Love on the Lake (Lakeside 2)

CHAPTER 26

ON THE ROCKS

Aaron

The problem with a small town is that word gets around pretty damn fast when something gossip worthy happens. So I might not have a front-row seat to Teagan unraveling anymore, but I’m hearing the whispers.

Guilt is a heavy hand on my shoulder, making me feel like I’m reliving Devon’s death all over again. I should have done something sooner. I should have tried a different tactic. And now she’s shut me out and I’m paralyzed. I can’t help at all. The only thing I can do is watch from the sidelines as she does a swan dive into dark waters and hope like hell she finds her way back to the surface.

I knew it would get worse before it could get better.

For me, I only realized my problem when I saw what it was doing to my dad. He’d already lost one son. I’d be a special kind of selfish bastard to rob him of another. I moved back to Pearl Lake, pulled myself together, quit drinking, and saw a therapist.

People think addiction is reserved for things like illicit drugs or alcohol. But it’s not. The worst kinds of addictions are the ones that sneak up on people and pick away at them, little by little. Prescription drugs are particularly dangerous. Because they’re given and monitored by a professional. Someone who generally has the best interests of their patient in mind.

Her prescriptions should be safe to take. As long as they’re not combined with the wrong things or used in place of managing the underlying issues.

I’m not surprised when I overhear a couple of people in Boones the next morning, talking about that Firestone woman and how she’s not looking good these days. “Too thin” is whispered, “such a pretty girl, but she’s starting to look strung out.” Someone else mentions the incident when she yelled at the pharmacist because she wouldn’t fill her prescription. They tsk and shake their heads, because we’ve all seen it happen before.

Sometimes it’s one of the wives from the other side of the lake, showing up day drunk in the grocery store. Then a few weeks later she’s at the local pharmacy picking up prescriptions, stopping to buy vodka on the way back to her mansion, huge sunglasses in place to hide her bloodshot eyes.

And then there’s Bob, who sits at the bar from the minute it opens to the minute it closes, eating free peanuts and spending his disability check on beer. Eating the occasional meal someone buys him but mostly drinking himself to death to manage the PTSD.

Any one of those could have been me, and they’re a reminder to stay on track and away from the vices that can rule me.

But with Teagan it’s different. She’s no longer the rich girl from the other side of the lake, and she’s not Bob, whose time in the war has scrambled his brain, and the only way he can survive now is to drown the memories. She’s become part of this town, brushstrokes in a painting that give it light.

She’s getting close to the bottom, and I want to do something to ease the fall.

On Monday I get confirmation that Teagan is on the rocks.

I’m working on the framing for the Wesleys’ outdoor bar. The pool is closed for the season, but their college-aged daughter and her friend have found a reason to prance around in bikinis. They’re taking these thirty-second videos and then jumping in the hot tub to warm up. It’s a special level of ridiculous, but I do my best to ignore them.

Their mom comes out, and I’m hoping she’s going to tell them it’s time to come inside, but she doesn’t.

“Aaron?” She stands at the door, questioning smile firmly in place.

“What can I do for you, ma’am?”

Her left eye twitches once. It happens every time I use the word ma’am. “The designer from Footprint Construction needs a word.”

It takes me a moment to make the connection that she’s talking about Teagan, who appears behind her. I haven’t seen her since Thursday. She looked worse for wear then, but it’s got nothing on how she looks now.

Her eyes are sunken, the hollow dark, and she looks like she’s lost even more weight. Which is saying something because she didn’t have weight to lose in the first place.

She thanks Mrs. Wesley and heads my way, a huge, fake smile plastered on her face. She waves to the girls in the hot tub with a little too much enthusiasm to look natural. “Hey! I’m so glad I caught you!” She gives me a hug, which is . . . unexpected.

I wrap my arms around her, feeling a lot like I’m hugging a potentially rabid bunny. Teagan looks harmless, but I’m very aware of what’s on the other side of that sunshiny smile and what happens when her defenses are up.