Bonarata’s face did not change.
“You can take that,” he said with a nod toward Wulfe. “And”—he produced a wadded-up mass of embroidered cloth of gold—“you can keep this, too.” He looked down at what was left of the angelic, gifted scholar Wulfe had been. “It seemed to be particularly attached. I left it in the cell for the first year or two.” He smiled. “A kindness.”
Here, I thought, look at him, Marsilia. Here is the real Bonarata.
He dropped what he held on top of my bags, and I saw it was the girdle he’d given Marsilia, his mistress, when we all had been human. I think he’d been a monster even then.
Marsilia said, “You tell me this was vengeance? For something he never did, centuries ago? I gave him the girdle.”
“I did this for you, my Bright Blade,” Bonarata said. “A gift of memory. When you betray me, remember it will never be you who suffers.” He turned to leave.
“You didn’t do this for vengeance,” I told him. “Not just for vengeance.”
He froze and turned to me, an incredulous look on his face, as if one of his horses had decided to speak. It was my habit to let him think the less of me, to treat me as her servant—which I was. And if he forgot I was dangerous, that was a good thing. But I wasn’t going to let her live believing what had been done to Wulfe was her fault.
“You were afraid of him,” I said, meeting his eyes.
We stared at each other in that filthy dungeon. But it was Bonarata who turned and walked away.
—
This time when I woke up, the sky was starting to lighten, and Adam was showering. I got out of bed, went to the closet, and opened the safe where I’d put the belt—the girdle—Wulfe had left on the bed.
I hadn’t really needed to check, because I’d known even while I was dreaming Stefan’s memories that the belt Wulfe had worn when Stefan met him for the first time, the belt Bonarata had tossed on top of Stefan’s bags, and the belt hanging in my safe were all the same one.
“Morning,” Adam called. “I’ll make breakfast.”
“Thanks,” I said. “I’ll be down in a minute.”
I showered, thinking about Wulfe, about gifts that were not gifts at all. About vengeance and sacrifices.
I dressed in my usual work clothes—jeans and a T-shirt. Braided my hair and stared at the thin white scar on my cheek that I’d gotten the last time I’d gone up against a god. I came down the stairs in time to spot Tad and Jesse headed out the door.
“This is early for you,” I said. On Thursdays their classes didn’t usually start until eleven.
“Study group meeting at seven thirty,” Jesse said, rolling her eyes.
I couldn’t tell if she was rolling her eyes at the hour, the study group, or Tad opening the door for her. It could have been any or all of them.
“Good luck,” I said.
Jesse stopped and looked at me. “Don’t die,” she told me. “Don’t let him die.” She poked a finger toward the kitchen.
“Don’t die,” I returned. “Don’t let him die.” I poked a finger toward Tad, who laughed.
Jesse contemplated him, sighed, and said, “Sometimes sacrifices need to be made.” Then she stomped out the door.
“Is the sacrifice that you keep me from dying?” I could hear Tad ask her on the other side of the door in a cheerful voice. “Or am I the sacrifice to be made for others’ safety?”
“Get in the car, Tad,” she said. “I hope you and Izzy make up soon. I don’t know if I can stand being around just you for long.”
The car doors shut and Jesse’s car drove off.
Sometimes sacrifices need to be made.
—
“Hey, you,” I said to Adam as I entered the kitchen.