I want to wash all her fear and worry away. I want her to know what I want. I want her to know where I stand. And there's only one thing I can think of that will do that.
In one quick move, I cup her cheeks and kiss her. I don't want her to wonder anymore about us. My lips crush hers, kissing her so she can feel exactly what I feel inside. There's no doubt in my mind, I want more from this life, and I want her with me along the way.
“I've been miserable without you,” I say as I pull my head back. I'm still holding her face, stroking her cheeks with my thumbs. “It took leaving for me to realize that you make me happy. I'm an idiot, Ronda. I shouldn't have left. I should have never put work before happiness. I don't care about the company anymore. I don't care what anyone else thinks. I don't care if I lose everything, as long as I don't lose you, Ronda.”
“Then why did you leave at all? You didn't say a word, you were just gone.” Her eyes move between mine, searching for truth in my words. And I don't blame her. Why shouldn't she ask questions?
Ronda deserves answers.
“I know, and I'm sorry. I just. . .” My words trail off. I don't know how to say it. It's hard for me to express myself like this. I'm always so focused on work, and have been for years.
I'm the boss, the man in charge. I give orders, I make the rules, but this, this doesn't follow any set of rules. This isn't a set of numbers I can manipulate for my own personal gain. Her feelings don't follow a set of guidelines that I created. I can't manipulate her for my enjoyment.
This is life. This is her life. My life. It's not something I can control.
Ronda lays her hands over mine in a reassuring way. “What? I'm here to listen, Manu.” Her fingers run up and down over the top of my hands. They're soft, tender, and make the hair on my arms stand up.
“I was scared.” The words tumble out and I have no control of them. “I've never felt this way before. You made it hard to focus, to concentrate, to do anything at all. You've been on my mind every single hour of every single day. I haven't been able to sleep without seeing you in my dreams. I can't go anywhere without seeing you in the crowd. It scares the shit out of me. I left thinking it would help me clear my head and get back to who I was before you. But I was wrong.”
“I was scared too you know.”
“You were? Why?”
“Because I thought I drove you away.”
“No, you didn't do anything wrong.” I brush the loose strands of hair out of her face, pushing them behind her ears. “It took me leaving to realize what I actually wanted, to see what was important, and that's you.” I smile down at her and kiss her forehead. “I was an idiot, Ronda. I should have just listened to my heart from the beginning.”
“It's hard to hear a feeling when the voice inside your head is louder.” She smiles back and tilts her face against my right palm. “What's your heart saying right now?”
“Honestly, it's telling me to take you inside. To never let you go, to give you the world you deserve.”
“Is it? That's what it's saying?”
“All I know is that I need you, Ronda. No matter what comes my way, no matter what choices I have to make, I know I'll choose you every time.”
Ronda pulls my hands off her face, and holds me by the wrist. She takes a long step inside my apartment, pulling me with her. There's liquid fire in her eyes as she parts her lips and gives me a seductive smile.
“Tell me again that you need me,” she says as she turns around to face me, grabbing my other hand. She's walking backwards, dragging us both to my bedroom.
“I need you. I can't get you out of my head. You're all I think about.”
“What do you think about?”
“I think about your smile, and your velvet smooth lips. I think about the way your lips feel on mine, and how you fit perfectly in my arms.”
“What else?” she asks as we round the corner and move down the hall.
“I think about your perfect body, and lickable tits. I think about the way your eyes sparkle when you laugh, and how you get goosebumps when I kiss you at the base of your neck.”
Ronda turns back around, releasing my hands as she walks into my room and toward the bed. My eyes fall to her ass as she kicks her hips out with extra flare. I'm hard instantly. My cock thickens and starts to throb as she sits down on the bed and crosses her legs.