She deserved this, she’d asked for it. If she didn’t want me then fine I’d find someone else, I needed a fuck and I didn’t care who it was with. All I could focus on was getting laid and getting her out of my mind.
The girls Charlie had invited were rough as fuck but I wasn’t fussy tonight. They all looked up for it but the blonde in the red dress was all over me like a rash
. She seemed like the least needy, almost offering it to me on a plate. She’d do.
When we got into the bar I spotted her, I couldn’t miss her. I almost lost my bottle, but then red dress whatever her name was, Sadie, Katie, I hadn’t been listening, she put the moves on me so I grabbed her ass. A nice little touch and an obvious ‘fuck you’ to her and her little gang of friends that now included Max. Bloody Max. Why he was here I had no idea. He was lucky I hadn’t kicked his ass.
I felt agitated, the blood pumped through my veins throwing me off balance and making me antsy and highly strung. I didn’t want to think too much about this night, I just needed to fuck someone and get it over with, like ripping a band aid off. The quicker the better.
Max stood in front of me, fake concern on his face.
“Why are you so set on fucking everything up? Seriously, you’re acting like the old Joe tonight. Do you want to go back to meaningless fucks with faceless, nameless whores?”
“Beats feeling like this. Being pussy whipped by her.” I snapped back.
“Really? A fuck with that slut is better than a night with your Ella?”
“She’s not my Ella. She hasn’t been my Ella for a long time.” I looked around the bar in a disinterested manner hoping Max would get the message and leave me the fuck alone. I didn’t want to be reminded of nights with her tonight.
“You’re an asshole Joe. I’d leave right now if it wasn’t for Ella, but I’m not gonna leave and let you tear her apart like this. She doesn’t deserve this.”
I spotted Sadie/Katie whatever her name was and walked over to her. She was a sure thing and I knew it wouldn’t take much to get her on board. I kissed her, standing right next to Chris I stuck my tongue down her throat and kissed her out of spite.
When I broke the kiss she gave me the green light.
“Let’s go fuck.” Magic words spoken by the girl herself. I switched my brain off and went into the mode of ‘Joe- King of the one night stand’. I kept my eyes on her ass as she led me to the back of the bar. Then fucking Max grabbed my arm.
“I don’t know why the fuck I’m doing this because right now you don’t deserve shit, you certainly don’t deserve her, but I’d be an even shittier friend if I didn’t step in and say this.” Max was really pissing me off now.
“Say what you gotta say then piss off Max I need to get laid like now.” I snarled into his face.
“You need to get your head out of your ass. You’re about to throw away the best thing that ever happened to you for a cheap fuck in a bathroom. Mate, she loves you, she’s never stopped loving you. I could just step back and let you fuck that whore, it wouldn’t bother me, but it would break Ella’s heart. She’s my friend, she means a lot to me, you both do. Joe listen to me, if you do this, if you have sex with that girl now you can kiss goodbye to ever getting back together with Ella. It’s not over between you two, I know she misses you. Please, before you decide what to do think about it. She’ll never forgive you if you do this, there’ll be no coming back from this.”
I was done with listening to his sanctimonious bullshit.
“I couldn’t give a fuck Max, now get out of my face. Maybe go have another pop at her yourself. She might be up for it tonight.” I bit back.
“Fuck you Joe.” Max said turning his back on me and heading for the exit.
I turned and followed Sadie/Katie to the bathrooms at the back of the bar. She pulled me into a private cubicle and I pushed her up against the wall. Her hands were everywhere, she was way too keen. I kissed her and she tasted of cigarettes and cheap vodka, not the most pleasant taste at all. I pulled back to look at her. Fake. That’s what this girl was, a total fucking fake. She pulled her dress down to show me her tits, they were okay and she’d definitely had implants to make them better but they were nothing like Ella’s. The thought of sucking on her nipples made me shiver, shit what was I thinking? I ran my hands through her hair and yanked her head back to kiss her again and I felt bumps close to her scalp, what was that? Cheap hair extensions? It felt gross, Ella’s hair was always so soft and natural. I loved her hair I could play with it and run my fingers through it all day. Fuck what was I thinking, I couldn’t do this I had to stop this now before it went too far.
“Katie, Sadie whatever your name is…”
“It’s Maisie.” She said not caring in the slightest that she was about to fuck some guy who didn’t even know her name.
“Yeah whatever, look you seem like a nice girl” I thought she looked like a cheap hooker, but I didn’t think it was wise to lead with that, “I’m sure a few years ago we might have had a good time.” If the lights were all out I thought cruelly, “but I can’t do this anymore. My days of fucking whores in bathrooms is over.”
I braced myself for the slap I was expecting, but she just frowned at me then went to grab the belt of my trousers. Seriously? Was this the way she was going to play this?
“Woah, Maisie you need to back off, I’m not interested.” I said backing my hips away from her and taking her hands off my crotch. I needed to get away from this crazed woman she wasn’t taking no for an answer right now. I pushed the door open and got myself the hell out of that stall and didn’t look back. I looked around for Max but he wasn’t in the bar anymore and I couldn’t blame him I had been a grade A asshole tonight. All I could see was Charlie and his gang of losers falling about the place like a bunch of clowns. I strode forward heading to the street to get some fresh air and get myself as far away from the poison of Charlie as I could. I had to put this night right somehow. That’s when I saw her, in his arms. My heart broke to see her so upset, but my blood boiled to find her being comforted by him because of me. She was mine and he needed to back off.
20
Robyn, Chris and Ed followed me as I emerged into the street outside and I doubled over the physical pain was tearing me apart. I didn’t think it was possible to be hurt any more than I had been in the past, but this…tonight was by far the worst. I was broken. He was in there…with her and he didn’t care, it was the old Joe in there now. The fuck them and leave them Joe. He’d kissed her in front of me. If he could do that he obviously didn’t love me anymore.
Chris and Ed went off to find a cab whilst Robyn and I waited further down the street. Robyn was giving me a pep talk about what bastards all men were and how he wasn’t worth it, when Max came jogging out of the bar looking up and down the road for us. When he spotted us he walked over and instantly put his arms round me. The feel of his warm comforting arms broke the flood gates and I sobbed into his chest.
“I’m so sorry Ella. I tried to ring you and Robyn to warn you not to go to Après, but I couldn’t reach you. I hate seeing you so upset. Please don’t cry.”