Giving her a stern look, I quickly shake my head. “You do not regret ice cream or sex, Avery. That’s just wrong.”
She giggles as she shakes her head, but then she pauses, holding her gut. “Blah, I think I’m gonna barf.”
“Really?” I ask, a little surprised. But then, she did eat a lot of ice cream. And really, I don’t play around with sex. I get it done.
She swallows hard. “I think I pushed it back down.”
“How romantic.” I’m feeling a little queasy now too.
She sticks her tongue out at me and then shakes her head. “I think I’m good.”
“Oh, good.”
“Anyway…”
“Yes, what are we being honest about?” I ask and she sets me with a look. “You want me to come to New Jersey with you? Meet your parents, beat your brothers up if they’re mean to you?”
She laughs. “I would never ask that of you. Those people are nuts. Plus, you have a game Friday.”
“This is true.”
“Okay, so shut up and let me talk.”
“Well, talk,” I say and she rolls her eyes.
“I’m trying!” I laugh at the frustration all over her face. She’s so cute when her face is red and her eyes go wild. They turn such an awesome green color and take my breath away. Honestly.
Yeah, our lives are going a hundred miles an hour and may be going in different directions, but nothing can keep us apart. No matter what. I’ve been thinking like mad since we left the record company this afternoon, and I know it’s going to be hard. That we may be apart a lot, but we can do it. Hell, Jude and Claire have been doing just that and they are fine. We’ll figure it out because you fight for love. You fight like there are ten seconds left on the clock and you’re down a goal. You don’t give up, and I won’t give up on this girl. Too many people have failed her, and I won’t be one of them.
Pulling back, her face fills with a sweet pink color as her eyes lock with mine. “Are you done interrupting me?”
I eye her. “So no to a second round?” I say, waggling my brows seductively, but she only glares.
“No. Let me talk!”
“Fine! Talk,” I yell back playfully and she grins before I take her mouth with mine.
She starts to pull away, but I grasp her breast in my hand. “You really still wanna talk?”
Sucking in a deep breath, she swallows hard and looks deep into my eyes. “I don’t know if I want to be a performer.”
Now that makes me stop. “Huh?”
“Like, when I was in the meeting, he said he doesn’t know if he can sell my voice. It wasn’t the first time I’ve heard that.”
My brow rises. “I love your voice.”
“Yeah, but some don’t. They say it’s too raspy. And while we both think it’s great, I don’t know if I can put myself out there to be hated.”
“I’m confused. I thought you wanted this. Why does it matter what people think?”
She nods. “God, yes, I do. But I think I want to be behind the scenes. I love performing at the coffee shop and downtown, but lately, my anxiety has been really bad. The other day I forgot the words to one of my songs ’cause people started to leave.”
I wasn’t there, but she told me what had happened. She was a wreck about it, but I didn’t think anything of it. Maybe I should have. “Yeah, but that’s only a few people. If it’s your dream to be onstage, do it.”
She shrugs, her eyes full of nervousness that I really don’t understand. “Th
at’s the thing. I don’t know if it is. I love writing. I love spilling my soul out into a song. But I don’t know. Lately, I’ve been real anxious onstage. Well, no, I love being at the coffee shop, mainly because those people love me, but downtown has been hard for me. That’s another reason I feel I have to go see my doctor in New Jersey. I think they need to up my meds.”