Drugs….
I was a drug addict.
Me…
I still can't believe it.
I can play the badass mobster, or the Einstein of the D'Agostino pack with his double honors degree from M.I.T. Underneath it all though, I’m me and I hate not being in control.When the shit started to hit the fan, I took a path that nearly destroyed me, and her too.
I’ve been clean now for ten months straight and my addiction is behind me.But cleaning up wasn’t the only thing I had to worry about.
When a person turns to drugs, that part is just a coping mechanism for what’s really bothering them.What was bothering me was life.
Now it’s back to screw with me and I have to deal with it or more people I love could die.
I’m back, but I’m only here because the time has come where I’m needed.
When I left, I know my family had to trust I was alive, and I’d be back when I was ready to come home.That last part is what I’m struggling with because I’m not ready.I’m not ready to be home or be the Dominic D’Agostino they’re all used to.
I pull in a breath as the gravity of the situation hits me.
Danger’s on the horizon again.
Danger regarding the Syndicate.
As Candace checks the wide framed UPVC casement windows, making sure they’re locked, and she’s safe, I’m reminded that I'm one of the monsters who should stay away from her.
I should stick to the darkness and leave her out of my world.
Wicked lies and broken promises are the things that define us.Both are a sign we were never meant to be.
Thirteen years ago, darkness took her parents away from her and she hasn’t been the same since.They were killed in front of her in the most gruesome way.Fear is just the beginning of what cursed her after.A symptom of what happened. Or rather, what was going on.
I want better than darkness for her.
As Candace places an assortment of cookies on the plate and walks out of the kitchen with her phone at her ear, I lower my binoculars and leave too.
Tomorrow is going to be a very interesting day.
I’ll see my brothers then, and I’ll see her too.
I don’t know what their reaction will be like.
Candace would have every right to hate me.
Staying away is the best thing I could do for her.
The only problem with that is, I still love her.