“You are. You’re a good person that does bad things.” She stroked Bethany’s cheek and then kissed his cheek. “Do you want me to leave? Is that why you’re telling me?”
“No, I don’t want you to go.”
“I’m not going then,” she said. “You’ve got me, and I’m not going away until you kick me out.”
She swiped away the tears. “I’ll get you that drink.”
He watched her walk into his house.
He was screwed.
When it came to Jasmine, he wasn’t going to be able to walk away.
He didn’t want to.
****
Jasmine didn’t feel so good. The visit from the agency didn’t go very well, and as she sat at the dinner table with her notice of being let go, she felt like the biggest fucking failure in the world. They had been made aware of her relationship with Hawk Dark and were not happy that she’d abused her position. There had been a supervisor from the agency who’d decided to do a silent check on her. He’d caught her with Hawk and reported her immediately. Even though it was her first offense they didn’t believe in offering second chances.
From that day forward, her contracts had been terminated and she was permanently removed from the books.
Biting her lip, everything seemed to come crashing down around her. It had been only a couple of months with Hawk, but now, her life, the possibilities, were all gone. That little girl upstairs taking a nap meant the world to her. Hawk, damn it, for all of his brash biker ways, she fucking loved him.
What was she going to do now without a job? Would they send another nanny?
She felt sick to her stomach and so sad over everything.
What if this was just a bit of fun for him?
He’d declared her as his old lady, but did that really have any meaning at all? She wiped at her nose and got to her feet as she heard the door open.
“Babe, you won’t believe the day I’ve had. First Bear and Renee called me this morning and told me they eloped. That they’re not waiting around to get married.”
She forced a smile to her lips as he came into the dining room.
He took one look at her and then at the table. “What’s up?”
“It’s nothing. Renee called me. She said she’d throw a party or we could have a girls’ night. She sounded excited.”
Hawk picked up the letter off the table.
“I had a meeting with them tomorrow,” he said, looking at it.
“Well, you don’t have to worry. They have already fired me, and they’re well within their rights. I broke all of their rules.” It was the first time ever she’d ever broken so many rules. “I’ve never done anything like this before.” She ran fingers through her hair and took a step back.
“Never?”
“No. I’ve never crossed any lines or boundaries. I’ve been a nanny and that’s all. That’s all I wanted to be. All I needed to be and I’ve never felt that I needed to change that.” She blew out a breath. “I can’t even believe I’ve done this now. I mean, what is happening to me?”
“Are you in love with me?” Hawk asked.
Her gaze went to his. “Excuse me?”
“It’s pretty simple. Do you love me or not?”
“Hawk?”
“If you don’t, I get it. I’m a single dad. I’ve got a kid that when you first met her wouldn’t stop crying. I’m a Prez. I do a lot of bad shit to a lot of people. I’ve even admitted some of what I do, and I’m not willing to change. I can’t change. This is who I am, but I know that there isn’t any other woman in this world that can make me feel so fucking afraid and excited all at the same time.”
She frowned, looking at him. “What?”
“When I’m with you, no one else exists. It’s just you and me, and I couldn’t give a fuck about anything else in between. You set me on fire, and I’m so fucking afraid that you’ll look at me and see me for what I am, and that’s a man who doesn’t deserve a woman like you. I know I’m lucky, and I’m telling you know, I am completely, one-hundred percent devoted to you. None of the … other women appeal to me.”
Jasmine couldn’t help but smile at his different choice of word for the women of the club.
“I don’t promise you that every day is going to be easy, but I do promise you that when times are tough, I’ll be by your side. That I won’t stop loving you, nor will I stop fucking you and making you scream my name. I will make that my vow to never walk away from an argument, and if I don’t like the way it’s going, I’ll pound your pussy until we’re friends again.”