Deviant

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“Boss there’s something you need to know.” I wasn’t really paying attention. I haven’t paid attention to shit in weeks, not since I’d lost her. “What is it?”

“It’s the girl.” I sat up and looked at him with my heart in my lungs. “If you tell me some fuck happened to her….”

“No it’s nothing like that. She’s…” he broke off and looked at the ceiling.

“She’s what? Is she hurt?”

“Okay so for the past few weeks she’s been acting kinda strange, not keeping to her usual routine. Then today we followed her to this out of the way pharmacy. We had a hard time getting into her dorm afterwards but…”

“But what?” What the fuck was his problem? He threw something on the desk. I didn’t know what the fuck I was looking at. Some kind of stick with a window at the end with a big pink dot.

“What the fuck is that?”

“It’s a pregnancy test. The pink dot means it’s positive.”

I was out of my chair and headed for the door before he was done talking. “Where is she?” My dick was hard as fuck. Strange fucking reaction to learning I’m going to be a dad. There was more than that going on in my head though. I’d been beating myself up trying to figure out a way to get her back here, this was the perfect excuse.

I never gave birth control a second thought when I was fucking her except for that one time when I purposely came in her with intent, another first for me. Had I been subconsciously hoping for this?

“We followed her back to the dorm after class. The car’s on her now so she’s still there. I thought you might want to know right away.”

I took the stairs two at a time as my heart went into overdrive.

“Take me to her.”

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I sat in the back of the car and didn’t let myself think about shit. There was no point in making myself crazy, not until I see her for myself. Not until I have her back where she belongs.

“Where is she now?”

“Her detail says she’s at the library boss.” Shit, I would’ve preferred her to be somewhere with no witnesses but I can improvise. Hopefully I won’t have to shoot nobody’s kid for getting in my shit.

The fucking place was crawling with people when we pulled up. “You want us to go in boss?”

“No, I’ve got ‘er.” I slid out of the car and looked around. How do I play this? She’s pregnant so I can’t do any of my manhandling shit. But if I go too soft she’s gonna bolt. No fucking way is she running with my kid in her.

I walked through the kids that were standing in my fucking way like they didn’t see me coming. One of the dicks made some kind of smartass comment and I looked back at him. He got smart quick and shut the fuck up. Good for him. I was in a fucked up mood not knowing where this shit was gonna end.

My life has been fucked ever since the day I sent her away. Not only that, but knowing the man I was sending her to, her asshole dad was a monster, had given me a nightmare or two. But there wasn’t much I could do after giving my word. If there’s one thing I follow through on it’s that shit.

But she was the first one to make me second guess that shit. I’d been tempted as fuck to keep her. To spirit her away to my island compound and hide her ass away from the rest of the world.

For her I’d been willing to break my own code if it meant keeping her next to me. I don’t think I’ve slept a full night since that day a little while ago when I set her free.

That last night I’d woken up in the middle of the night to find her draped all over me. I stayed there like that with her head on my shoulder and her hand on my chest, just watching her breathe. Her face was so angelic in repose, so innocent. Something in my heart had clutched and I’d pulled her in closer to kiss her hair.

It was then I knew I was in serious trouble. Somewhere between me taking her and fucking the shit out of her, I’d fallen in love. That was one fucking emotion I could do without. Love had cost my dad his life. For the love of mom he’d basically stopped living the day she died so it might as well have.

“Maybe in another life princess.” I kissed her forehead and slid out from under her.

I sat up dressed and ready, waiting for the sun to come up. Then once she woke up I’d spent the next few hours running hot and cold. It didn’t help that she kept giving me looks like I was throwing her away.