I gasped. “Whatever you want to do to me.”
“Ah fuck… that kind of talk makes me want to come.”
I turned around, pressing my hands on the tiles. “Come in me, Ash.”
His hands stroked over my shoulders, down my arms and my hips. Then he kissed the area where my neck met my shoulder. “I’m going to come so hard in you.”
He tilted my hips back, and his cock rubbed my entrance.
“Now, Ash. Don’t tease me.”
Thankfully he heard my plea and he thrust in, hard and fast. I cried out as pleasure ricocheted through my body.
“Yes, oh yes, Ash.”
“You like that?” He withdrew and thrust again.
“Yes.”
“You like it when I fuck you, Beth?”
“I love it.” I widened my stance, wanting him to go deeper. I wanted him so deep inside me that he was a part of me.
“How about when I make love to you? You like that too?”
“Yes. I like it all, Ash. All of it. All of you.”
His hands came around me, tweaking my breasts. “Someday I want to fuck your tits. I want to come all over them.”
“Oh God.” The image of that scenario made me so hot. I was sure my skin would burn up.
“Would you like that?”
“Yes.”
He withdrew and thrust again. One hand slid down to my pussy, and he rubbed my clit, eliciting a moan from me that echoed through the bathroom.
“Someday I’m going to plant my seed in you again, Beth. And I’ll be there for every moment of that child growing inside you and the birth… all of it.”
“Yes, Ash. I want that. I want that so bad.” It wasn’t marriage proposal, but it was a commitment. He saw us as a long-term deal. As a family. It was more than I deserved. I was going to savor every second of it.
“Fuck, I’m going to come… thinking about impregnating you makes me so hard.”
“Come in me, Ash.” To be honest, I’d have been completely okay if he’d whipped the condom off and made good on his seed planting right now. Instead he gripped my hips and began to thoroughly fuck me. His hips slapped against mine. Each thrust shot me higher and higher until finally, my body exploded with pleasure. I cried out his name, as bliss radiated to every cell in my body.
“Yes!” he yelled out, and then he thrust and ground his hips against me as his own release overtook him.
When he finished, he leaned forward to kissed my neck. “We’re going to make it this time Beth.”
I turned and wrapped my arms around him, starting to cry as emotions overwhelmed me. “You won’t regret it. I’ll make you so happy.”
“You already make me happy,” he said holding me close. Those words were as meaningful to me as when he said he loved me.
Twenty minutes later, he was in the kitchen making pancakes as I helped Hannah get dressed. “Where’s Daddy?”
“He’s making pancakes.”
“I love pancakes.”
“I know. I think that’s why he’s making them. He wants you to be happy.”
Hannah put her hands on my cheek. “I am happy. Are you happy, Mommy?”
“I’m so happy, Hannah-Banana.”
I led her to the kitchen. Ash was at the stove wearing a large chef’s hat.
“Daddy. What’s on your head?”
“Oh hey, cutie patootie.” He squatted down. “This is what chef’s wear. I stole it from my brother, Kade. Shh, don’t tell him.”
She laughed. “Can I try it?”
“Sure.” She put it on, but it came down over her face.
“We’ll have to resize it,” I said.
He reached out, pulled me to him and gave me a kiss.
Hannah giggled. “That’s silly.”
“What is?” Ash asked.
“Kissing Mommy.”
“Really?” His brows narrowed in thought. “Mommies and Daddies don’t kiss?”
Hannah’s brows narrowed just the same ways Ash’s had. “I guess they do.”
He looked at me. “Can we tell her about the new living arrangement?”
“Yes. Of course.” I was desperate for that. It would make it real.
“Listen Hannah, how would you feel about living here all the time?”
I’d expected her to be elated, but she cut a glance at me. “Could Mommy come too?”
“Yes. All three of us. As a family.”
“Yay!” Hannah jumped up and down. “I’d love that.” She wrapped one arm around my leg and the other around Ash’s.
“I think that’s a yes.” He said, leaning over to kiss me before reaching down to pick up Hannah and give her a hug.
Up until that moment, the happiest I’d ever been was six years ago when I was with Ash. For a long time, I thought that was the happiest I’d ever be. I’d peaked at eighteen, and nothing in my life would quite compare to the perfection of that summer.
Giving birth to and raising of Hannah brought me a great deal of happiness, but there had also been a bittersweetness to it because Ash hadn’t been there.
But now, I was so filled with bliss, I wasn’t sure how it could be contained in my heart.