And then there’s the fact that I’m being deceitful. How am I supposed to get to where I want to be with Wyatt if I’m lying to him?
He has no idea that I’m a spy for his rival company. If he had any clue who I was, he certainly wouldn’t have given me the internship and he never would have agreed to work so closely with me. Because, crazy as this whole thing is, I get the feeling that he saw something in me too.
But if I let this carry on, it’ll be built on a lie.
I can’t admit to him that I only showed up to the interview as a way to trick him into giving me insider information. It would destroy the bond between us. Unless I’m just completely imagining this thing between us, seeing what I want to see because I’m falling hard and fast for the one man on earth that I shouldn’t.
I put my head in my hands. This whole thing is making my head spin. I had no idea that things were going to go this way, and now that they have, I don’t know what to do. Do I follow my heart to Wyatt? Or do I keep my loyalties to my father, the man who raised me and made me the person I am today?
I’ve never felt less sure of myself. I’m usually so confident, so in charge of my own emotions that I don’t need to question my actions. But now, I’m stuck right in the middle of the hardest decision of my life.
I’ve always wanted to love and be loved. In my dreams, I always imagined that when I found the perfect man for me, I’d spot him right away, and when I saw Wyatt, the feeling was instantaneous. It felt like coming home. It just felt right. Like fate had brought us together.
But it wasn’t fate. It was my meddling dad. He’s always pushed me into the deep end, no matter the consequences. Normally, I wouldn’t mind. Normally, I find a way to muddle through. But this time, it’s a matter of the heart, and I couldn’t be more furious with him.
If he’d never sent me to that interview, I could have lived in ignorant bliss, not knowing that the man of my dreams is also my dad’s biggest enemy. It feels like a cruel trick of fate or some kind of test to see what kind of a person I really am.
Am I the kind of daughter who betrays her father for the first man who takes her fancy? Am I really going to risk everything just to pursue this?
I blush. Because honestly…it feels like the answer is yes. I don’t even know if Wyatt feels the same yet, and I have no idea whether this is something we can make last, but it feels like I owe it to myself to try and find out.
I’ve wanted this for so long as I’ve known what love is. And as much as I love the world of business, it was my dad who shoved me headfirst into it. He was the one who encouraged me to go to college, to make a career out of it the way that he did. He’s the one who paved my future for me. Now, I want to stray from the path he made for me. But when it comes to love, it’s just something that you can’t involve your dad in.
But how do I do this?
Do I just keep all of my secrets close to my chest? Or should I be honest instead, blow my cover, and accept the consequences? Wyatt would feel betrayed and my dad would hate me for this, but maybe the sooner I’m honest, the sooner they can both forgive me.
But it’s such a risk. I don’t know whether I could survive the blow of losing Wyatt when I’ve only just found him. It sounds insane when I think about it. We may have only just met, but that connection I felt the moment I saw him…it’s unbreakable on my end. It’s something I’ll never be able to let go of.
I want things that no woman should ever want from a stranger, but I want it all with this man.
And I can’t stop it.
I hear my dad open the door downstairs and my heart freezes. What am I going to tell him when he asks about the interview? I haven’t got any of this figured out yet. I need more time to get my head straight. But he’s already coming upstairs.
I still feel flustered, like I’ve got a permanent blush on my cheeks, an after-effect of my time with Wyatt. What if my dad senses that something is wrong? What if he changes his mind and tells me to quit the internship? Then I won’t ever get a chance to see Wyatt again.