be life changing. How just the smallest thing can make the
hugest difference. I also talked about how I struggled early on
because I wanted everything to fit into a formula, because
that’s how life made sense to me. Numbers. Math. Molecules.
Atoms. I liked when something followed the rules that
governed it. When I could make sense of the world that way,
in a way that can be tangibly and easily, at least by me,
understood. I didn’t honestly know if Adley was getting much
out of what I was saying, even though she was listening like
she wanted to hear it. I was trying to make things as
metaphorical as possible, in hopes that she’d understand. That
we’d be speaking a common language of understanding.
Now that we’re done with dinner and we’re stepping
back into our room, I’m not sure that we were, but right now,
that’s far from my mind.
I lock the door behind us and walk over to the huge
Jacuzzi tub. “Should I fill it? I think it would be fun. It
probably takes for—”
Adley wraps her arms around my neck and tugs me
against her roughly. Her lips are on mine, furious and starving.
She tastes like red wine from dinner, like the chocolate cake
we shared for dessert. She’s sweet and all I want to do is sink
into her. I whimper and angle my face so she can deepen the
kiss. I want this so badly. I’ve been craving Adley since that
night we spent at her apartment. It was the longest week of my
life, waiting to hold her, waiting for her to touch my body, my
heart, my everything. All the bits and pieces, all the particles
and everything else that makes me me.
The kiss started out furious, but as Adley steers me
towards the massive bed, she slows things down. She allows