Swan Peak (Dave Robicheaux 17)

I propped my elbow on the bar and pinched my temples. I hated to hear what was coming. In fact, I wished I had not gone looking for Clete and this time had let him take the fall on his own. “You got it on with her?” I said.

“It’s like my libido was on autopilot. Five minutes away, there’s this motel on the point. We had the room on the end, looking over the water. Man, it was like I was twenty-five again.”

“Oh, Clete,” I said, more to myself than to him.

“We agreed afterwards it was a mistake. She was serious when she called about this Indian guy she used to sing with. It’s over between them, but she doesn’t want to see him hurt. I think she’s a good woman, Dave.”

I wanted to punch him off the bar stool.

Just then the bikers began laughing uproariously at a remark one of them had made about the drink waitress.

“How about shutting the fuck up?” I said over my shoulder.

“What’d you say?” one of them asked.

“I said close your mouth. You’re disturbing a conversation here,” I replied, my face tight, my hand opening and closing on the bar.

The entire bar became silent. Out on the highway, I could hear a tractor-trailer rig shifting down for the long haul over Lolo Pass.

“Let it go, man,” one of the bikers said to the others. “They’re cops.”

“The Bobbsey Twins from Homicide, bud, Clete Purcel and Dave Robicheaux, NOPD’s answer for every whore’s wet dream,” Clete said, winking at them. “Something to tell your grandkids about.”

But none of it was funny.

THAT NIGHT IN bed I told Molly what had happened.

“Has he lost his mind?” she said.

“He wants to be young again. He wants New Orleans to be like it was when we were beat cops. Scarlett O’Hara comes along and stokes him up and lets him think he’s Rhett Butler. She hit him with the perfect combo — beautiful victim protecting her ex-boyfriend needs help from chivalric PI.”

“Stop making excuses for him. Clete went to bed with another man’s wife.”

“That’s the point. It’s eating his lunch,” I said.

I heard her sigh in the darkness. “I’m really sorry to hear this,” she said.

“Maybe we should go back to New Iberia,” I said.

“I think that’s a bad idea. We didn’t do anything wrong. We’re not going to let other people’s deeds or behavior make choices for us. Clete needs to get his goddamn act together.”

“He’ll come around,” I said.

“Who are you kidding? Clete’s at war with himself. It’s the only way he knows how to live.”

She was right. Clete had slept with the wife of a mutilated war veteran, a man who had been burned in a tank. In Vietnam he had witnessed the death by fire of marines who had been trapped inside a burning armored vehicle. In his dreams, almost every third or fourth night of his life, he heard the sounds of ammunition belts popping in the heat and the voices of the men who couldn’t free the hatches on their vehicle. Now he had an extra set of knives turning inside his chest. Jamie Sue Wellstone may have been the succubus who provided the temptation and the opportunity, but the most pernicious agency in Clete’s life always remained the same. He would give up his life before he would willingly harm an animal or a friend or an innocent person, but daily he went about deconstructing himself without ever understanding that the child his father had irreparably injured was still living inside him. Clete had demons not even an exorcist would take on.

Had Jamie Sue Wellstone deliberately played him? I wasn’t sure. As though she had read my thoughts, Molly said, “I think you and Clete got too close to something. I think the Wellstones know exactly what they’re doing. I think you’re next, Dave.”

“Not me. I’ve fought my last war.”

She turned toward the wall and didn’t reply.

THE NEXT MORNING, Friday, Clete’s troubles took on a different shade, in the form of Special Agent Alicia Rosecrans from the FBI. When she found no one home at Albert’s house, she drove her automobile up the dirt road to our front porch.

She looked Amerasian and was dressed in a blue suit, white blouse, and conservative shoes, her dark hair touching her shoulders, her face narrow. She wore small wire-framed glasses that gave her a studious look, like that of a research librarian or a university professor devoted to an arcane subject that no one cared about. She said she wanted to speak to Clete Purcel. When I told her I didn’t know where he was, her eyes shifted off my face onto the interior of the cabin. She looked into my face again, not blinking, her expression impassive.

“You’re a sheriff’s detective in Louisiana?” she said.