There was a knock on the door. I expected Doctor Cunningham, but it was Detective Ramirez. His shirt today was a pale tan. The half-mast tie was deep brown with a small white and yellow design on it. But he'd also kept a brown suit jacket that matched his pants. It was the first time I'd seen him with an entire suit on at once. I wondered if the sleeves were rolled up underneath the jacket sleeves. He had a bouquet of shiny Mylar balloons with cartoon characters on them. The balloons said things like "get well soon," and "oh, bother." That was the Winnie the Pooh balloon.
I had to smile. "You already sent flowers." There was a small, but nice arrangement running long to daisies and miniature carnations on the bedside table.
"I wanted to bring something in person. I'm sorry I wasn't here sooner."
My smile wilted around the edges. "This level of apology is usually reserved for boyfriends or lovers, detective. Why are you feeling so guilty?"
"I keep having to remind you to call me Hernando."
"I keep forgetting."
"No, you don't. You keep trying to distance yourself."
I just looked at him. It was probably true. "Maybe."
"If I was your lover, I'd have followed you to the hospital and been by your side every minute," he said.
"Even with a murder investigation going on?" I asked.
He had the grace to shrug and look sheepish. "I'd have tried to be here every minute."
"What's been happening while I've been in here? My doctor has made sure I haven't found out anything."
Ramirez put the balloons beside the flowers. The balloons had one of those little weights on them to keep them from drifting away. "The last time I tried to see you, your doctor made me promise not to talk about the case."
"I didn't know you were here before."
"You were pretty out of it."
"Was I awake?"
He shook his head.
Great. I wondered how many other people had paraded through here while I was passed out cold. "I'm getting out today, so I think it's safe to talk about the case."
He looked at me, and the expression was enough. He didn't believe me.
"Doesn't anyone trust me?"
"You're like most of the cops I know. You never really get off work."
I raised my hand in the Boy Scout's salute. "Honest, the nurse told me I'm being released today."
He smiled. "I saw your back, remember. Even if you're being let out, you won't be going back on the case, not in person anyway."
"What? I'm going to look at pictures and listen to the clues that other people find?"
He nodded. "Something like that."
"Do I look like Nero Wolfe? I am not a staying at home, out of the firing line, kind of girl."
He laughed, and it was still a good laugh. A nice normal laugh. It had none of Jean-Claude's touchable sex appeal, but in some ways I liked it better for its very normalcy. But ... but as nice and warm as Ramirez was, I had the memory of Jean-Claude's dream in my head. I could feel the touch of his hand on mine, a touch that lingered on my skin the way an expensive perfume will linger in a room long after the woman who wears it is gone.
Maybe it was love, but whatever it was, it was hard to find a man who could compete with it, no matter how much I wanted to find one. It was as if when he was with me, all other men just faded into the background, except Richard. Was that what it meant to be in love? Was it? I wish I knew.
"What are you thinking about?" Ramirez asked.
"Nothing."
"Whatever that nothing is, it makes you look very serious, almost sad." He'd moved very close to the bed, fingers touching the edge of the sheet. His face was gentle, questioning, very open. I realized in a way that Ramirez had my ticket. He knew what punched my buttons, partly just coincidence, partly he read me well. He read what I liked and what I hated in a man better than Jean-Claude had for years. I liked honesty, openness, and a sort of little boy charm. There were other things that led to lust, but for my heart that was the way. Jean-Claude was almost never open about anything. He always had a dozen different motives for everything he did. Honesty was not his best thing, and his little boy charm ... nope. Jean-Claude had gotten there first, and for better or worse that was the way things were.
Maybe a little honesty would work here, too. "I'm wondering how different my life would be if I'd met you or someone like you first."
"First, that implies that you've already met someone."
"I told you I had two guys back home."
"You also said you couldn't decide between them. My grandmother always said that the only reason a woman hesitates between two men is that she hasn't met the right one."
"Your grandmother didn't say that."
He nodded. "Yes, she did. She was being courted by two men, sort of halfway engaged to both, then she met my grandfather and she knew why she'd been hesitating. She didn't love either of the two men."
I sighed. "Don't tell me I've got caught up in some family folklore?"
"You never said you were taken. Tell me I'm wasting my time and I'll stop."
I looked up at him, really looked at him, let my eye follow the smiling line of his face, the shining humor in his eyes. "You're wasting your time. I am sorry, but I think you are."
"Think?"
I shook my head. "Stop it, Hernando. I'm taken, okay."
"You're not taken until you make a final choice, but that's okay. I'm not the one. If I were, you'd know it. When you meet him, you won't have any doubts."
"Don't tell me you believe in true love, soul mate kind of stuff."
He shrugged, fingers running up and down the edge of the sheet. "What can I say? I was raised on stories about love at first sight. My grandmother, both my parents, even my great-grandfather said the same thing. They met that special person, and no one else existed after that."
"You're descended from a family of romantics," I said.
He nodded happily. "My great-grandfather, Poppy, talked about my great-grandmother like they were still school kids right up until he died."
"It sounds nice, really, but I don't believe in true love, Hernando. I don't believe that there's only one special person for your whole life's happiness."
"You don't want to believe it," he said.
I shook my head. "This is about to go from cute to irritating, Hernando."
"At least you're using my first name."
"Maybe because I don't see you as a threat anymore."
"A threat? Just because I like you? Just because I asked you out?" He frowned when he said it.
It was my turn to shrug. "Whatever I mean, Hernando, just cut the juice. It ain't going nowhere. Whatever I decide, it's between the two guys I have waiting for me back home."
"It sounds like you weren't sure of that until just now."
I thought about that for a heartbeat, or two. "You know, I think you're right. I think I've been looking around for someone else, anyone else. But it's no good."
"You don't sound happy about that. Love should make you happy, Anita."
I smiled and knew it was wistful. "If you think love makes you happy, Hernando, you've either never been in love, or never been in love long enough to have to start compromising."
"You're not old enough to be this cynical."
"It's not cynicism. It's reality."
His face was soft and sad. "You've lost your sense of romance."
"I never had a sense of romance. Trust me, the guys at home will back me on it."
"Then I'm even sorrier."
"Don't take this wrong, but hearing you go on about true love and romance, makes me sorry for you. You are setting yourself up for the big fall, Hernando."
"Not if it works out," he said.
I smiled and shook my head. "Isn't it against the rules for homicide detectives to be naive?"
"You think it's naive?" he asked.
"I know it is, but it's sweet. I wish you luck finding your Ms. Right."
The door opened and it was Doctor Cunningham. Ramirez asked, "Does she really get out today, Doctor?"
"Yes, she does."
"Why doesn't anyone believe me?" I asked.
They both looked at me. Funny how quickly people caught onto certain aspects of my personality. "I want to do one more check on your back, then you're free to go."
"You got a ride out of here?" Ramirez asked.
"I asked the nurse to call Ted, but I don't know if she did, or if he's home."
"I'll wait around to give you a ride." Before I could say anything, he added, "What are friends for?"
"Thanks, and this means you can fill me in on the case on the way out."
"You never give up, do you?"
"Not about a case," I said.
Ramirez walked out shaking his head, giving the doctor and me some privacy. Dr. Cunningham poked and prodded, and finally just ran his hands over my back. It was nearly healed. "It's just impressive. I've treated lycanthropes before, Ms. Blake, and you're healing almost that fast."
I flexed my left hand, stretching the skin where the bite mark still showed where the flayed one had bitten me. The bite was pale pink, settling into a nice ordinary scar, only weeks ahead of schedule. I wondered if the scar would eventually disappear, or if it would be another permanent one.
"I've done blood work up on you. I even snuck some of your blood down to the genetics department and had them look for something not human."
"Genetic work takes weeks or months," I said.
"I've got a friend in the department."
"Some friend," I said.
He smiled and it was warmer than it should have been. "She is."
"So I'm free to go?"
"You are." His face got all serious again. "But I'd still like to know what the hell you are."
"You wouldn't believe human?"
"Forty-eight hours after your second injury, we had to remove the stitches from your back because the skin was starting to grow over them. No, I won't believe human."
"It's too long a story, Doc. If it was something I could teach you to use on other people, I'd tell, but it's not that kind of thing. You might call the healing a bonus for some other less pleasant shit that I put up with."
"Unless the other shit is really awful, the healing makes up for it. You'd never have survived the original injuries if you'd been human."
"Maybe."
"No maybe," he said.
"I'm glad to be alive. I'm glad to be nearly healed. I'm glad it didn't take months to recover. What more do you want me to say?"
He draped his stethoscope over his shoulders, holding onto the ends, frowning at me. "Nothing. I'll tell Detective Ramirez that he can tell you about the case now and that you are getting out today." He glanced at the flowers and the balloons. "You've been here, what, five days?"
"Something like that."
He touched a balloon, making them bounce on their strings. "You work fast."
"I don't think it's me that works fast."
He gave the balloons one more whack so they bobbed and weaved like some underwater creature. "Whatever, enjoy your stay in Albuquerque. Try to stay healthy." With that he left, and Ramirez came back in.
"Doctor says I can talk the case with you again."
"Yep."
"You're not going to like it." He looked all serious.
"What's happened?"
"There's been another murder, and not only are you not invited to the scene, neither am I."