“These belong to me,” he said, massaging one breast then the other. “These lips are mine.” He drew his wet fingers over my lips. When I sucked them into my mouth, he rolled his eyes back and groaned. “This tongue. This neck,” he dove into the curve of my neck. “Mine.” His sweats halfway down his legs, he shoved into my pussy. “Fucking mine,” he growled, fucking me so ferociously he pushed me up the bed with each thrust.
His pace was brutal and merciless inside me, his eyes wild as they pinned to me. But with every cry of his name from my lips, I felt him shudder. When I pulled his mouth to mine and let my tongue glide over his, I felt his weight fall onto me. He didn’t slow inside me but he kissed me back with what felt like love. Tears sprang to my eyes as he whispered into me.
“I won’t let anything happen to you, Lia.” He pushed the hair from my face and kissed me harder. “I can’t.”
“I’m going to be fine, Lukas. If I have you, I’m fine.”
“I can’t ruin you like I ruined them,” he whispered, squeezing his eye shut. “I won’t.”
“Easy.” I kissed him, reaching down to grab hold of his ass and slow his pace inside me. “You didn’t ruin anyone, Lukas.” I smiled against his lips. “I don’t think I had real fun till I met you. I don’t think I’ve had happier moments than I have this past month. I’ve loved being with you. I…”
I wanted to say it so bad.
I loved him.
I’d known it in my heart since our trip upstate but it didn’t rise to the tip of my tongue till now. Say it. Say it, I urged. Him or me – I needed someone to say it.
“Lukas…” I started, but I couldn’t stop moaning as he slammed deeper inside me.
“Don’t stop saying my name,” Lukas murmured. “Please don’t.”
So I didn’t. Every time it rolled off
my tongue, he touched and kissed a new part of my body. I arched my back, thrusting my body tighter into his arms, which hugged me to his chest. We were pressed so hard against each other now that I could feel his every contour, his every inch and every ridge. We moved together in a synced rhythm. We both sat up now, my body on top of his, my legs wrapped around his waist and our tongues dancing as we rocked back and forth to thrust in unison.
I had never felt closer to anyone in my life. I was sure nothing had ever felt so good. Our bodies were sticky, sweaty as we swayed together. We only ever broke our kiss to stare into each other, exposed to each other in every way. When I came, he watched every second of my unraveling, his eyes shining like emeralds as he murmured and whispered to me.
“I swear to God, you’re the most perfect thing I’ve ever seen.” He shook his head, unable to pry his eyes off me. “You’re a fucking dream come true.”
“Am I your dream come true?” I breathed, everything on my body still tingling.
“You know the answer to that,” he muttered, twisting his gorgeous features and letting out a jagged groan. “Fuck, I’m going to come.”
He held him tight as he jerked under me, his eyes squeezing closed and his mouth falling open against my breast. His fingers dug into me as I pumped on top of him, milking every drop of cum from his swollen tip.
When we collapsed together onto the mattress, my body on top of his, he cupped my cheek. “Lia, I meant that,” he breathed.
“Meant what?”
“That I can’t let my bullshit poison you, too. I’ve fucked so many people over already. I won’t be able to forgive myself if I screw anything over for you.”
My stomach twisted, his words striking a wariness inside me. “Everything will be fine. You know I’ll fight whatever Cam throws at me, so why do you have to talk like this?” I whispered, brushing my thumb over his cheek.
“Because I never even know as it’s happening,” he said softly.
“As what’s happening?”
“When I’m hurting someone. I never realize till too late. It’s always when I think everything’s better than ever that I realize everything’s not.”
I knew he was thinking of Wyatt when I saw the blankness drift into his eyes again. I held his face tight.
“Stop it,” I said, firm again. “Don’t shut down on me now. Okay? Do you see me? I’m the happiest I’ve been in my entire life. I never dreamed I could feel so much at once.” I laughed gently. “I’m pretty sure that if someone like Cam threatened me at any other time in my life, I’d crumble and fold. But I feel strong now. I don’t feel like my only move is to hope for the best – I feel like I can fight for it now. Whatever I want, I can get it myself. I feel like a new woman and I know a big part of that has to do with you.”
Lukas broke into a grin. “You make me happy.”
“Same,” I smiled, massaging his head as I watched his eyelids get heavy. “I’m so happy I found you,” I whispered, watching him for once get sleepy before me. We closed our eyes as our hearts beat against each other but as I considered confessing my last secret to him, my pulse quickly outraced his. “Lukas?” I brushed my hand across his forehead, pushing back his matted hair. I studied the way his lips faintly curved at the sound of his name and without thinking twice I freed the words my mouth had kept captive for days, letting them finally tumble off my tongue. “Lukas, I love you.”
Lying on his chest, I waited for him to say it back.