Renegade Hearts (Rebels of Sandland 1)

“I love you so much, Em.” I leant my forehead down onto hers and breathed her in like she was my air.

“I love you too.” She bit her lip and then pulled me down to hug her. Then in the quietest most breathless voice I’d ever heard her use, she sighed, “Make love to me, Ryan. Please.”

I couldn’t hold back any longer. I needed to get as close to him as I possibly could. I wanted that connection. I wanted him to be my first, my last, my only. He lay still for a second, taking deep breaths before he finally answered.

“Are you sure, baby? There’s no pressure. We can just cuddle.”

I loved Ryan’s cuddles, but tonight I needed more.

“I want you to take the pain away.” As soon as I said it, I knew I’d worded it wrong.

“Em, don’t do this to block out what’s happened tonight. You might wake up tomorrow and regret it. I don’t want you to regret anything about us.”

“I don’t. I didn’t mean it like that.” I turned my head to look at him, so he could see exactly how strong my feelings were. “I want you, Ryan. I want to love you as deep and as hard as I can. I need this. This connection that we have, it’s so strong. I can’t hold myself back any more. I want this with you. I want you to love me in every way you can.”

“I do love you in every way.”

“Then shut up and kiss me.”

His body was half over mine and I could already feel how hard he was from the way his hips ground into me. When he kissed me again, it was tender and loving. His tongue stroked mine and he moaned as we pulled ourselves closer together, but it still wasn’t close enough.

I ran my nails down his back and then grabbed his ass as he rocked against me. I loved his ass. It was round, muscular and it felt so sexy flexing as he circled his hips. I ran my fingers under the waistband of his boxers and slid them down. He pulled away, breaking the kiss and panting heavily as he kicked them off. His dick was thick, hard and it slapped against my thigh as it sprang free. I held him and rubbed slowly, running my thumb over the tip that had a little bead of wetness there. Then I cupped his balls and the groan he gave as he sank into the pillow and nuzzled my neck spurred me on further.

He opened his legs to give me better access and then his mouth was exploring too. Kissing from my ear to my neck and down towards my breasts. He reached around the back of my bra and unhooked it. Then he pulled it off and threw it onto the floor. He grabbed one breast in his hands, kneading and stroking over my nipple while he licked and sucked the other into his hot mouth.

I pushed forward into him and closed my eyes, getting lost in the sensations. The way he used his hands and mouth on me made me throb between my legs. I was so wet, so turned on I could barely breathe.

I started to circle my hips into him, desperate for any kind of friction. Ryan could read my body better than I could and he moved his hand down to my underwear, pushing his fingers underneath my panties as his tongue carried on licking and sucking my nipple, driving me crazy. He ran his fingers along my wetness and I opened my legs, needing him to go further. His finger circled my clit and my hips bucked at the contact. Then he pushed a finger inside me and I arched my back off the bed, moaning when he curled it inside and made me see stars in the darkness of his room. His fingers slid in and out of me, and he used his thumb, then the palm of his hand to rub over my clit. I moaned louder, and he moved his mouth from my nipple to my lips, capturing every sound that I made, feeding off them. His tongue moved in the same rhythm as his fingers and I gasped, feeling my nerves sparking to life.

“I’m gonna come,” I said, rocking onto his hand and pumping his dick at the same time.

Then I felt it.

That explosion of ecstasy right from my core, radiating everywhere and making my whole body shake.

He gently worked me back down from heaven and the

n pulled his hand out of my knickers and lifted himself up, pulling them down my legs and exposing me to him completely. I felt swollen and oversensitive, but I didn’t want our night to end there.

“If you want to stop at any time just tell me, okay?” He looked me right in the eyes as he spoke. He still hadn’t come, and I was desperate to feel him inside me. I nodded, and he leant over to his bedside cabinet, opened the top drawer and pulled out a condom.

“Any time,” he repeated as he ripped the foil with his teeth. “You can stop this at any time.” I nodded again as he rolled the condom on. Then he settled in-between my legs and pulled my knees up high. “I don’t want to hurt you, baby. I’ll go as slow as I can.”

He rubbed himself up and down my pussy, then he put his cock over my entrance and I tried to relax and open myself up to him as best I could. He put both of his arms next to my head and stared right into my eyes as he nudged slowly into me. I felt a sharp pain as he pushed against what felt like an impossible barrier and I couldn’t stop myself from grimacing. Instantly he froze.

“Are you okay?”

I nodded and grabbed him around the neck to pull him into me.

“Don’t stop,” I whispered into his ear and he put his hand under my left knee to lift my leg higher. As he did, he thrust forward and I cried out, feeling an unforgiveable stretch as he filled me completely.

His hips were pressed against mine, but he didn’t move. He took deep breaths as he let me get used to him being inside me like this. I was sweating and shaking with what I now realised were nerves, but soon the sting became a dull ache.

“You okay?” he asked again, sounding like he was anything but.

I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his neck. “I love you,” I said. I wanted to cry, but I held it in. The intensity of this moment was drowning me.

“I love you too.” He kissed me softly on the lips as I felt a gentle pulse in-between my legs. Was that him or me? I had no idea, but when he said, “I’m gonna need to move now, baby. This is killing me.” I smiled and wiggled my hips.