Freshman (First Time 3)
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“Fucking WATCH ME!” I roared, making both girls jump a step back. Christina started to cry then, and it broke my fucking heart, but I knew I couldn’t do a damn thing. And so I watched as she grabbed Anna’s hand and started to pull her away, back into the rain.
She whirled back when they’d gotten halfway down the walkway to the driveway, blinking back water and tears as she quietly shook her head in the pouring rain. “I just thought you’d understand.”
And this time I did step forward. This time, I leveled my eyes with her, my jaw tense as I followed them into the rain, shaking my head at her. “You thought I’d understand? Chris, are you fucking kidding me?”
She started to open her mouth, but once again, Anna stepped in front of her, as if trying to protect her. “We were drinking, and I was weird, and-”
“Hold on, no,” Christina shook my head, stepping in. “No, that’s not how this-”
“Enough!” I bellowed, my jaw tight. I glared at Christina, rain slamming into us, but I didn’t even feel it. “Do you think I’m going to think that makes it all okay? Don’t go thinking I’m that guy, Chris. Don’t go thinking that I’m going to be fine with this just because ‘oh, she’s a girl so it’s not cheating’. Fuck that!” I roared. “You broke our-”
“Our what!?” She shouted back, her words choking in her throat. “I broke our what? We don’t even know what we are!”
I growled. “I told you, I-”
“And I love you too!” She yelled. “But - I’m going to need more than that at some point.”
I rolled my eyes, swearing under my breath. “Oh, something like fucking around with your friend here? ‘Trying something new’? Is that that you’re going to need?!”
“I need YOU!” She cried out. “I need you and me to be real, not this secret little dirty affair. I want to tell people about you! I want people to know you’re the man I love, not my dad or something.”
I sucked in a breath through gritted teeth. “I’m trying, Christina.”
“Try harder,” Anna spat at me, and I turned and narrowed my eyes at her.
“You should both leave. Go back to school, go…do whatever you want.” I started to turn back to the house. “I’m through with this.”
“Wait.” It was Christina’s voice, and for a second, I paused, standing there in the rain with my back to her. “I- I need to tell you something else.”
I barked out a laugh. “I think I’m all set with anymore fucking surprises today, Chri-”
“I’m pregnant.”
And the world went still. It was like the Earth stopped spinning, and for a second, time itself just stopped. And right then, everything else dropped away. All the rest of it was just bullshit when I heard those words. All the other emotions dropped away, and the anger that’d been building like a brick wall inside of me came tumbling down.
Slowly, I turned back to see her shaking quietly, her arms hugging herself, with Anna’s standing beside her, hugging her tight. Five seconds ago, and see them like that would’ve enraged me. Seeing Anna like that with her would have felt like fucking betrayal and pain.
Only now, it was just…beautiful. It was touching, in a way, and suddenly I found myself letting it all out - all of it.
“You’re what?” I said quietly.
Christina started to crumble. “I- I’m sorry. You know I wasn’t on the pill, and we didn’t use-” She started to cry as Anna puller her to her, hugging her close and rubbing her back.
And suddenly, I was right there too, my arms around them both and my heart choking into my throat. “Let’s get the fuck inside, it’s pouring out here.”
Christina nodded silently as I pulled them both back to the front door, dragging us in from the pouring rain and slamming the door shut behind us.
We stood there, shivering in the semi-dark of my foyer, before I pulled her into me. “You’re seriously pregnant?”
She started to cry again, pushing her face into my chest. “I’m so fucking sorry, I know this is going to ruin-”
“Honey thats the best news I ever heard in my entire fucking life.”
She went still in my arms, and suddenly looked up at me. “What?”
And the grin I’d have never in a million years thought I’d feel again slowly started to creep across my face. “Baby, that’s…it’s-” I tightened my jaw, my eyes blazing into hers. “That’s everything I’ve always fucking wanted.”
She blinked. “You’re- you’re not mad?”