. “But I think you’re putting too much pressure on yourself, I don’t think you need to be quite so worried. You have been through some hard times, remember? You lost the guy you thought t
hat you would be with forever at the same time you lost your mom.”
“But that was a year ago now. I don’t why I’m still like this.”
She shushes me and rubs my head, soothing me as the cab takes me home. Then she gets out the cab with me and she carries me up to bed where I lie across the sheets, filled with regret.
“I should have gone home with him, shouldn’t I, Kayleigh?”
“Yes,” she replies with a teasing murmur. “You should have, but I understand why you didn’t. Maybe if you aren’t too hung over tomorrow we should go to the gym and try to work out how he’s feeling.”
“No, not tomorrow, I don’t think I can handle it. What if he thinks I’m an idiot?”
“Then obviously, I will kick his ass. I’m always on your side, Mia, you know that.”
I groan and turn onto one side, agony radiating through me as I do, but the emotional rather than the physical kind. I’m all raw and messy, desperately feeling foolish. Tomorrow will be a long day.
9
Noah
“Boss? Are you even listening to me?”
“Sorry, Foster, did you say something?”
“Where were you then?” he laughs. “Definitely not here, that’s for sure.”
I was back in the club with Mia then, kissing her hard, toughing all over her body, pleading her to come home with me. She refused, just like I thought she would, I could tell she wasn’t ready, but I still had to try. I got home very frustrated, having not purged Mia from my system and not gone home with anyone else, but happy.