But I wanted more. As the summer drew to a close, I didn’t want to leave without giving all of myself to him. I knew I loved him and that I didn’t want us to end. So as we lay on the beach, his hands touching me and making my body hum with need, I offered myself to him.
I’ve never forgotten the look in his eyes at that moment. There was excitement, but I swore I also saw love there.
He pushed my hair behind my ear as the wind gently blew it. “I don’t want this to end.”
My heart expanded in my chest to hear those words. “Me neither.”
And then he kissed me, and I could feel the difference between all the lovely kisses we had before, and the passion that he was letting loose in that one. On the beach, under a beautiful August moon, he filled my body with his. The initial pain at his intrusion was dulled by my love for him and what we were doing, and eventually, it was replaced with pleasure as he made me come, followed by his own release.
Afterward, I lay in his arms, feeling like my life was perfect, except for the fact that the summer was ending and we were still a secret.
“We’ll figure something out, Beth,” he said when I shared my feelings.
I nodded, trusting that he’d find a way for us to be together. As it turned out, that trust was misguided. The next day he was gone. No explanation. No goodbye. Just gone.
Tonight, as he danced, his head tilted to the side, as if he knew I wasn’t fully there. His hand settled on my waist and pulled me closer.
He leaned in toward me and said over the music, “Are you okay?”
The scent of him enveloped me and I felt more intoxicated by him than the drinks. “Yes.”
I looked up into his perfectly handsome face, his kind hazel eyes, and wondered what happened to us. My gaze drifted down to his lips, remembering their taste and softness.
“If you keep looking at me like that, there’s no telling what will happen,” he said as he pulled me closer until I could feel the hard length of him through his pants. He held me there, moving with the music and bringing me back to that one perfect night on the beach. I thought I was over him. I thought I’d grieved the dream of us. But being so close to him made my senses go haywire with need. My heart longed for what we’d lost, even though my head knew it could never happen. It would be too risky to allow it.
Finally, the song ended, and I pulled away. “I need some water.”
With his hand on my lower back, he guided me back to the VIP section of the club, telling a passing water to bring us some water.
I immediately went to the glass partition to look out over the dance floor, not trusting myself to look him in the eyes again. Chances were high that I’d throw myself at him and that would be a disaster.
He came to stand behind me, his hands lightly on my waist at first as if he was testing the waters, and then they encircled me. His chest was hot against my back. His dick pressed against my ass. His breath was warm on my ear as he pressed a kiss to my neck and then my shoulder. My senses were overloaded with the scent and feel of him. My body was buzzing with need. All I could think about was getting naked and letting him touch me all night long.
His hands slid up my belly to just below my breasts. His thumb brushed over my already aching and hard nipples, and I couldn’t hold back the gasp as fire shot through me. Why was I letting him do this? Where was all the anger I’d felt for him for so long? I should have been repulsed, not turned on.
His lips tug on my earlobe. “Come home with me, Beth.”
Oh God, how I wanted to. I wanted to feel his hands on my body again. To feel him sliding in and out of me, making me come like I’d never come before. But I’d wanted so much from him before, and it hadn’t worked out. Back then, the only risk was my brother’s anger. Today, giving into Ash had even bigger risks. Too big to take risks.
He ground his dick against me, reminding me how large he was. “I’m dying to touch you again.”
I squeezed my eyes shut, like that would help me make the best decision for me and my life.
“I’ll do it here and now, but I’d rather do it in my bed, where I’ve got the time and space, and privacy.”