The Twelve (The Passage 2)

"Sounds like a day in high school."

Kittridge had to laugh. "Touche."

Their gazes met and held. How strange it was, he thought. One minute you were all alone with your thoughts, the next somebody came along who seemed to know the deepest part of you, who could open you like a book. He couldn't have said how long they'd been looking at each other. It seemed to go on and on and on, neither possessing the will, or the courage, or even the desire, to look away. How old was she? Seventeen? And yet she didn't seem seventeen. She didn't seem like any age at all. An old soul: Kittridge had heard the term but never quite understood what it meant. That's what April had. An old soul.

To seal the deal between them, Kittridge removed one of the Glocks from his shoulder holster and held it out to her. "Know how to use one of these?"

April looked at it uncertainly. "Let me guess. It's not like it is on TV."

Kittridge dropped the magazine and racked the slide to eject the cartridge from the pipe. He placed the gun it in her hand, wrapping her fingers with his own.

"Don't pull the trigger with your knuckle, the shot will go low. Just use the pad of your fingertip and squeeze, like so." He released her hand and tapped his breastbone. "One shot, through here. That's all it takes, but you can't miss. Don't rush-aim and fire." He reloaded the gun and handed it back. "Go on, you can have it. Keep a round chambered, like I showed you."

She smiled wryly. "Gee, thanks. And here I don't have anything for you."

Kitteridge returned the smile. "Maybe next time."

A moment passed. April was turning the weapon around in her hand, examining it as if it were some unaccountable artifact. "What the father said. Anta-something."

"Anta al-mas'ul."

"Did you ever figure out what it meant?"

Kittridge nodded. " 'You did this.' "

Another silence fell, though different from the others. Not a barrier between them but a shared awareness of their lives, like the walls of a room in which only the two of them existed. How strange, thought Kittridge, to say those words. Anta al-mas'ul. Anta al-mas'ul.

"It was the right thing, you know," April said. "You would have been killed, too."

"There's always a choice," Kittridge said.

"What else could you have done?"

The question was rhetorical, he understood; she expected no reply. What else could you have done? But Kittridge knew his answer. He'd always known.

"I could have held his hand."

* * *

He kept his vigil at the window through the night. Sleeplessness was not a problem for him; he had learned to get by on just a few winks. April lay curled on the floor beneath the window. Kittridge had removed his jacket and placed it over her. There were no lights anywhere. The view from the window was of a world at peace, the sky pinpricked with stars. As the first glow of daylight gathered on the horizon, he let himself close his eyes.

He startled awake to the sound of approaching engines. An Army convoy was coming down the street, twenty vehicles long. He unsnapped his second pistol and passed it to April, who was sitting up now as well, rubbing her eyes.

"Hold this."

Kittridge quickly made his way down the stairs. By the time he burst through the door, the convoy was less than a hundred feet away. He jogged into the street, waving his arms.

"Stop!"

The lead Humvee jerked to a halt just a few yards in front of him, the soldier on the roof tracking his movements with the fifty-cal. The lower half of his face was hidden by a white surgical mask. "Hold it right there."

Kittridge's arms were raised. "I'm unarmed."

The soldier pulled the bolt on his weapon. "I said, keep your distance."

A tense five seconds followed; it seemed possible that he was about to be shot. Then the passenger door of the Humvee swung open. A sturdy-looking woman emerged and walked toward him. Up close her face appeared worn and lined, crackled with dust. An officer, but not one who rode a desk.

"Major Porcheki, Ninth Combat Support Battalion, Iowa National Guard. Who the hell are you?"

He had only one card to play. "Staff Sergeant Bernard Kittridge. Charlie Company, First MP Battalion, USMC."

Her eyes narrowed on his face. "You're a Marine?"

"Medically discharged, ma'am."

The major glanced past him, toward the schoolhouse. Kittridge knew without looking that the others were watching from the windows.

"How many civilians do you have inside?"

"Eleven. The bus is almost out of gas."

"Any sick or wounded?"

"Everybody's worn out and scared, but that's it."

She considered this with a neutral expression. Then: "Caldwell! Valdez!"

A pair of E-4s trotted forward. They, too, were wearing surgical masks. Everyone was except Porcheki.

"Let's get the refueler to see about filling up that bus."

"We're taking civilians? Can we do that now?"

"Did I ask your opinion, Specialist? And get a corpsman up here."

"Yes, ma'am. Sorry, ma'am."

They jogged away.

"Thank you, Major. It was going to be a long walk out of here."

Porcheki had removed a canteen from her belt and paused to drink. "You're just lucky you found us when you did. Fuel's getting pretty scarce. We're headed back to the guard armory at Fort Powell, so that's as far as we can take you. FEMA's set up a refugee-processing center there. From there you'll probably be evaced to Chicago or St. Louis."

"If you don't mind my asking, do you have any news?"

"I don't mind, but I'm not sure what to tell you. One minute these goddamned things are everywhere, the next nobody can find them. They like the trees, but any sort of cover will do. The word from CENTCOM is that a large pod's massing along the Kansas-Nebraska border."

"What's a pod?"

She took another gulp from the canteen. "That's what they're calling groups of them, pods."

The corpsman appeared; everyone was filing out of the school. Kittridge told them what was happening while the soldiers established a perimeter. The corpsman examined the civilians, taking their temperatures, peering inside their mouths. When everyone was ready to go, Porcheki met Kittridge at the steps of the bus.

"Just one thing. You might want to keep the fact that you're from Denver under your hat. Say you're from Iowa, if anyone asks."

He thought of the highway, the lines of torn-up cars. "I'll pass that along."

Kittridge climbed aboard. Balancing his rifle between his knees, he took a place directly behind Danny.

"God damn," Jamal said, grinning ear to ear. "An Army convoy. I take back everything I said about you, Kittridge." He poked a thumb toward Mrs. Bellamy, who was dabbing her brow with a tissue taken from her sleeve. "Hell, I don't even mind that old broad taking a shot at me."

"Sticks and stones, young man," she responded. "Sticks and stones."

He turned to face her across the aisle. "I've been meaning to ask you. What is it with old ladies and the snot-rag-in-the-sleeve thing? Doesn't that strike you as just a little unsanitary?"

"This from a young man with enough ink in his arms to fill a ditto machine."

"A ditto machine. What century are you from?"

"When I look at you, I think of one word. The word is 'hepatitis.' "

"Christ, the two of you," Wood moaned. "You really need to get a room."

The convoy began to move.

Chapter 14

The plan was in motion. His team was assembled, the jet would meet them at dawn. Guilder had been in touch with his contact at Blackbird; everything had been arranged. The server and the hard drives at the warehouse had all been wiped. Go home, he'd told the staff. Go home and be with your families.

It was after midnight when he drove to his townhouse through quiet, rain-slickened streets. On the radio, a continuous stream of bad news: chaos on the highways, the Army regrouping, rumblings abroad. From the White House, words of calm assurance, the crisis was in hand, the best minds were at work, but nobody was fooling anybody. A nationwide declaration of martial law was sure to come within hours. CNN was reporting that NATO warships were churning toward the coasts. The door would slam on the North American continent. The world might despise us, Guilder thought; what will it do when we're gone?

As he drove, he kept a watchful eye on the rearview. He wasn't being paranoid; it was just how things tended to unfold. A roar of tires, a van pulling in front of him, men in dark suits emerging. Horace Guilder? Come with us. Amazing, he thought, that it hadn't happened already.

He pulled into the garage and sealed the door behind him. In his bedroom, he packed a small bag of essentials-a couple of days' worth of clothes, toiletries, his meds-and carried it downstairs. He fetched his laptop from the study and placed it in the microwave, sizzling its circuitry in a cloud of sparks. His handheld was already gone, tossed from the window of the Camry.

In the living room he doused the lights and peeled back the drapes. Across the street, a neighbor was loading suitcases into the open hatch of his SUV. The man's wife was standing in the doorway of their townhouse, clutching a sleeping toddler. What were their names? Guilder either had never known or couldn't remember. He'd seen the woman from time to time, pushing the little girl in a brightly colored plastic car up and down the driveway. Watching the three of them, Guilder was touched by a memory of Shawna-not that last, terrible encounter but the two of them lying together in the aftermath of lovemaking, and her quiet, whispering voice, tickling his chest. Are you happy with the things I do? I want to be your only one. Words that weren't anything more than playacting, a bit of cheap theatrics to crown a dutiful hour. How stupid he'd been.

The man accepted the child from his wife's arms and gently lowered her into the backseat. The two of them got in the car. Guilder imagined the things they'd be saying to each other. We'll be all right. They have people working on it right now. We'll just stay at your mother's a week or two, until this all blows over. He heard the engine turn over; they backed from the drive. Guilder watched their taillights vanish down the block. Good luck, he thought.

He waited five more minutes. The streets were silent, all the houses dark. When he was satisfied he wasn't being watched, he carried his bag to the Camry.

It was after two A.M. when he got to Shadowdale. The parking area was empty; only a single light burned by the entrance. He stepped through the door to find the front desk unmanned. An empty wheelchair sat beside it, a second in the hall. There were no sounds anywhere. Probably there were security cameras watching him, but who would examine the tapes?

His father was lying on his bed in darkness. The room smelled awful; nobody had been in for hours, perhaps as long as a day. On the tray by his father's bed, somebody had left a dozen jars of Gerber's baby food and a pitcher of water. A spilled cup told him his father had attempted the water, but the food was untouched; his father couldn't have opened the jars if he'd tried.

Guilder didn't have long, but it was not an occasion to rush. His father's eyes were closed, the voice-that hectoring voice-silenced. Better that way, he thought. The time for talk was over. He searched his memory for something nice about his father, however meager. The best he could come up with was a time when his father had taken him to a park when Guilder was small. The recollection was vague and impressionistic-it was possible it had never happened at all-but that was all he had. A winter day, Guilder's breath clouding before his face, and a view of bare trees bobbing up and down as his father had pushed him on a swing, the man's big hand at the center of his back, catching him and launching him into space. Guilder recalled nothing else about that day. He might have been as young as five.

When he slid the pillow from beneath his father's head, the man's eyes fluttered but didn't open. Here was the precipice, Guilder thought, the mortal moment; the deed, that, once done, could never be undone. He thought of the word patricide. From the Latin pater, father, and caedere, to cut down. He had lacked the courage to kill himself, yet as he placed the pillow over his father's face, he experienced no hesitation. Gripping the pillow by the edges, he increased the pressure until he was certain no air could reach his father's nose or mouth. A minute crept by, Guilder counting out the seconds under his breath. His father's hand, lying on the blanket, gave a restive twitch. How long would it take? How would he know when it was over? If the pillow didn't work, what then? He watched his father's hand for additional movement, but there was none. Gradually it came to him that the stillness of the body beneath his hands meant only one thing. His father wasn't breathing anymore.

He drew the pillow away. His father's face was just the same; it was as if his passage into death represented only the subtlest alteration in his condition. Guilder gently placed his palm beneath his father's head and moved the pillow back into place. He wasn't trying to hide his crime-he doubted anybody would be around to examine the situation-but he wanted his father to have a pillow to lie on, especially since, as now seemed likely, he would be lying there for a very long time. Guilder had expected a rush of emotion to overcome him at this moment, all the pain and regret unloosed inside him. His awful childhood. His mother's lonely life. His own barren and loveless existence, with only a hired woman for company. But all he felt was relieved. The truest test of his life, and he had passed it.

Outside, the hallway was quiet, unchanged. Who could say what degradations lay behind the other doors, how many families would be facing the same cruel decision? Guilder glanced at his watch: ten minutes had passed since he'd entered the building. Just ten minutes, but everything was different now. He was different, the world was different. His father was nowhere in it. And with that, tears came to his eyes.