“Sebastian,” she whimpers, her movements grinding her pelvis against me.
“Fuck, yeah, baby, come, come all over my cock,” I demand, loving the way she looks as she brings herself to climax on my cock.
As soon as she starts to fall apart, I start to fuck her again, my hips piston. I thrust harder and harder, my jaw clenching as I plow through her squeezing cunt. It doesn’t take but a few thrusts for me to shatter.
My cock twitches as hot sticky come erupts from deep within my balls and into her tight hole filling her until there isn’t room for anything else.
Lily sags against my sweaty chest, and I lift my arm, draping it across her back, holding her close. It takes us both a while to catch our breaths, and the entire time all I can think about is doing this forever with Lily. Putting a ring on her finger and watching as her belly swells with my children.
I want it all. Forever. I almost laugh. Not all that long ago, I did everything I could to forget her, but now I’ll do anything I can to hold onto her, to keep her as mine.
“I love you, Sebastian,” Lily whispers into my chest, and I press a kiss to her sweaty forehead. She doesn’t have to tell me. I already knew.
I knew when we first started this cat and mouse game. I knew because I, too, was falling for her, and I was afraid of what it meant. For us. For me.
“I love you too, Lily, and nothing is going to change that. I don’t care if I lose my job. I don’t care if I have to give everything up for you. All that matters is that I have you. That I don’t lose you.”
Lifting her head from my chest, she stares up at me, “You’ll never lose me, but I don’t want you to give up everything you’ve worked so hard for. I’m not worth all of that. All the years of work.”
I want to be angry at her. I want to tell her she is wrong, but I don’t. Lily doesn’t understand how deep my feelings for her run, the things I’ll do, the things I’m doing now to protect her, to protect us. There isn’t anything I won’t do to make sure we stay together.
Call me obsessed, call me crazy, but I won’t give Lily up. Not without a fight.
“You’re right, you’re worth more, so much more.”
She doesn’t respond, but I can see that she wants to disagree with me. Instead, she rests her head back on my chest and lets me hold her and kiss her, all before we make love again.
16
Lily
A few days have passed, but I still can’t let go of what Sebastian said. It gnaws at me like a cancer, overtaking every single free second of my life. I can’t do this to him. I can’t let him risk his job for me.
He loves his job. He loves being the dean and running the school, so the very thought of him giving it all up to stay with me is frightening. He might not think so now, but I know if he loses his dream job because of me, he will eventually resent me for it.
The thought is so frightening that I feel the need to put some space between us. I need to clear my head. I need to find a way to make him understand this. I just can’t let him give everything up for me. I have to come up with a solution without him being a part of the equation right now.
The sleek cell phone weighs heavily in my hand as I contemplate my next move. I pace the floor, trying to find a solution that doesn’t involve me leaving. I don’t want to go. I don’t want to hurt him by leaving, but I need to get away.
My head hurts as I think long and hard about what I’m about to do. I can’t let him give it all up for me. I can’t. I would never be able to live with myself. I’d feel guilty forever. The battle within me ends with my finger pushing the green call button on my phone.
The screen lights up as the phone dials my grandpa’s number.
Two rings later, my grandpa’s deep voice fills the speaker.
“Lily, girl, is everything okay?”
“Hey, Papa. I’m okay. Just missing home. I was wondering if you could come and pick me up, and I could visit for the weekend?”
“Oh,” is all he says, and the longest minute in history passes. Nervously, I chew on my lip, waiting for his response. “Uhh, sure, yeah, sweetheart. I’ll come and get you tonight. I can be in North Woods by five. Do you want me to pick you up at the dorms?”