2
The gunslinger had regained consciousness shortly after Eddie dragged him into the shade of a rock outcropping. His face, where it was not ashy, was a hectic red. His chest rose and fell rapidly. His right arm was a network of twisting red lines.
"Feed her," he croaked at Eddie.
"You--"
"Never mind me. I'll be all right. Feed her. She'll eat now, I think. And you'll need her strength."
"Roland, what if she's just pretending to be--"
The gunslinger gestured impatiently.
"She's not pretending to be anything, except alone in her body. I know it and you do, too. It's in her face. Feed her, for the sake of your father, and while she eats, come back to me. Every minute counts now. Every second."
Eddie got up, and the gunslinger pulled him back with his left hand. Sick or not, his strength was still there.
"And say nothing about the other. Whatever she tells you, however she explains, don't contradict her."
"Why?"
"I don't know. I just know it's wrong. Now do as I say and don't waste any more time!"
Odetta had been sitting in her chair, looking out at the sea with an expression of mild and bemused amazement. When Eddie offered her the chunks of lobster left over from the previous night, she smiled ruefully. "I would if I could," she said, "but you know what happens."
Eddie, who had no idea what she was talking about, could only shrug and say, "It wouldn't hurt to try again, Odetta. You need to eat, you know. We've got to go as fast as we can."
She laughed a little and touched his hand. He felt something like an electric charge jump from her to him. And it was her; Odetta. He knew it as well as Roland did.
"I love you, Eddie. You have tried so hard. Been so patient. So has he--" She nodded toward the place where the gunslinger lay propped against the rocks, watching. "--but he is a hard man to love."
"Yeah. Don't I know it."
"I'll try one more time.
"For you."
She smiled and he felt all the world move for her, because of her, and he thought Please God, I have never had much, so please don't take her away from me again. Please.
She took the chunks of lobster-meat, wrinkled her nose in a rueful comic expression, and looked up at him.
"Must I?"
"Just give it a shot," he said.
"I never ate scallops again," she said.
"Pardon?"
"I thought I told you."
"You might have," he said, and gave a little nervous laugh. What the gunslinger had said about not letting her know about the other loomed very large inside his mind just then.
"We had them for dinner one night when I was ten or eleven. I hated the way they tasted, like little rubber balls, and later I vomited them up. I never ate them again. But . . ." She sighed. "As you say, I'll 'give it a shot.' "
She put a piece in her mouth like a child taking a spoonful of medicine she knows will taste nasty. She chewed slowly at first, then more rapidly. She swallowed. Took another piece. Chewed, swallowed. Another. Now she was nearly wolfing it.
"Whoa, slow down!" Eddie said.
"It must be another kind! That's it, of course it is!" She looked at Eddie shiningly. "We've moved further up the beach and the species has changed! I'm no longer allergic, it seems! It doesn't taste nasty, like it did before . . . and I did try to keep it down, didn't I?" She looked at him nakedly. "I tried very hard."
"Yeah." To himself he sounded like a radio broadcasting a very distant signal. She thinks she's been eating every day and then up-chucking everything. She thinks that's why she's so weak. Christ Almighty. "Yeah, you tried like hell."
"It tastes--" These words were hard to pick up because her mouth was full. "It tastes so good!" She laughed. The sound was delicate and lovely. "It's going to stay down! I'm going to take nourishment! I know it! I feel it!"
"Just don't overdo it," he cautioned, and gave her one of the water-skins. "You're not used to it. All that--" He swallowed and there was an audible (audible to him, at least) click in his throat. "All that throwing up."
"Yes. Yes."
"I need to talk to Roland for a few minutes."
"All right."
But before he could go she grasped his hand again.
"Thank you, Eddie. Thank you for being so patient. And thank him." She paused gravely. "Thank him, and don't tell him that he scares me."
"I won't," Eddie had said, and went back to the gunslinger.
3
Even when she wasn't pushing, Odetta was a help. She navigated with the prescience of a woman who has spent a long time weaving a wheelchair through a world that would not acknowledge handicapped people such as she for years to come.
"Left," she'd call, and Eddie would gee to the left, gliding past a rock snarling out of the pasty grit like a decayed fang. On his own, he might have seen it . . . or maybe not.
"Right," she called, and Eddie hawed right, barely missing one of the increasingly rare sandtraps.
They finally stopped and Eddie lay down, breathing hard.
"Sleep," Odetta said. "An hour. I'll wake you."
Eddie looked at her.
"I'm not lying. I observed your friend's condition, Eddie--"
"He's not exactly my friend, you kn--"
"--and I know how important time is. I won't let you sleep longer than an hour out of a misguided sense of mercy. I can tell the sun quite well. You won't do that man any good by wearing yourself out, will you?"
"No," he said, thinking: But you don't understand. If I sleep and Detta Walker comes back--
"Sleep, Eddie," she said, and since Eddie was too weary (and too much in love) to do other than trust her, he did. He slept and she woke him when she said she would and she was still Odetta, and they went on, and now she was pumping again, helping. They raced up the diminishing beach toward the door Eddie kept frantically looking for and kept not seeing.
4
When he left Odetta eating her first meal in days and went back to the gunslinger, Roland seemed a little better.
"Hunker down," he said to Eddie.
Eddie hunkered.
"Leave me the skin that's half full. All I need. Take her to the door."
"What if I don't--"
"Find it? You'll find it. The first two were there; this one will be, too. If you get there before sundown tonight, wait for dark and then kill double. You'll need to leave her food and make sure she's sheltered as well as she can be. If you don't reach it tonight, kill triple. Here."
He handed over one of his guns.
Eddie took it with respect, surprised as before by how heavy it was.
"I thought the shells were all losers."
"Probably are. But I've loaded with the ones I believe were wetted least--three from the buckle side of the left belt, three from the buckle side of the right. One may fire. Two, if you're lucky. Don't try them on the crawlies." His eyes considered Eddie briefly. "There may be other things out there."
"You heard it too, didn't you?"
"If you mean something yowling in the hills, yes. If you mean the Bugger-Man, as your eyes say, no. I heard a wildcat in the brakes, that's all, maybe with a voice four times the size of its body. It may be nothing you can't drive off with a stick. But there's her to think about. If her other comes back, you may have to--"
"I won't kill her, if that's what you're thinking!"
"You may have to wing her. You understand?"
Eddie gave a reluctant nod. Goddam shells probably wouldn't fire anyway, so there was no sense getting his panties in a bunch about it.
"When you get to the door, leave her. Shelter her as well as you can, and come back to me with the chair."
"And the gun?"
The gunslinger's eyes blazed so brightly that Eddie snapped his head back, as if Roland had thrust a flaming torch in his face. "Gods, yes! Leave her with a loaded gun, when her other might come back at any time? Are you insane?"
"The shells--"
/> "Fuck the shells!" the gunslinger cried, and a freak drop in the wind allowed the words to carry. Odetta turned her head, looked at them for a long moment, then looked back toward the sea. "Leave it with her not!"
Eddie kept his voice low in case the wind should drop again. "What if something comes down from the brakes while I'm on my way back here? Some kind of cat four times bigger than its voice, instead of the other way around? Something you can't drive off with a stick?"
"Give her a pile of stones," the gunslinger said.
"Stones! Jesus wept! Man, you are such a fucking shit!"
"I am thinking," the gunslinger said. "Something you seem unable to do. I gave you the gun so you could protect her from the sort of danger you're talking about for half of the trip you must make. Would it please you if I took the gun back? Then perhaps you could die for her. Would that please you? Very romantic . . . except then, instead of just her, all three of us would go down."
"Very logical. You're still a fucking shit, however."
"Go or stay. Stop calling me names."
"You forgot something," Eddie said furiously.
"What was that?"