Chapter 15
Chastity
Trees pass by in a blur.I have no idea where we’re going or how long we’ve been driving. I’m only aware of the pain in my chest that grows larger the further we go. Did I make the right choice? I glance over at Billy as he drives us away. He has his cellphone open, texting frantically as he drives. What could possibly be so important? Turning back to the window, I take in a deep breath, filling my lungs with Billy’s scent. It’s still so familiar. In all honesty, it feels like the past years have just been a bad dream.
We must be on a road trip, and I’ve fallen asleep. That has to be it. Why else would I be here with Billy instead of Doctor Rayne? I look back over at him, and he flashes me his signature smile. It’s so bright in the passing lights; it’s almost painful. There’s a tinge of something behind that smile, something I’ve never seen before. It’s the same look I’ve seen on a cat when they’ve caught something. But that can’t be the case. It must be the streetlamps.
My eyes feel like lead, and I want so desperately to close them, but what will happen if I do? Will I be back in Doctor Rayne’s arms? Will his ropes do unspeakable things to me while he touches every inch of my body like he owns it? Squirming, I force my eyes open, not wanting to chance going back - not when Billy is here with me, in the flesh.
My eyelids flutter as I lean against the cool window. Everything around me seems content in making me sleep - the constant purr of the motor, Billy’s even breathing, even the condensation that gathers at my cheek when I press against the glass.