Mistress of Deception

'I hate you,' she choked out when he scooped her up into his arms and carried her into that bedroom.

His blue eyes glittered in the semi-darkness. 'I love the way you hate, Ebony. Keep it up.' And with that, he dropped her on the bed and started stripping off her clothes.

CHAPTER TWO

EBONY woke the next morning knowing that she finally hated Alan Carstairs.

It had been a long time coming.

At fifteen, she had hero-worshipped him. At sixteen, she'd developed a full- blown schoolgirl crush. By seventeen, she was constantly fantasising about him, till finally, at eighteen, she'd made an utter fool of herself over the man.

She cringed at the still sharp memory of her throwing herself at him in the library that night four years ago, gushing with adolescent stupidity that he must love her if he'd paid for her out of his own pocket all these years. He hadn't known what had hit him when she'd upped and kissed him. How ironic that it had probably been his momentary but stunning response to that foolish kiss that had been responsible for what had happened three years later.

Oh, he'd stopped the kiss soon enough, well before he could have been accused of tampering with her morals. But the memory of his tongue thrusting deep into her mouth, of his arms tightening like steel bands around her even for a split-second, had been enough to keep fuelling her fantasy that underneath his bluster he loved her and wanted her.

And she'd naively told him so.

Of course, he'd torn strips off her at the time, telling her she was acting like a silly little fool, that his paying for her had been his way of showing gratitude to her father who'd once lent him money when no one else would, that he considered her guardianship a sacred trust that could not and would not be sullied by him, that his briefly kissing her back had been meant as a savage lesson on what could happen if a hormone-filled teenager like herself fell into the wrong hands.

She'd finally believed him that night, shame and embarrassment making her flee his presence. How she had cried and cried! Nothing Mrs Carstairs said—and the dear woman had tried everything— could make her stop. All Ebony had been able to think of was that she couldn't stay in that house, seeing Alan every day, reliving her moment of humiliation, living off his charity. She had seized on this last reason as an excuse to flee him, and his house, as soon as she could.

But she hadn't been able to forget him, no matter what she'd done. Hard work and a busy and varied social life had filled her hours, but not her heart.

Gary Stevenson had come into her life when she'd been a very vulnerable twenty. Still a virgin, despite her physical beauty attracting many admirers, Gary had become first her photographer, then her friend, and finally her lover.

Why had she given in to him and not the others?

He'd been good to her. Sweet. Kind, And one night he had caught her at a very weak moment. Afterwards, there had seemed to be no going back. And in truth, she'd found much comfort in the human closeness of their affair, in having Gary hold her and tell her that he adored the ground she walked on. Oh, he hadn't pretended to really love her, which had been a relief in a way. His being in love with her might have made her feel guilty. But he'd liked her and desired her and, in the end, had even asked her to marry him. They would go to Paris together, he'd said, and become a raging success.

She had had to refuse, of course, and, though disappointed, Gary had not been heart-broken, taking himself off to Paris anyway while she had gone on with her modelling here in Sydney. For a while, she'd been very depressed and lonely, thinking she'd done the wrong thing. But then the unexpected had happened. Alan had become her lover, and she'd quickly found that what she'd experienced in bed with Gary had not prepared her for the intoxicating excitement and wickedly irresistible rapture of being in Alan's arms.

Which is why I'm here now, she groaned silently, and threw a pained look across at Alan's sleeping form.

God, why do I let him do this to me—take my self-respect and pride and grind it into the dust, make me say and do things when I know he doesn't love me? He told me the morning after the first night I slept with him. He loves Adrianna. What he feels for me is nothing but lust, an uncontrollably mad lust.