Slowly, I kiss my way up her body, lying next to her and pulling her into my arms. She’s slick with sweat, and her breathing is labored while her heart races. I can feel it as I hold her against me.
“I love you, Griffin.”
My heart soars. “I love you too.” I know without a shadow of a doubt that there will never be a day where I won’t mean that. There will never be a day moving forward where she’s not the one who owns my heart.
Her hand finds its way between us, and she grips my cock. “Your turn,” she purrs.
“That’s not how this works,” I tell her.
“That’s how it works today,” she tells me.
“Let me hold you.”
“You have all night to hold me. Right now, I want to return the favor.”
She doesn’t realize that what we just shared was as much for me as it was for her. “You’re a gift,” I tell her.
She smiles and pushes on my shoulder, so I’m lying flat on my back. She straddles my hips, and I can feel her juices as they drop on my cock. She moves her hips back just enough that she can stroke me from root to tip, spreading her all over me.
My hands grip her hips as I try like hell to let her do her thing. She strokes me with both hands, and it takes every ounce of power I have not to close my eyes. I don’t want to miss this.
“Griffin?”
“Hmm?”
“I want more.”
“More of what?”
“More of you. More of this.” She glances down to where my cock is double fisted in her hands.
I sit up, causing her to break her hold, and wrap her arms around me. “You have all of me,” I tell her, brushing her hair out of her eyes.
“Not yet, but I want to.”
“Pey” I start, but her finger to my lips hushes me.
“I want you to make love to me.”
My heart stalls, and it’s several long seconds before it begins beating again. I swallow hard. I don’t know what to say to that. I want to toss her on the bed and slide deep inside her and never leave, but this… this is a big deal for both of us.
“Maybe you should think about it,” I tell her. It’s not that I don’t want to. I do, and I know she’s it for me, but I don’t want her making this choice in the heat of the moment, no matter how angry my cock will be for denying him entry to the promised land.
“I have thought about it. I wasn’t waiting for marriage, but I was waiting for you.”
“We can’t,” I say with a sigh. “I don’t have protection. I wasn’t planning on this.”
“Lucky for you, I was.” She grins as she climbs off my lap and off the bed. She moves to her bag that’s resting on the floor and digs around inside. She lifts a new box of condoms in the air, and the smile on her face, one of victory and desire, is one I will never forget as long as I live.
On her way back to the bed, she tears open the box and breaks off a small foil packet, placing the remainder on the nightstand. She hands it to me, then climbs back on the bed and lies on her back. “I think… like this,” she says, her face blushing.
Now she chooses to get all bashful on me?
“I think you on top, you know, for the first time, would be better.”
“Are you sure about this?”
“The only other thing that I’m more sure of is how much I love you.”
Damn. Her words hit me in the feels. Sitting back on my knees, I tear open the condom. My hands shake as I roll the latex over my hard length. Tossing the wrapper to the floor, I hover over her and settle my weight on my elbows on either side of her head. My cock is nestled against her pussy, and my heart is banging against my rib cage like a drum.
She lifts her hands to rest on either side of my face. “I want this, Griffin. I want you.”
“Me too,” I whisper. There’s a crack in my voice.
“What’s going on in that head of yours?” she inquires.
“Love. So much love, and I’m trying to memorize every touch, every breath of this moment.”
“This isn’t a one and done.”
I nod. “It’s the last piece of me I have to give you. You have all of me, Peyton.”
“And you have all of me. Well, almost, there’s this one little thing,” she says, wrapping her legs around my waist.
“I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You’d never hurt me. This will be painful, but I know I’m safe with you. I know that you’re going to take care of me. This is something we only get to give away once. I want it to be you.”