Crashing Into You

“You know what I mean.” I turn around and grip his shaft. “I think tonight is the night.” I go down on my knees as the warm water pelts down on us.

“You sure?” He questions.

I nod up at him and kiss the head of his dick. His hands grip my hair, and I take him between my lips, flattening my tongue and sucking.

“God, Maggie. You drive me crazy.” It’s been so long since anyone has called me June, I feel like I let that part of me go. I’m not her anymore. I am Maggie now. Calder’s Maggie. My man starts to move, thrusting his hips, fucking my mouth as my lips stretch wide to accommodate his girth. “Touch that sweet pussy for me,” he commands, and I do. I’m no longer shy when it comes to my body and what I want. Calder makes me want to try new things. To explore my sexual nature to truly be in touch with myself. When I was with Chris everything was about him sticking his dick in me and getting off. With Calder, he makes sure that I am taken care of before he even considers his own needs. “Are you close?” His words come out in a strangled growl.

I pop him out of my mouth. “Not yet.” The water is turning cold and I know what I need to get me off. I need Calder making love to me. The time is right at least physically. “I want you in me.”

He doesn’t say anything, but he shuts the water off and brings me up off my knees. I wrap a towel around my body so I’m not tracking water through my apartment and lead my man to my bed.

I’m on my back as he gazes down at me with hungry eyes. We both want this. I am tired of waiting for the perfect moment. Life isn’t perfect, and neither am I even though Calder makes me feel pretty damn special. His body covers mine as he kisses me deeply. My knees fall to either side granting him access to my body...to my heart. I’ve fallen in love with him. I don’t know the exact moment it happened, but it did. I love him, and I am so terrified that if and when I tell him the truth I am going to lose him. I know how he feels about liars...criminals. I am both of those things.

“Hey, where did you go just now?” he breaks me from my awful thoughts.

“Nowhere. I’m right here, baby.” I kiss his lips and he rocks back on his calves and scrubs a hand over his face.

“Don’t kill me, but I don’t have a condom. Do you?”

Frustrated beyond words I shake my head.

“Damn. Damn.” He looks at me again and I know I don’t want to wait.

“I trust you, Calder. You’ll pull out.”

“I’ll pull out,” he repeats, and I think we both know it’s a lie, but we are both too far gone to care.

Our bodies join together, and I have never felt higher than I am right now beneath this man as he makes sweet love to me. It’s never felt this way for me before—sex.  Out of this world. I feel like I am flying as he hooks my legs over his shoulders and buries himself inside me.

“So tight.” He pulls out to the tip then slams back in, repeating the motion over and over again until he is fully seated deep inside me. “This is going to go a lot faster than I want it to, but I’ll make sure you come.” He grins lazily at me and rubs a finger over my clit.

Using my elbows for support, I pull myself up far enough to kiss him. “Let me on top, lover.”

“Fuck yes,” he says doing as I want.

I grind down on his thick cock rotating my hips, moving them side to side riding him hard. His large hands grip the tops of my thighs, gliding up until they are holding my hips in place. Calder pumps his hips, hitting me in the right spot. My orgasm rocks through me and our eyes lock. He grunts like a wild animal and without warning he’s shooting his release inside me. The sensation brings me to orgasm again. As I ride out the wave of pleasure he raises up and claims my lips. “I love you, Maggie.”

His declaration makes me so happy I could cry. “I love you too,” I admit. His essence runs down my thighs and I roll off him and out of bed to go clean myself up. What we just did—having unprotected sex was foolish, but I couldn’t stop. I didn’t want to.

“Don’t think this means you are getting out of dinner with my parents,” he yells at me.

“I know.” I smile to myself and get dressed.

**

HIS PARENTS WERE GREAT. I wasn’t sure if they would like me, but his mom said she has never seen her son so happy. That alone makes me a winner in her book. I’m relieved that she likes me. When I told her that I want to write romance novels for a living she said she thinks it’s great I want to pursue my dreams. The food was good, and the conversation stayed fairly casual. I was on cloud nine the whole evening until we returned home. While Calder was getting his stuff ready for work in the morning I went to my place to do the same and that’s when I found the envelope addressed to June stuck inside my door. The message is simple and clear.

I know you’re a liar.

It has to be from Carly. She had to have seen what I was looking at when we were at the library and this is her warning. She’s going to out me to Calder if I don’t come clean with him. Only how do I do that now after we shared the most perfect of nights together. He’s supposed to stay the night over with me. How can I lay next to him all night and pretend everything is okay?

I have to tell him who I am and what I did. How will he ever look at me the same way again. I brush my teeth being rougher than I should and my gums start to bleed. I know what I need to say but the words just won’t come.