I gave him an apologetic smile. I wanted one of them, but they had all told me that I needed to eat and rest more than I needed to give in to my baser urges. I didn’t know who was suffering more, me or them. We had all used our gifts tonight. We all felt that sensation within us that craved intimacy.
None of the guys had wanted to leave my side since coming home. They even sat in my bathroom as I showered after Noah had healed me. I didn’t mind. My normal inhibitions were gone. These were my connections. Life was too tenuous. I needed them as much as they needed me.
“Gavin has another connection. It’s Sierra,” I said in the silence of the room as I watched the flames dance in the fireplace and the shadows on the wall.
“Crap,” Drake muttered at my back. He was curled up behind me.
“My thoughts exactly,” I muttered as I linked one of my hands with his. I pushed my rear further into him and I heard him hiss. His reaction was immediate, and I could feel my desire rise instantly.
“How did—” Noah started to ask. He was lying in front of me, one of his hands cradling my hip.
“We saw her mark as we were boarding the plane,” Jaxson stated on the couch.
I wanted to lay next to him, especially after our confessions, but he unselfishly told me to let Drake and Noah lay with me, since they had freaked out the most after my SOS.
“Jemmy’s not going to like that much,” Jace stated with a sigh. “She never was known to share well with others. Even as a child, she hoarded all her stuff so she could play with ours.”
“Because mom never gave her anything, and if she did, her nose was rubbed in it for weeks,” Drake said bitterly.
I squeezed his hand. My heart broke for him and Jemmy.
“We might have went overboard spoiling her,” Remy said huskily. I could tell he had been on the cusp of fallen asleep before I finally blurted out my secret.
“She deserved it,” Jaxson said with a frown in his voice.
“That’s why she fell in love with you the most,” Troy said with a chuckle. “She learned to fake cry so you would give her anything she wanted.”
“Bro—" Jaxson said with warning.
I giggled, knowing he hadn’t wanted me to know. “Jemmy already told me. She admitted to wanting you the first time I met her.” Then I sobered up once more. “She’s already having issues with Gavin…”
“What’s going on there? I’ve been meaning to ask you,” Jaxson said before reaching down to grab a piece of my hair. He rubbed it between his fingers.
“She wants to move faster than he’s prepared to. He wants to build their relationship, before they are completely intimate. She wants to make their connection now. She wants to see if they could increase their gift levels if they do. He thinks it’s for the wrong reasons,” I said carefully.
Troy groaned. “Tell Jemmy no and she’s like a dog with a bone, she won’t let go, and she’ll keep pushing until she gets what she wants.”
“Which will only drive Gavin further away,” Jace said pragmatically.
“This is his first real relationship, so…” my voice trailed off.
“So, in comes another pretty girl, that may give him the time and space he needs, and she’ll win his affection,” Noah sighed.
“You think she’s pretty?” I jokingly teased him.
“Well…” Noah stuttered.
I began to giggle and heard a few of the guys chuckle. “Got you,” I whispered to him, then shrugged. “She is beautiful, and she’s almost the exact opposite of Jemmy. How does that even work with connections? Has the nucleus preferred one connection over the other? Has it hurt their overall relationship?”
“Do you prefer one of us over the other?” Troy wickedly joked, but I could hear the seriousness in his words as well.
“No,” I didn’t even hesitate with my answer. There was no thinking about it. “You each fulfill a different need within me. You all share similarities, but it’s your differences that set you apart and draw me to you in other ways.”
Noah groaned. “Why did we all agree to this self-imposed celibacy? I want to be fulfilling other needs,” he teased.
“Shut up,” Jace and Remy bit out simultaneously.
We all laughed accept for Noah and Jaxson.