Behind the Lens (Sexy 1)

“Thank you. Now get out.” I laugh and walk out of the room, closing the door behind me. I head outside and find the guys still sitting out there.

“You guys are still here?” They all laugh and I sit down. “What?”

“Well, either both you and Kallie made up, or you better explain why your shirt is on backwards.” I look down and start laughing.

“Yes, we made up. She saw the video.” They all try to talk at the same time, each telling me how happy they are that we worked things out. As much as I want to say I never doubted it, I did. I was terrified that she would walk away, and I’d be miserable forever.

“Where is she?” I look over a Brody, and feel guilty for saying I was like him in a negative way. He’s a fucking great guy, and any woman would be lucky to have him.

“She’s making a video.” Blake smacks the table and we look at him.

“A sex video?” I want to punch him in the mouth, but I can’t help but laugh.

“Yes, you fucking idiot, she’s making a sex video.” Max shakes his head, still staring at him.

“Why do you need to fuck it up for me, Max? Let me believe this shit.” I sip my water that is now warm and look at him.

“Hey, brother, you can bet your ass that if she was in there making a sex video, I wouldn’t be sitting here with you.” He laughs and gets up to grab a smoke.

“I think we need to celebrate tonight.” Of course, he does. Anything for a party, but fuck it, I’m totally down.

“Set it up, brother.” He pulls out his cell phone and starts walking around the yard making his phone calls. “Will you two go get food and beer?” Max lifts his eyebrows and I laugh. I haven’t laughed much, if at all, this week, so it feels amazing. “What, I’m not going to leave my girl.”

“I’m glad to hear that.” I spin around and see Kallie standing there, looking as beautiful as ever. She gives both Brody and Max a hug. “I owe you both an apology also, so I’m sorry. I hope you don’t think any differently of me.”

“Sis, it was a lot to deal with, and we never doubted you. You don’t owe us shit. I’m just glad it all worked out.” She smiles and comes to sit on my lap.

“Thank you, and Max, thanks for the video.” He winks at her, and she turns her face to me. “I believe there is a video up for your viewing, Mr. Burke.” I kiss her and nip her lips. She opens up to me, and we kiss as if I wasn’t just inside of her.

“You are making a sex video, sweet.” Kallie pulls away from me and looks at Blake.

“What?” He’s laughing, and I turn her face back to mine.

“Ignore him. Come on, let’s go see this.” We stand up, and I grin at the guys. “Get ready for tonight. I’ve got a few things to take care of.” Blake is yelling ‘hell yes’ until I know Brody punches him because I hear him say ‘ouch.’ I laugh and open the door for Kallie.

We sit down on the couch, and I can tell she wants to escape. She can’t sit still, so I put my hand on her lap. “Baby, relax.”

“I don’t need to be sitting right here. I’ll go hang out with the guys.” I tighten my hold on her leg and pull out my phone.

“Hell, no. I want you here with me.” I pull up Facebook, and the first thing I see is her smiling face. I look over at her and she blushes. “Really? This is making you blush? I just had my face in your pussy.” She laughs and I kiss her nose. I wrap my arm around her, and she rests her head on my shoulder. I hit play on the video and wait for it to start.

“I’m not the kind of girl who likes to make waves. I usually fight quietly for what I want, but it’s clear to me now, that is impossible. I’m a photographer, and I’ve never wanted to be anything but. I busted my ass for years to get to the point I’m at right now

. I love everything about what I do. There is something about capturing a moment on film that gives me the chills. I want the world to see things through my eyes, and with photography, that’s possible.” I tighten my hold on her and she kisses my arm. “I have rules as a photographer, rules that most of us have. You don’t date or sleep with your models. It was easy for me. I never saw my models as anything but that, models. I never felt any intimate connection to any of them. We worked great together, became friends, and took some kick-ass photos. That all changed when Jax walked into my life. When I saw him, I was immediately attracted to him, but I knew that was something I would never act on. For months, I pushed down my feelings and attraction to him. We were friends, best friends, and I didn’t want it to go past that. It was hard for me, keeping it all inside, but I thought I was doing the right thing. But I’ll tell you what; the only thing that felt right was being with him, being in his arms. When he finally kissed me, it was the beginning of the happiest time of my life. I am not the kind of person who sleeps around, hell, I’ve never been with a model before Jax, and I’ll never be with one again because he’s it for me. I am head over heels in love with him. I am willing to give up everything I have to be with him because I’ve found out along the way that it isn’t about what you see, it’s what’s behind the lens that matters the most. I’m done hiding, and I’m here to tell you that I’m not going anywhere. Jax holds my heart in his hands. Like me or hate me, it doesn’t matter, because he loves me and I love him.” When the video turns off, I look down at her.

“Kallie, that was fucking amazing. I love you.” She kisses me and looks into my eyes.

“I love you too.” I know she does, and now the world knows she does. A declaration that anyone would be honored to get, but when it’s coming from the most beautiful woman in the world, it means that much more. A girl who made me chase her, but what a fucking chase it was. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat if it meant I ended up here, with her in my arms.

I AM WALKING AROUND SNAPPING random photos, loving every second of this opportunity. It was such an honor when I got an email from Storytime Book Magic, asking if I’d like to be the official photographer for the signing she was planning. I couldn’t have agreed fast enough. The thought of being in the presence of all these amazing authors and models was a dream come true and great promotion for me as a photographer.

The last six months have been unreal. I sometimes need to pinch myself to make sure this is real life. My photography business has never been so busy. I’m booked months out. I’ve found some new models, and I’ve shot with my current models. I’ve gotten several authors who exclusively use my photos, and it still makes me squeal when I see them on the covers. I don’t think that is a feeling that will ever get old.

As for me and Jax, things have been perfect. I didn’t think it was possible to fall more in love with him, but I have. After we both put our videos out on social media, the response was huge. There were comments about how sweet our love is, how romantic he was, and how lucky we both were. I didn’t need to read them to know that, but it sure as hell was a better feeling than the horrible comments I’d been getting. Jax even went onto my computer one night and posted a few photos from the shoot I ended up doing with him. I received many messages telling me I should be doing modeling. As great as that felt, it’s not something that will ever happen. I belong behind the lens, for sure.

Jax, on the other hand, has gotten even bigger, if you can believe that. He’s been traveling all over to shoots and signings. He’s even gotten his own fan club, which he still says must be a mistake. Although, no matter how busy we are, how crazy our lives get, as long as we are in the same town, we are in each other’s bed. When one of us is traveling, being away is hard, but coming home makes it worth it. He knows exactly how to show me how much he’s missed me, and I look forward to those moments from the minute one of us leaves.

“How’s my girl?” I turn in his arms and kiss him. I hear a few ‘sighs’ from the people around us, but it’s something I’m used to now.