“I’ll text you first thing tomorrow,” she promised.
I dropped a kiss on top of her head. “Stay warm. If you need anything, text me and I’ll bring it straight over.”
“Love you, bro,” she murmured, wrapping her arms around me.
“Love you more, sis,” I rasped, fighting the sting of tears that had been close to the surface all day.
The instant I was behind the wheel of my car, I finally let go. I sat there for what felt like hours, just crying, getting it all out. But the release of emotions did nothing to ease the pressure in my chest. Scrubbing a hand over my damp face, I grabbed my phone out of the cupholder and texted Doe.
Part of me wanted to tell her about Pixie, everything from how she’d come into my life to her illness. But a bigger part wanted—needed—to keep my relationship with Doe separate from that. Just for now. I knew I couldn’t keep the two women who meant everything to me from each other forever. But right then, Doe was my safe place, and I didn’t want the pain and fear of all the “what-ifs” that could go wrong with Pixie to touch the peace that I felt whenever Doe was near.
Me: Can I see you when you get done with your friend?
It was only a matter of seconds before a reply popped up.
Little Lamb: I’ll have Aspen drop me off at your place.
Knowing I would get to see her later and not have to wait until the next morning, some of the tension in my muscles eased, and I finally started my car. At home, I gave the apartment a quick clean and then took a shower. I wasn’t sure what time Doe would stop by, but I wanted to be ready for when she got there.
Stepping out of the shower, I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my waist before picking up another one to dry the top of half of my body. Using the towel on my hair, I walked into the kitchen to grab a protein shake. I hadn’t eaten since breakfast and food still held no appeal, but my stomach was growling angrily.
Twisting the top off the oat milk shake, I took a big drink just as I heard a knock on the door. Crossing to the door, I checked out the window and saw Doe standing on the other side. Her teeth were sunk into her lush bottom lip, but then she turned and waved as I caught sight of someone backing out of the driveway.
Opening the door, I forgot that I was only in a towel and grabbed her around the waist while her back was still turned to me. Burying my face in her neck, I inhaled long and deep, taking in that sweet, floral scent. The knot in my stomach instantly began to unwind, and my chest no longer felt like I had a hundred-pound barbell lying on it.
Doe melted back into me as if it was as natural as breathing to her. Turning her head, she brushed a kiss over my cheek and lifted a hand to touch my damp hair. “Sorry, I’m earlier than expected. After your text, all I could think about was you, and Aspen got frustrated with me. So we decided it would be better for everyone’s sanity if I came on over.”
My hands tightened around her. “Thank God, little lamb.”
When she felt me shudder, she quickly turned in my arms. “What’s wrong?”
“I missed you,” I told her honestly, pushing all thoughts of Pixie and her cancer battle out of my mind. I needed a small reprieve from it, and Doe was the only one who could give that to me.
Pleasure flashed in her blue eyes. “I missed you too.” Her soft fingers touched my bare chest, causing flames to shoot straight to my cock. It hardened, and if I hadn’t grabbed for my towel, I would have given her a show then and there. Lowering her gaze, she licked her lips when she realized what I was—or rather, wasn’t—wearing. “Can I come in?”
In answer, I backed into the apartment, pulling her with me. Shutting the door behind her, I picked her up and pressed her against it. “Just a kiss,” I growled, unsure if I was talking to her or myself. “One kiss.”
She tasted like everything good in the world, like the serenity I craved. She combed her fingers through the back of my hair, her nails lightly scraping over my scalp. The combination of her touch and the kiss was enough to make my knees weak. I tried, really, I tried as hard as I could, but it was impossible to stop at just one kiss.
She made that little whimpering sound that told me she was just as turned on as I was. Her thighs pressed together, then spread for me. I felt the towel fall to the floor, but I couldn’t bring myself to care as I grasped her ass in both hands and lifted. She wrapped her legs around my waist without hesitation, opening herself up for me to press my steel-hard cock against her core.
“Yes!” she cried, breaking the kiss to throw her head back.
With a groan, I licked down her neck then started tearing at the buttons of her flannel shirt with my teeth, needing to be skin-to-skin with her. Her hips arched as she ground her jeans-covered pussy against me. I was already leaking all over her, smearing my need for her onto the denim.
I was dry humping her against the door, but we were both too far gone to stop.
My teeth unbuttoned the top button and then the next until I reached the edge of her lacy pink bra. I’d never considered pink a sexy color before, but the sight of it was intoxicating. Nuzzling the material out of my way, I sucked on the plumpness, marking her skin.
“Jenner,” she moaned. “I want more.”
Breathing heavily, I lifted my head just enough to meet her pretty blue eyes. “I didn’t ask you over for this. I swear, I only wanted to be close to you.”
“You’re not close enough!” she cried. “I need you skin-to-skin with me. Now.”
Tightening my hold on her glorious ass, I carried her over to the couch and laid her down. Her hands drove me crazy as she touched every inch of my bare chest before I could even come down between her spread thighs. All I could think about was getting her naked, giving her the skin-to-skin closeness we were both so desperate for.
My cock was leaking like a broken faucet, spreading all over the inside of her denim-covered thighs. As soon as I had all the buttons undone on her shirt, I pushed the material back to expose her bra and then reached for the zipper on her jeans while she kicked off her shoes. She arched her hips, lifting just enough to let me pull them off her. Her panties didn’t match her bra, but they were still so sexy, the sight of her wet pussy lips outlined against the sheer white material was enough to get me off.
“You are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen,” I rasped as I took a moment to savor the sight of her spread out for me. One day I might forget my own name, but fuck, I’d always remember her like this.
Doe looked up at me with need glazing her eyes. Her breathing was coming in hard little pants, causing her tits to jiggle with each rise and fall of her chest. “Please, Jenner.”
Groaning, I came down on top of her. A voice in the back of my head reminded me to take things slow with her, but slow could mean so many different things. If I didn’t put my cock in her, that meant we were still taking our time. Or if I did slip between those dripping pussy lips, I could take hours to get us both off. It was just a matter of what definition of slow we were using.
My shaft pressed up against her soaked panties. Her lips were slightly parted, as if welcoming my cock with a kiss. The only thing that separated us was a thin layer of silk. As hard as my cock was, it could have torn through the fabric like a hot blade through butter if I let it. I thrust my hips a little, rubbing my shaft back and forth from her clit down to her entrance and back again.
Her nails bit into my sides, the slight sting the perfect contrast to heighten the pleasure. The mark I’d left on her tit called to me, demanding I leave more. Her bra had a front clasp that I quickly unsnapped, causing the full globes to spill free. Her dusky, rose-colored nipples begged for my attention, and I couldn’t ignore them. I licked my tongue over one, then the other before sucking it against the roof of my mouth.
“Sweet holy,” Doe breathed, stabbing her fingers through the back of my hair to hold me against her. “Feels so good.”
I let her keep me trapped against her, laving at her nipples with my tongue while she drove me crazy with those little mewling sounds she made. My hands had a mind of their own, caressing down her soft stomach to her panties. One finger hooked into the edge, and I pushed the material aside. When my bare cock touched her uncovered heat for the first time, we both groaned. I could smell her arousal mixing with the precome that had already leaked from my tip. The scent was intoxicating, making me stupid.
I spread her lips with two fingers on one hand and notched my cock to her entrance with the other. The tip slid in. As tight as she was, her walls started strangling me, trying to block me from going farther while concurrently attempting to suck me deeper. It was the best thing I’d ever felt. Stars flashed before my open eyes, making me blind for a few seconds.
“Jenner.” I heard Doe gulp, and I quickly lifted my head. “I’m on the pill. And if you’re scared you’re going to hurt me, don’t be. With all the horseback riding I’ve done in my life, my hymen was dealt with years ago.”
“Baby, don’t tell me shit like that,” I growled. “I’m already struggling not to break my promise to take things slow with you. I’m one thrust away from fucking all that up and claiming your pussy.”
Her legs wrapped around my hips as she thrust hers upward. The apartment filled with the sound of my bellow as I sank balls deep into her sweet heat for the first time. My gaze locked with hers when I could finally see again. I found her looking dazed and a little smug as she looked up at me. The little minx had taken the decision completely out of my hands and gone after exactly what she wanted.
It was so damn sexy. My sweet little lamb was hot as fuck when she took control.
“I know what I want, Jenner,” she purred. “It’s you. It has always been you. What I feel for you isn’t just a fleeting crush. It’s real and lasting. I didn’t need time to figure that out because I’ve known it from the first time I saw you.”
With her clenched around me like a tight glove and her confession filling my head, that provided the last push to send me completely over the edge. There was no holding back, not when she was telling me what I wanted to hear and my balls were already aching to release every drop I’d been storing up just for her.
But there was no fucking way I was going to let our first time be on the damn couch. “Keep those legs wrapped around me nice and tight, little lamb,” I commanded as I lifted onto my knees and then stood with her still wrapped around me.
She squealed then giggled as I carried her into the bedroom. Each step I took thrust me up into her a little more, making her moan through her giggles, which only had her squeezing my cock harder. When I reached the bed, I dropped into the middle, with me landing first and her on top of me so she didn’t take any of my weight.
Doe looked down at me with wide eyes, her grin slowly fading, and I could tell she’d become nervous. I rolled us, burying her beneath me once again, and was rewarded with the return of her beautiful smile. “I missed you today,” I told her as I slowly began to thrust.
“I-I missed you too,” she panted. “I couldn’t stop thinking about you all day.”
“Mm, I like hearing that, baby.” I sank my teeth into her earlobe, causing her to shudder and her pussy to clench so hard around me, I nearly blacked out. “You’re mine in every way now, little lamb. Tell me you know that.”
“Yes,” she moaned.
“And I’m yours,” I vowed, holding myself completely still deep inside her as I lifted my gaze to lock with hers. “From the first moment I set eyes on you, I belonged to you. Waiting for you has been torture, but if it meant getting to this moment, I wouldn’t change a single second of it.”
“Jenner,” she breathed, emotion thickening her voice.
Taking her hands, I lifted them above her head until she caught hold of the headboard. “I need you to hold on, baby. Don’t let go, because I’m about to lose control.”
“I want you to lose control.” Her fingers grasped the wood, and I pushed up onto my knees. “I want to be the reason you can’t contain yourself.”
I dug my fingers into her hips as I lifted her ass off the mattress, angling her so I could go even deeper. Doe threw her head back, crying out my name, and that was the end of what little restraint I’d been able to hold on to.
I pounded into her, molding her pussy to my cock over and over again until it learned the shape of the only one who would ever be inside her. There was no way I would allow anyone to ever touch her, but now that I was finally inside her, I knew I would kill anyone who tried to take her from me.
I could feel her walls starting to spasm, and I knew she was close. I spread her lips with my index and middle fingers on one hand, exposing her clit a bit more so I could use my thumb to play with that sensitive little nub and send her flying into an orgasm. As soon as I felt her walls start to milk my shaft, that triggered my own.
I tossed my head back, a silent shout shredding my throat as I began to spill deep inside her. It was so damn good, so intense that I dropped forward, giving her my full weight as I lost consciousness for a moment.