I was positioned on top of her, my cock hard as a rock and practically dripping from her mouth, so when she spread her legs wide beneath me, it was easy to slip inside. I closed my eyes and relished the feeling of connecting with her again. Nothing had ever felt so good in all of my life. Her wet heat and tight pussy sucked me in and made me lose my mind.
And it wasn’t just the physical connection that felt so good. Natalia opened her eyes, and even in the darkness, our gazes connected. I’d fucked plenty in my life, but I could honestly say this was my first time making love.
I began to move in and out slowly, as I watched her face. She was so beautiful, so open, so raw and real for me. Emotion overcame me, and I opened my mouth to seal the deal. Wiping a strand of hair from her face, I brushed my lips to hers. “Natalia, I lo…”
Shit!
Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuuuckkk.
I quickly pulled out and jumped from the bed.
Natalia was rightly confused. “What? What’s the matter?”
I paced back and forth, ripping out the hair on my head. “I didn’t have a condom on.”
“So? I’m on the pill. I trust you.”
“That doesn’t matter,” I snapped. “It was totally irresponsible. What if…fuck. I can’t believe I did that.”
“Hunter, it’s okay.”
“No, it’s not. It’s not okay. It shouldn’t have happened.”
I went to the bathroom to privately berate myself. How could I have been so irresponsible? What if I’d gotten Natalia pregnant? What if she’d had my kid, and we were both positive, and I left her to raise it with the disease on her own, and she had to bury two people she loved?”
Stupid.
So fucking careless.
I took a shower to try to relax, but it didn’t help. I needed to apologize to Natalia for the way I’d acted and make sure she knew it could never happen again. But when I came out from the bathroom, she was gone.
***
I hit redial for the tenth time, but she didn’t answer.
Such an asshole.
I’m such an asshole.
I finally get my girl back, and what do I do? Fuck it up while inside of her. Who the hell does that? I overreacted. There was no two ways about it. And I was rude and barked at her when I should’ve been apologizing.
My elbows were on my knees, hands holding my head as I sat on the edge of the bed. She’d been gone more than an hour when the lock cli
cked open.
I stood immediately, blew out a relieved breath, and headed toward her. “I’m sorry, babe.”
Natalia put her hand up, stopping me. “No. Sit. We need to talk.”
I did what she asked and waited. Minutes of awkward silence followed as Nat fiddled with the ring she always wore on her pointer finger.
When I couldn’t take it anymore, I tried again. “Nat, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have—”
“I don’t want to know.”