He picked up a shelled crawfish, bit it in half, and looked out the window at the rain slanting in the light. His face was empty now.
“Well, if I was in Angola I’d try to get out, too,” he said. “Do we have some beer? I can’t eat crawfish without beer.”
“Call the sheriff’s department and ask where they think they are.”
“I can’t do that, Margaret. Now, let’s put a stop to all this.” He walked out of the kitchen, and I saw my mother’s jawbone flex under the skin.
It was about three in the morning when I heard the shed door begin slamming in the wind again. A moment later I saw my father walk past my bedroom door buttoning his denim coat over his undershirt. I followed him halfway down the stairs and watched him take a flashlight from the kitchen drawer and lift the twelve-gauge pump out of the rack on the dining-room wall. He saw me, then paused for a moment as though he were caught between two thoughts.
Then he said, “Come on down a minute, son. I guess I didn’t get that stob hammered in as well as I thought. But bolt the door behind me, will you?”
“Did you see something, Daddy?”
“No, no. I’m just taking this to satisfy your mother. Those men are probably all the way to New Orleans by now.”
He turned on the outside light and went out the back door. Through the kitchen window I watched him cross the lawn. He had the flashlight pointed in front of him, and as he approached the tractor shed, he raised the shotgun and held it with one hand against his waist. He pushed the swinging door all the way back against the wall with his foot, shined the light over the tractor and the rolls of chicken wire, then stepped inside the darkness.
I could hear my own breathing as I watched the flashlight beam bounce through the cracks in the shed. Then I saw the light steady in the far corner where we hung the tools and tack. I waited for something awful to happen—the shotgun to streak fire through the boards, a pick in murderous hands to rake downward in a tangle of harness. Instead, my father appeared in the doorway a moment later, waved the flashlight at me, then replaced the stob and pressed it into the wet earth with his boot. I unbolted the back door and went up to bed, relieved that the convicts were far away and that my father was my father, a truly brave man who kept my mother’s and my world a secure place.
But he didn’t go back to bed. I heard him first in the upstairs hall cabinet, then in the icebox, and finally on the back porch. I went to my window and looked down into the moonlit yard and saw him walking with the shotgun under one arm and a lunch pail and folded towels in the other.
Just at false dawn, when the mist from the marsh hung thick on the lawn and the gray light began to define the black trees along the bayou, I heard my parents arguing in the next room. Then my father snapped: “Damn it, Margaret. The man’s hurt.”
Mother didn’t come out of her room that morning. My father banged out the back door, was gone a half hour, then returned and cooked a breakfast of couche-couche and sausages for us.
“You want to go to a picture show today?” he said.
“I was going fishing with Tee Batiste.” He was a little Negro boy whose father worked for us sometimes.
“It won’t be any good after all that rain. Your mother doesn’t want you tracking mud in from the bank, either.”
“Is something going on, Daddy?”
“Oh, Mother and I have our little discussions sometimes. It’s nothing.” He smiled at me over his coffee cup.
I almost always obeyed my father, but that morning I found ways to put myself among the trees on the bank of the bayou. First, I went down on the dock to empty the rainwater out of my pirogue, then I threw dirt clods at the heads of water moccasins on the far side, then I made a game of jumping from cypress root to cypress root along the water’s edge without actually touching the bank, and finally I was near what I knew my father wanted me away from that day: the old houseboat that had been washed up and left stranded among the oak trees in the great flood of 1927. Wild morning glories grew over the rotting deck, kids had riddled the cabin walls with .22 holes, and a slender oak had rooted in the collapsed floor and grown up through one window. Two sets of sharply etched footprints, side by side, led down from the levee, on the other side of which was the tractor shed, to a sawed-off cypress stump that someone had used to climb up on the deck.
The air among the trees was still and humid and dappled with broken shards of sunlight. I wished I had brought my .22, and then I wondered at my own foolishness in involving myself in something my father had been willing to lie about in order to protect me from. But I had to know what he was hiding, what or who it was that would make him choose the welfare of another over my mother’s anxiety and fear.
I stepped up on the cypress stump and leaned forward until I could see into the doorless cabin. There were an empty dynamite box and a half-dozen beer bottles moted with dust in one corner, and I remembered the seismograph company that had used the houseboat as a storage shack for their explosives two years ago. I stepped up on the deck more bravely now, sure that I would find nothing else in the cabin other than possibly a possum’s nest or a squirrel’s cache of acorns. Then I saw the booted pants leg in the gloom just as I smelled his odor. It was like a slap in the face, a mixture of dried sweat and blood and the sour stench of swamp mud. He was sleeping on his side, his knees drawn up before him, his green-and-white, pin-striped uniform streaked black, his bald, brown head tucked under one arm. On each wrist was a silver manacle and a short length of broken chain. Someone had slipped a narrow piece of cable through one ma
nacle and had nailed both looped ends to an oak floor beam with a twelve-inch iron spike. In that heart-pounding moment the length of cable and the long spike leaped at my eye even more than the convict did, because both of them came from the back of my father’s pickup truck.
I wanted to run but I was transfixed. There was a bloody tear across the front of his shirt, as though he had run through barbed wire, and even in sleep his round, hard body seemed to radiate a primitive energy and power. He breathed hoarsely through his open mouth, and I could see the stumps of his teeth and the snuff stains on his soft, pink gums. A deerfly hummed in the heat and settled on his forehead, and when his face twitched like a snapping rubber band, I jumped backward involuntarily. Then I felt my father’s strong hands grab me like vise grips on each arm.
My father was seldom angry with me, but this time his eyes were hot and his mouth was a tight line as we walked back through the trees toward the house. Finally I heard him blow out his breath and slow his step next to me. I looked up at him and his face had gone soft again.
“You ought to listen to me, son. I had a reason not to want you back there,” he said.
“What are you going to do with him?”
“I haven’t decided. I need to talk with your mother a little bit.”
“What did he do to go to prison?”
“He says he robbed a Laundromat. For that they gave him fifty-six years.”
A few minutes later he was talking to Mother again in their room. This time the door was open and neither one of them cared what I heard.