“Sure,” she replied uncertainly.
I walked them to the door and watched until they were gone. Then I turned and went back to the living room. I scooped up Skylar causing her to squeal. “What are you doing?”
“You look so damn sexy in those green flannel jammies I have to have you,” I told her.
She laughed. “I’m sure,” she said rolling her eyes at me.
I went into our bedroom. I needed her. She was my drug now. She relaxed me. She sated the demons in my head. She calmed me. I laid her on the bed and looked at her. Skylar gave me the release that the drugs used to. I slipped my shirt over my head and watched her eyes travel the length of my body. Her big toe traced a pattern down the middle of my chest. I smirked at her. Then I yanked the hem of her pajama bottoms until they came completely off; tossing them over my shoulder. I could see that her stretch marks were worse not that it mattered to me, only to her. In my head, she was still fucking beautiful, all big with our baby.
I leaned over her and unbuttoned her top while she undid my jeans. I caressed her smooth skin while she shoved my pants down. I kicked them off behind me. I just wanted to touch her and kiss her until she was squirming beneath me. How had I gotten so lucky? I sure as fuck didn’t deserve her.
I teased her. She teased me. I laid beside Skylar on the bed for a moment just wanting to look at her. After a moment she rolled me onto my back and straddled me. This is how I loved her most. Her hair a wild mess from my hands running through it. My hands circled her belly. I could feel Luke moving about inside her. She laid hers on top of mine. I slid them up her body over her breasts encircled her neck and drew her down to me.
“You are so beautiful baby,” I told her.
She laid her lips on mine. I wanted to do so much more than just get inside her. I wanted to touch and taste her first. I wanted to make her come but she had other things in mind. Skylar slipped my cock out of my boxers. I was hard and ready for her. Sometimes, you just need that connection. When everything is weighing you down, you need that gasp from the first hard thrust. She slid down on me and moaned. Her deep, husky breath in my ear made me want to move hard and fast in her body but I didn’t. I kept control of myself and my emotions.
I sat up and pulled her close. Tugging her head back I kissed her neck while she kept moving her body, never missing a beat. I flipped us over on our sides and lifted her leg over on mine so I could play with that beautiful pussy of hers while I stroked her body with my own. Soon she was grinding with me. Groaning with me. She wanted relief as much as I did.
Her arm encircled my neck from behind. I held her close, never wanting to let her go. Then she imploded and it was the sweetest thing. Her breathing was short and hard. Soft, sweet gasps of pleasure were coming fro
m between her beautiful lips. Her body trembled in my arms.
“I love you baby,” I whispered in her ear.
“I love you,” she answered in her low, husky tone.
She was my undoing. My world now and she was my biggest reason for staying clean. I knew I should be doing it for myself but when the need became great I just looked at her and knew that I couldn’t fuck this thing up. I had done well enough at that already. Fucking things up that is.
Skylar rolled over in my arms and faced me. My hands rested at the curve of her ass. She was self-conscious because everything was bigger. I smiled at her. “Are you all right?” Skylar snuggled into me. I thought she was cold so I covered us with a quilt.
“I don’t know.” I had so many thoughts going through my head after last night. Dad for one. I didn’t know how to handle him. How to break through to him or make him understand my goals in life have changed? I have changed and thank god I had.
I rolled to my back taking Skylar with me. She settled her head in the crook of my neck and plastered her warm, sweet body across my chest. I laid my hand on her back and caressed her smooth skin. I loved touching her. Skylar grounded me. She silenced the thoughts when nothing else would but the drugs.
“I don’t know what to do about Dad or Delilah,” I told her.
She raised her head and looked at me, “I don’t know that you can do anything about either of them.”
I raised up and pushed Skylar onto her back. Luke was moving about attracting my attention. I laid my head on her chest and she ran her fingers through my hair while my hand splayed across her belly just feeling my son roll about her body. “What do you think he will be like?”
“If he’s anything like his cousins, he’ll look like you.”
I looked up at her, “I’m afraid he’s hyper like I was too from the all the activity in the womb.”
She laughed. “I don’t think that is a good indication of a child’s hyperactivity Ronan.”
“Sky, do you have any regrets?” I had to ask. She could have hated me after what happened between us. I knew she was embarrassed that I didn’t remember our night together and that is why she hadn’t told me right away.
“None,” she replied sweetly.
“I’m glad.” I reached up and cupped her face, drawing her to me so I could kiss her. Just the touch of her lips to mine was all I needed. A few more weeks and we couldn’t be fooling around. She wouldn’t be comfortable. I could wait. I could hold her and love her in so many other ways.
**
Skylar made lemon bars to bring to the Sunday dinner. They were Gramps favorite. I was surprised to find that the kids were still here. All three of them. Delilah dropped Gramps off hours earlier. Dominick and Maddie talked to their mother. Nickolas refused to speak to her. She didn’t come to Sunday dinner. I called Shawn and asked if he would stop by their house on the way here. Her car wasn’t in the drive, he told me. She had no cell phone to call her. We didn’t know where she was.
Dad decided not to come with mom. She told me not to worry about it but I knew she was upset. Most likely they argued before she left. It was time for a showdown with my dad. I walked towards my truck. She was calling my name to stop. I climbed into my truck with Skylar was screaming at me to stop but I couldn’t. It was time that I forced the issue with him and made him see reason. I didn’t know any other way to break through his stubborn ass.