“Where is Dad?” I ask her cautiously. He’s been okay with me on the phone but what if he doesn’t want to see me to my face? He might not believe that I’ve actually grown as a person. “Is he home?”
“He’s in a meeting with his lawyer at the moment, but he’ll be out soon. It’s important, you know, or he would have left it already. He absolutely cannot wait to see you.” Mom grab my arm and pulls me towards the kitchen. “Why don’t we go and have a hot drink while we wait for him? I’m dying to hear about your trip. I’ve gotten bits and pieces from you and your dad while you’ve been away, but I want to hear it all.”
I forget all about Dad and his meeting as I sip coffee with Mom and I tell her all about my journey. It’s been five long years, so it’s hard to remember every little detail, so I mainly go with the ones that stick out most in my mind.
In among all the work, I did some sightseeing too, and I got to see some wonderful places.
In a weird way, I’m glad that I screwed up, Personally, I feel like I learned a lot more seeing the world and the business from that way than I ever could have from college, even if I’d tried. Adding in the element of self discovery is just a wonderful bonus that I will always be grateful for. I would change it for anything.
“…honestly, Mom, the temples in Japan are something else. We have to go one day…”
“Is that who I think it is?” Dad’s booming voice rolls out. “Is Kade finally home?”
He sounds happy to know that I’m back, he actually wants me here, which is a huge change from how he was before. I turn to see him and as I do I instantly spot the warm grin on his face.
“Hey, Dad.” I leap up and give him a hug too. He embraces me hard, patting me on the back as he does. “It’s good to see you, it’s good to be back home. I mean, it’s weird, but good.”
“Well, you have come back a man,” he chuckles. “So, of course it feels odd.”
As he looks at me, there’s something that I need to say. It’s been bubbling for ages but it’s something that I’ve wanted to ay face to face. I need Dad to know the true gravity of my words when I speak them.
“Thank you,” I say quietly. “Thank you for arranging all of that, for sending me away to have all of those incredible experiences. I loved it, but it taught me a lot about life as well. I know that you could have done things to make my life difficult, but I’m really glad you didn’t. I’m sorry that I screwed up so bad.”
“Son, you aren’t an academic learner, you learn by doing. I see that now. This was best for all of us.” He takes a seat beside me and looks at me curiously. “So, before I hear anything else about your trip, there is something I want to discuss with you. It’s about the meeting that I’ve just been in with the lawyer.”
“Oh… okay…” I don’t know if this is a good or bad thing. It feels a little ominous. “What is it?”
“Well, now that you have proven to me that you can be mature and responsible, I, of course, want the company to go to you.” My heart lifts, this is the one goal that I’ve been working towards. I had the horrible feeling then that it wasn’t going to happen, that Dad was going to move to goal post. Thankfully it seems that I’m wrong. “So, I have drawn up the paper work to make that so. Right now, you own fifty percent of the business, and I own the other half. Once I retire, you will have it all.” He gives me a giant smile and pats me playfully on the back. “It’s time to start your new life, Son, as owner of the company.”
“Oh my God… that’s crazy!” I’m utterly blown away. “Thank you so, so much.”
“You will have to learn the ropes with me now, although I’m sure you have more than enough experience to pick it up quickly. Whenever you’re rested and ready to begin, let’s do it.”
“Can I begin on Monday?” I ask excitedly. “I can’t wait, and I have some ideas too, some things I picked up along the way…” I trail off when I see my dad’s dubious face. “But just suggestions, I’m not going to be a nightmare or anything. I’m sorry, I’m just really looking forward to it.”
Dad throws his head back and he laughs. “Oh God, it’s great to see you so passionate.”
“We should have a party,” Mom jumps in. “To celebrate the promotion and you coming home. We should invite all the neighbors and have a real celebration. It’ll be fun. Oh, and Kade, you can invite some of your high school friends, or people you hung out with at college. We’ll have everyone come around.”
Even now, even after all this time, I know for a fact that I won’t invite anyone from college. They are all from the bad patch in my life and I don’t want to be reminded of that. I also don’t want the million and one questions about what happened to me. Even if they’ve all moved on I’m sure they will still want to know and I just can’t discuss it. I’m ashamed of myself. There’s only one person from college I would like to see, but she might count as a neighbor or a high school friend. Or more likely, she won’t want to come.
Lucie Smith… the girl who has always been at the back of my mind, no matter where I’ve been.
Occasionally, I tried to see the world through her eyes, especially the places I know for sure that she wanted to go. I felt like I brought a piece of her along with my heart. I don’t know if I ever really got over her because she will always be an enigma to me, the one who could have been, the one who got away, or whatever. But never mind, I can’t get lost down the rabbit hole of the past, what’s done is done.
I don’t want to be one of those people who has to live with a whole bunch of ‘what ifs’.
“A party sounds great, Mom, thank you, but I’ll let you do all of the inviting. I haven’t kept in touch with people since I’ve been away, so I wouldn’t even know who to invite anyway.”
She cocks her head curiously at me, as if she doesn’t totally buy that excuse, but she nods and she goes with it anyway. “Okay, good, that sounds amazing. We’ll do it next weekend then, after you start work.”
A party, work, real life… it’s all going to be weird, but in a really good way. I’m really looking forward to it all. I’m stronger now, ready to face what may or may not happen. Ready to finally be the man that I was always supposed to be.
“It’s good to be home,” I tell them both on impulse. “Thank you for having me back.”
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Lucie