MATT
I kept my eye on her the whole time I sat there eating my ice cream. She was a bit skittish in her movements and seemed overly cautious and aware. In the hour we sat there I noticed how quiet she seemed and also that people seemed to like her. Her smile as rare as it is was beautiful and made that hitch in my heart hurt more. Sitting there I finally allowed myself to accept the truth. I was attracted to her in a big fucking way; no amount of hiding or denying was going to change that shit. “Fuck me running bro, what the fuck?”
Josh looked at me with a ‘what now’ look on his face. I think I felt a little trepidation at the situation. I wasn’t afraid of what I was beginning to feel, but I was just a little wary. It was too soon after the betrayal. Hadn’t I told myself that I wouldn’t ever do this shit again? And besides this girl looked like fucking trouble, there was definitely something going on with her, but what? Josh kicked me under the table to get my attention. I’d wandered off in my head again, something I found myself doing more and more where this girl was concerned.
“What’s up Matt?” I kept my eyes trained on her as she moved around the room.
“I don’t want to do this shit bro.”
“Bro you’ve been driving around town trying to pick up her scent. You’ve already got it bad.”
“You make me sound like a wild animal or some shit.”
“Well if the claws fit.”
“I don’t know bro, I’m not too jazzed about putting myself out there again. And she seems to have some fuck wrong with her.”
“Perfect, then you can both mend each other; I don’t see the problem.”
I decided to ignore his ass as I ate my ice cream, he was no help whatsoever since he had love and happily ever after on the brain. The dumbass kept dropping hints about what I should do to move things along as he swore I was already hooked. I wasn’t, not by a long shot. It would take more than a pretty face and a grade A ass to pull me in. But those eyes fuck; I think she’s going to get me with the eyes. I have always been a sucker for a damsel in distress.
The prick at the next table was following her with his eyes but I noticed she was steering clear. Why the fact that he was looking should bother me was anyone’s guess. Make up your mind Matt, either you’re in or you’re not you can’t have it both ways.
“Bro there’s steam coming out your ears, if you want her go get her before that fucker makes his move.” Josh had noticed the other guy clocking her as well, shit. I have to man up in front of my brother, can’t let some college asshole show me up but shit.
Carrie excused herself from the table and headed for the counter where Kadyn had just finished helping a customer. I don’t know what she was saying to her but had a good idea I was involved when Kadyn took a peek at me. I held her eyes until she blushed and hid behind her hair; that’s my kinda shit.
Carrie came back to the table all smiles but not giving up anything and I refused to ask. Besides all my attention was still focused on the ‘friend’ at the next table who couldn’t seem to keep his eyes off my…fuck.
“We’re not leaving until they go.” The three of us were finally finished with our dessert but the asshole and his friends were still here and no matter what I told myself I was not about to leave her here alone with them.
“Why don’t you just go talk to her Matt?” Carrie was resting on her husband’s chest as he played in her hair. Watching the two of them together sometimes made me long to go for it. To throw caution to the wind and just say fuck it. What no one seemed to realize is that I had come very close to doing something that I never thought myself capable of when Patti had done the shit she’d done.
It wasn’t only that she’d fucked with my brother it was the fact that she was capable of such actions. I never wanted to be that close to evil again in my life. If I took a chance on this girl and she fucked me over there’s no telling what I would do this time. I had the feeling that this one could send my ass over the edge. The things she made me feel Patti hadn’t even come close to. It was like the difference between day and night.
“Not now Carrie, I’m not sure which way this thing is going but I don’t want to make any fast moves.”