"There's one other thing," I said. "You're out of Robin's life. You don't even have thoughts about her."
"What am I supposed to do? Pretend I don't see her? She works here, man."
"Not anymore. In fact, if I were you, I'd think about finding a job. outside the country."
His face looked confused, then I could see a fearful comprehension start to work in his eyes.
"You got it, Jerry. I'm going to have a talk with Bubba Rocque. When I do, I'll tell him who sent me. You might think about Iran."
I dropped the .45 in the pocket of my raincoat and walked back out of the bar into the rain that had now thinned and was blowing in rivulets off the iron-scrolled balconies along the street. The air was clean and cool and sweet-smelling with the rain, and I walked in the lee of the buildings toward Jackson Square and Decatur, where my truck was parked, and I could see the lighted peaks of St. Louis Cathedral against the black sky. The river was covered with mist as thick as clouds. The waiters had stacked the chairs in the Café du Monde, and the wind blew the mist over the tabletops in a wet sheen. In the distance I could hear a ship's horn blowing across the water.
It was eleven o'clock when I got back home, and the storm had stopped and the house was dark. The pecan trees were wet and black in the yard, and the slight breeze off the bayou rustled their leaves and shook water onto the tin roof of the gallery. I checked on Alafair, then went into our bedroom, where Annie was sleeping on her stomach in her panties and a pajama top. The attic fan was on, and it drew the cool air from outside and moved the curly hair on the back of her neck. I put the .45 back in the drawer, undressed, and lay down beside her. I could feel the fatigue of the day rush through me like a drug. She stirred slightly, then turned her head away from me on the pillow. I placed my hand on her back. She rolled over with her face pointing at the ceiling and her arm over her eyes.
"You got back all right?" she said.
"Sure."
She was quiet a moment, and I could hear the dryness of her mouth when she spoke again: "Who was she, Dave?"
"A dancer in a joint on Bourbon."
"Did you take care of everything?"
"Yes."
"You owed her, I guess."
"Not really. I just had to get her off the hook."
"I don't understand why she's your obligation."
"Because she's a drunk and an addict and she can't do anything for herself. They broke her finger, Annie. If they catch her again, it'll be much worse."
I heard her take a breath, then she put her hands on her stomach and looked up into the dark.
"It's not over, though, is it?" she said.
"It is for her. And the guy who was partly responsible for me getting my face kicked in is going to be blowing New Orleans in a hurry. I admit that makes me feel good."
"I wish I could share your feeling."
It was quiet in the room, and the moon came out and made shadows in the trees. I felt I was about to lose something, maybe forever. I put my foot over hers and took one of her hands in mine. Her hand was pliant and dry.
"I didn't seek it out," I said. "The trouble came to us. You have to confront problems, Annie. When you don't, they follow you around like pariah dogs."
"You always tell me that one of the main axioms in AA is 'Easy does it.'"
"It doesn't mean you should avoid your responsibilities. It doesn't mean you should accept the role of victim."
"Maybe we should talk about the price we should all be willing to pay for your pride."
"I don't know what to say anymore. You don't understand, and I don't think you're going to."
"What should I feel, Dave? You lie down next to me and tell me you've been with a stripper, that you've run somebody out of New Orleans, that it makes you feel good. I don't know anything about a world like that. I don't think anybody should have to."
"It exists because people pretend it's not there."
"Let other people live in it, then."