“Exclusive coverage sounds important.” She smiled at him. “And that’s good, right? The more publicity the better.”
“It is,” he agreed. “But it also means more hard work. I don’t think I’m gonna make it back here before the restaurant opens.” He sighed. “Sorry, you don’t want to hear me bitching about stuff that’s not important.”
“It’s important to you, so that’s enough for me.” She looked up at him through her thick lashes. “And I should know what your life is like out there, because it’ll be this baby’s life, too.”
Logan said nothing for a moment. His brows pulled together as he stared into space. Had she said something wrong? Courtney swallowed hard. “Sorry, was that too much? I know you have tons going on with the restaurant and the baby. Sometimes I open my mouth and words just spew out.”
The corner of his lip lifted. “No, it’s not you. It’s me. I’ve just been thinking over some stuff.”
“Do you want to talk about it?” she asked softly, deciding it was
stupid to keep silent. Talking was always better than keeping quiet.
“Yeah,” he said, lifting his hand to stroke her dark curls. “I think I do.” He swallowed hard, his eyes still staring into the distance. “I’m confused about what I want.”
“That’s understandable. You’re in a confusing situation.”
His laugh was short. “Yeah, you could say that.” He brought his gaze to hers. “I guess we both are, right?”
She nodded, sliding her hand until it was pressed against his chest. It was strange how much she loved these tender moments with him. They were the perfect ending to the hot needy sex they always shared. Both of them seemed to fill her in a way nothing else could.
“How would you feel if I spent more time here than I’d planned?” he asked, his brows dipping all over again. “I want to move here. To be with you and the baby, and I have no idea how to do that, but somehow I need to make it happen.”
“You want to be here with us?” she repeated, trying to understand what he meant. “Like friends?”
He shook his head. “No. I want more. I just don’t know how to get it.” He blinked, his expression softening. For a moment he looked lost. “I guess I should ask you how you feel about that? Do you want to spend more time with me?”
Her chest tightened. “I do.”
“Good.” He breathed out heavily. “That’s a start, right? If we want to be together.”
Her chest flooded with warmth. “Yeah, it’s a start. And you don’t have to look so scared about it.”
This time his laugh was lighter. “I’m not scared. Not of being with you. I’m just wary of letting you down. My business and my money is all in Boston. It’s not something I can easily wrap up.”
“I guess not. And that’s okay.”
“If you were anybody else, I’d ask you to move in with me there. We’d have a good life in Boston. I could give you everything you need.”
“That’s a sweet offer,” she said thickly. “But this is my home. I don’t know anybody but you in Boston, and I know you work crazy hours.” The thought of being alone with the baby in a strange city made her mouth dry up. No farm, no chickens, no friends. “I don’t think I could live like that.”
“Yeah, and I’m not asking you to. I’m just telling you what’s going through my mind.” His muscles felt tense beneath her hand. Like an animal poised to spring.
“Hey,” she said softly, wriggling until her face was inches from Logan’s. She cupped his jaw with her hands, brushing her lips against his. “I’m glad you’re talking to me. I know there’s a lot to think about. But I need you to know one thing, I really want to be with you.”
His lips curled up. “You do?”
She nodded. “I do. And I understand how complicated your life is. The fact you’re even thinking about spending more time here is amazing. And couples juggle stuff like this all the time. Look at the military, how often fathers are stationed abroad when their babies come. You’ll only be a few hours away by plane. You can come here, I can go there. We can make this work.”
“I’d really like you to come out to Boston. See what I do.”
“I’d like that, too. I guess we should do it before I get too big and the farm starts to get busy.”
“How about next week?”
She laughed. “As in a few days’ time?”
“Let me get through New Year’s Eve, then you can come out and I’ll show you around.” He pressed his lips against her jaw. “It’ll give me something to look forward to.”