He seemed relieved to be able to let go. “Oh, God. Come, baby…I’m coming too…holy shit.” Cedric’s thrusts quickened as I felt his orgasm pulsating inside me while I climaxed.
As we both recovered from that Earth shattering experience, his movements slowed. He stayed inside me and slowly kissed my neck.
I closed my eyes trying to relish every moment of being here with him like this. We stayed together silent for quite some time before Cedric spoke.
“That was amazing, Allison,” he whispered in my ear as he slowly pulled out of me. He turned over quickly and I heard him remove the condom and discard it.
I turned toward him with my head resting on my elbow. “Cedric, I am so glad you came home.”
“Me too,” he said as he pulled me closer to him and rested his forehead against mine. “You have no idea.”
CHAPTER 24
CEDRIC
I can’t believe I almost backed out of the most intense sex of my life. It was the moment I asked her if she was sure, when she told me she trusted me.
I trust you.
Hearing Allison say that really struck a cord and it was the only moment where I momentarily snapped out of the trance she put me in. I had closed my eyes beginning to doubt whether taking this step with her was a good idea and everything flashed before me…past, present and future.
By the time I opened my eyes again, the sheer power of her sweet face looking up at me crushed everything else and I buried it all again…by burying myself in her.
Maybe I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if the guilt caught up again later, but it was a risk I was willing to take. It was worth it to experience making love to her. Sex with her was different from all of the rest. I hadn’t ever experienced the feeling of wanting to completely possess someone and of wanting her to completely own me, to be so completely connected to the person, not just the act.
I had meant it when I said I wished I could stay inside her forever. All of my doubts seemed to disappear there. As long as we were connected, I knew I couldn’t lose her. This was the opposite of what I normally felt after sex, which was a feeling of wanting to run, where the connection ended with the orgasm.
It was now the middle of the night and Allison lay sleeping beside me rhythmically breathing so peacefully.
A moment ago, a terrifying dream had awakened me and relief replaced panic when I realized she was still lying next to me.
In the dream, Allison and I were walking in the park, when I suddenly started taunting her like a child in a sing-songy voice, repeating, ‘I know something you don’t know. I know something you don’t know’ over and over again. She had a terrified look on her fa
ce and then I woke up. The dream was brief, but just enough to make me sweat profusely and remind me how fucked up this was.
But, thankfully, for now, in reality, she was right here sleeping next to me like a baby. God, I loved hearing the sound of her breathing. I wished she could always be peaceful and that there were no secrets threatening to destroy that. I would inevitably take away that peace, but she had a right to know everything.
Yeah…sleep was not happening for me tonight.
Tempted to kiss her awake, I rolled over away from her to squelch the urge and tried to get some sleep to no avail.
After a half-hour, I turned back around to watch her peaceful face again. There was no way I would ever want to hurt her. Unable to resist, I moved in slowly to softly kiss her on the forehead. She moved a little, still asleep and her breathing changed from the interruption.
At some point after 4:00, I dozed off.
When Allison’s alarm went off at 5:30, I jolted awake and noticed her yawning next to me. She would have to leave soon for the diner, but I wasn’t about to let her go that easily.
“Good morning, sleepyhead,” I said as I leaned over kissing her on the lips gently.
“Hi,” she whispered groggily and pulled me in tighter, kissing me again.
“I wish you didn’t have to go to work so darn early,” I said, rubbing her back as she got up and sat at the edge of her side of the bed. She was still completely naked and crossing her arms over her breasts, her sudden modesty surprising me.
She continued to look around the room probably for some clothes.
“Do you mind turning around, so I can get up and get dressed?” she asked.
She was blushing and adorable.