“Ella, Ella open this door now.”
Fuck him I wasn’t coming out of here for anything.
“Go away Joe, I don’t want to see you and I’m not coming out.”
“I can stand here all day sweetheart, I’m not going anywhere. Come out and talk to me, I can explain everything.”
“I don’t want to hear it. What the fuck is there to explain? You’re disgusting, and I hate you.”
“It’s not what you think Ella. It’s not black and white.”
“No Joe it’s not, it’s in fucking glorious technicolour for me and everyone else on the internet to watch. You’re a complete fucking whore. Leave me alone, I’m done. We are over.”
“No we’re not!”
“Yes we are, you’re disgusting, you disgust me. I feel dirty for ever going near you!”
“This is stupid, just open the door and we can sort this out.”
“Stupid? Stupid!!” I lost it completely, I stood up and flung the door open in a rage, my eyes bulging with hatred and fixed onto his beautiful tainted face.
“I’m stupid? I’m not the one who was fucking some whore, having a threesome and high fiving some other guy over her back. You’re vile Joe, you even make Adam look like an angel.”
“I am nothing like that fucker.”
“No you’re not! He knows what he is, he is a weak guy who cheated on me a few times and admits it. You! You’re the bloody king of cheats. A liar of the worst kind. You knew what Adam had done to me but you still wouldn’t leave me alone would you? You had to keep on and on chasing me, lying to me, pretending you were a good guy, better than Adam when all along you were a million times worse. I’d rather go back to Adam than get back with you.”
He winced at this.
“Nothing you say can make any of this better. You’re a fuck boy, a user, a dirty prostitute who whores himself around to any woman who’ll have him. I hope it was worth it, because I don’t want you. Not anymore. You make my skin crawl.”
“You said the past was in the past. You said you didn’t care what I’d done. You said you love me.”
I laughed in disbelief, “Not for something like this, this can’t be hidden in the past, it’s who you are, how can you think something like this is inconsequential?”
“It is! I haven’t cheated on you Ella, I’m not a cheat. It was over ten fucking years ago. What does it matter now?”
“It matters because it shows me who you are. I can’t love someone who thinks that’s okay. It’s not okay it’s depraved. You’re depraved. Just leave Joe please.”
“I can’t” He went to walk towards me but I put my hands up and stepped way back away from him.
“Don’t come anywhere near me. I don’t want you near me.”
“I can’t walk away Ella, I love you.”
“You don’t know the meaning of the word. Anyway it was easy enough for you to walk away from all those children you’ve probably fathered. How low can you go Joe?”
“I don’t have any children, I fought every one of those lawsuits and won. I always used a condom. That fucking website should never have been up and running. My lawyers will kill it. I’ll see to it that whoever made that go live is destroyed.”
“You like destroying people don’t you Joe.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You destroy people. It’s what you do. You destroy marriages, women, husbands, children… and me Joe, you’ve destroyed me.”
He hung his head down and sighed, “I never wanted to destroy you Ella, all I want is to make you happy.”
“Well you’ve done a shitty job. You’ve broken my heart Joe and I’m not going to give you the chance to do any more damage. We are finished. Don’t text me, message me, call or try to see me because I will call the police and I will file a restraining order if you keep pestering me. Now leave before I call them this very minute and have you removed from our house.”