She blinks at me like she can’t quite believe the words I’m telling her.
I cup her cheeks in my hands.
“I can’t lose you. I need you,” I tell her, my voice rough. “You turn me on in ways no one else can. And make my days feel worth living. You’ve made me see that there’s more to life than just work. You’ve given me a reason to give up being alone…you’re everything, Macy. I don’t care if this is moving fast. I don’t care if we’re an unconventional couple. All I care about is making you mine forever. I know that today caused you a lot of pain. I know it’s probably made you question whether it’s worth putting your heart on the line again. But I swear to you, it was never my intention to hurt you. I want to take care of you and make you happy. That’s literally all I care about, Macy. It’s you. It’s only you.”
She looks so shocked at my confession that I’m not sure she’ll be able to process it. After so many years of pain, can my little speech really make up for all of that?
“Say something, Macy,” I plead. I don’t know what’s going on in her head right now, and I need to know.
She takes a deep breath.
“Everything you said about the way I’m feeling…you’re right,” she whispers. “I’m terrified because this world wasn’t meant for women like me. Us curvy girls, we get chewed up and spat out by most people we meet. And when I met you I was so shocked that you took an interest. That’s literally never happened before. You’re so out of my league, it’s unreal. When you made me feel so special I guess I let go of my insecurities for a while. But they’re rooted deep. I think it’ll take me some time to let go of the things that people have made me feel over the years…maybe I’m not ready for all of this. I want to be the kind of woman you can dive in the deep end with…but I’m scared.”
I take her hands in mine. “I’m not giving up on you just because it’s hard,” I growl. “I’ll never let you go, baby. I know you’re scared. I know you have your doubts. But that’s why I’m here and I have no plans of ever leaving you. I’m going to show you how you deserve to be treated. And I know things have moved fast so far, but we can move at a snail’s pace if that’s what you want. Though you should know your body drives me crazy. I’ve wanted you from the moment I laid eyes on you. I’ve had so many dirty thoughts about you, fantasized about you for hours and hours since we crossed paths. My feelings and desire for you…they’re insane. So if you’re worried that I’m not going to be interested in you forever, think again. You’re mine, Macy. For now and forever.”
A blush lights up Macy’s cheeks.
I’m worried at first that I’ve said too much, made her ready to run again, but then a smile crosses her face.
“You really mean all of that?”
I give her a curt nod. “Of course I do Macy, you’re everything. And for as long as you want me, I’m going to work to make you see yourself the way I see you. I’m going to bring all of your walls crashing down. That’s a promise.”
She breathes out hard now, trying to process.
I know it must be hard to let all of those insecurities go. They’ve been building up for so many years now that it must feel impossible to see the world in another way. But she clings to me, desperate to believe everything I’ve told her. When she leans in to kiss me, I feel so much relief and happiness that it makes me dizzy. I grab her and pull her hard against my body, unable to resist her magnetic pull any longer. Her tongue strokes mine and I growl, making her giggle against my lips. All of a sudden, the pain of the day is being left behind. We both finally know where we stand, and it feels great.
“Thank you,” Macy whispers. “For making me see that you care.”
I kiss her again. “Oh, I care. I care a lot.”
We kiss again, and it’s suddenly clear that the fire between us is burning hotter by the minute. Her hand slides down to my cock, stroking me through my pants.
“So that’s what’s on your mind,” I groan.
She smiles against my lips.
“It’s been on my mind for a while…”
“Then maybe it’s time I get you out of that dress again,” I growl.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Macy
The kiss we share is like magic. It feels like I’ve waited a lifetime to be back in Tate’s arms, even though it’s been less than twenty-four hours. Today has been an emotional rollercoaster, but I’m ready to put it all behind me now and start over again.