“We were happy. You can’t deny it anymore than I can. It worked, and we worked in and out of the bedroom, no matter how fucking wrong I was with the way it started.”
“We can’t go back, Devin.”
The searing pain in my chest silenced me as I followed her out her front door. I wondered just what the hell I was thinking as Carson pulled up, his contempt for me clear in his eyes. She was completely shutting down and time was running out.
“Please, Nina, give me a fucking chance here.” I ran my hands through my hair as she watched me carefully. I saw her decision before she spoke.
“You have no right to ask me for anything.” Slipping into the car, I saw her resolve as Carson slammed her door, preventing me from speaking further. I opened the door and slipped in with Nina just as Carson took his seat up front.
“Carson, please excuse us.”
He looked back to Nina, who was staring out the opposite window, and she gave him a quick nod of her head. As soon as he shut the door, I attacked, gripping her wrists and pinning them next to her head.
“Okay, I tried the nice-guy-I’m-sorry-for-the-things-I’ve-done shit. Didn’t work, and thank God for that. It won’t happen often, so let’s do the I-still-know-how-to-make-Nina-listen part.” Her eyes widened as I knelt down in front of her on the floorboard, still holding her wrists.
“Let’s pretend for just one second I am capable of being sincere.” She rolled her eyes, and I gripped her tighter. She stared at me blankly, and I let go of her wrists, leaving them at her sides and smoothing my hands over her skirt down to her thighs just beneath her dress.
“Go to hell, Devin.” I heard the ache in her voice. She still loved me, and it was up to me to remind her.
I licked my lips, and her breathing picked up as her gray eyes beckoned me to do more, fuck her senseless…and then go to hell.
“You think I never cared for you?” I ran my hands up her thighs, softly brushing her smooth skin and watching her reaction to me. I gripped the thin sides of her panties, pulling them down slowly and discarding them. “Answer me,” I snapped firmly.
“No,” she whispered, keeping her eyes locked with mine.
“That is a fucking lie.” I pushed her knees apart, and she didn’t stop me. I stayed still as she watched me expectantly. “This is just sex, right?” I licked the pad of my finger and slowly swiped her sex, her arousal coating it. I watched her study it along with me.
“Yes,” she said carefully, her chest heaving. “You taught me the difference.”
I pulled her bottom half toward me, spreading her wider as she looked on, her lips parting wit
h want.
“Wrong again,” I said, letting my breath hit her sex. Her nipples drew tight underneath her thin silk dress as I strummed her creamy smooth thighs with my thumbs. “I didn’t know the meaning of the words, Nina.” The air was thick with expectancy as I looked up at her. “You showed that to me.” I leaned in, swirling my tongue over her clit once, twice, and then began lapping her slowly.
“Devin,” she rasped out as her body began to quake.
“You’re so close already, and you think this is just physical,” I reminded her as I moved my mouth away. “I could tongue you and fuck you all day every day for the rest of my life. I’ll never stop wanting you, and I’ll never stop wanting you to need me. And only because it’s much more than this and I’m going to need you to admit it now.” I leaned in and licked her smoothly once. She gripped my hair, pushing her soaked pussy toward me. “You taught me the difference between just saying the words and saying them because you mean them.” I saw the emotion cross her features as her lips trembled. “And you’re the only woman I have ever really meant them with, and I can’t let you go. I won’t, Nina.” I buried my tongue inside her, tasting all of her as she silently cried and moaned my name. Sucking on her clit gently, I looked up and watched her body shudder.
“Devin,” she pleaded as I pulled my mouth away reluctantly and looked up at her. Her body vibrated her release waiting with just another swipe of my tongue.
“I know everything there is to know about you, Nina Scott, and it’s mostly because you never shut up while we were together. You’ve changed me, whether I wanted it or not.”
I pushed two fingers inside of her as her eyes widened, filled with passion, heat, and the love I knew was just under the surface. “I’m completely enamored by you, and it has nothing to do with this,” I taunted, licking her with a lazy tongue. “But you see it’s so fucking good I think I’ll take it all.” Her body went rigid as she reached the brink and I pulled away, watching her face twist in agony.
“It’s not too late. I can make this right.” I slid my fingers in and out of her as she let her tears fall silent and moved her hips, searching for her release. “You will let me make this right.” Continuing to taunt her with my hand, she thrust her hips desperately.
“Devin.” She said my name, but I heard please. I wanted her to scream it, to realize her need for me on both levels. I had to have her confirm she felt the same, and that I hadn’t completely lost her. I was asking too much when I had given so little, and I didn’t give a fuck. This woman had consumed me.
Reaching up, I freed her breast by sliding the silky material of her dress off her shoulder. I took my fingers from her center and soaked her nipple with her arousal before leaning in. Just a breath from devouring her puckered, taut flesh, I whispered, “I don’t want to go back. Here, now, this is enough.” I pulled hard on her nipple, sucking mercilessly as she gripped my head, digging her nails into my scalp.
The car got warmer with each passing minute, but I kept my mouth latched onto her as I took off my jacket.
“Devin, please.” I stopped my assault and sat back on my heels, caressing her thighs.
“You still love me, Nina.”
“Don’t do this, Devin.” She shook her head as her hand made its way down in an effort to relieve her ache. I grabbed it and kissed it front and back.