Avoiding Commitment (Avoiding 1)

"Stop right there," she cried pointing her finger into his chest. "Think about what you just said. You have a girlfriend. I would hope you wouldn't forget that while you get yourself all worked up over nothing."

"Did you sleep with him?" he asked obviously ignoring her last comment.

"Excuse me?" she shrieked in disbelief.

"You heard me. I just…I just need to know."

"What kind of lowly tramp do you think I am? Is this what you think of me? Do you think I just jump into the bed of every available man on the market? How long have you known me Jack?" she nearly screamed at him.

"Well you didn't tell me. We stayed up all night talking last night and you didn't tell me you went on a date with him," he pointed out.

"It's not exactly a great conversation starter with you especially after how you acted at his party. And anyway it's not like you were sharing all sorts of details about Bekah."

"Yes but you know we're together. I don't have to share information about our relationship with you," he said looking her up and down. His blue eyes were blazing.

"You're right you don't. And since Ramsey and I have no relationship, then I don't have to share any information about what we did or did not do with you either."

"So you slept with him then?" he asked plopping down on the couch in defeat.

"No, Jesus Christ, I did not sleep with him. He kissed me good night. That's all. It was nothing. He practically had to beg me to go out with him in the first place, because I didn't want to. Alright? Are you satisfied?" she asked placing her hands on her hips as she stared at him.

"I'm just losing my head," he said his blue eyes meeting hers. "I just realized how much you mean to me, Lex, and I can't help but freak out. I'm sorry." He reached forward and grabbed her hips pulling her into his lap. She snuggled in close to him. "I shouldn't be overreacting like this."

"No, I understand Jack. I'd probably be freaking out too. I should have just told you," Lexi said kissing his cheek.

"I wish you would have," he said turning his face and stealing her lips before they hit his cheek again.

"Jack," she said warningly against his lips.

"Lex," he mumbled back sliding his tongue into her mouth and rolling it around her mouth pleasantly. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pressed her firmly against his chest. She pushed her hands up through his unruly dark brown hair and moved her mouth against his. She hadn't felt this so unbelievably relaxed in such a long time. Being in his arms felt like the most pleasant place in existence. The feel of his lips tasted of heaven, and though she knew deep down she needed to stop him, she was having trouble finding the rationalization as her brain shut down.

Jack stood pulling her legs around his waist never letting their lips part. She locked her legs behind his back as he supported her weight by placing each hand on her butt and hoisting her up. He pulled back and stared at her flushed face with a smug smirk firmly planted on his face. She could tell by his shallow breathing that he wanted her. His eyes were fiery blue with passion.

"I love you Lex," he said breathily.

"I love you too," she said her heart palpitating wildly as he crushed his lips against her again.

He leaned her back against his couch and pressed himself against her. They were both practically naked from just recently waking up, and the hardness pressing against her inner thigh made it evident what was on his mind. He pushed up his band t-shirt that she had thrown on and ran his hands down her tiny body. She groaned as he leaned down and began kissing every inch of her flat stomach. From there he moved to her perky br**sts. Her body ached for him as he continued his insistent proding of her upper half. Arching her back in pleasure at the sensaitions coursing through her body without even moving further. The anticipation from a year and a half of self-restraint was catching up with them as he retreated back to her plump lips.

"We should get rid of this," he said impetuously attempting to yank the shirt over her head. She let him rip the shirt off her head, but immediately reached out and grabbed it out of his hand. She covered her bare br**sts with the material and scooted to a sitting position.

"We can't…I can't do this," she said sliding the shirt back over her head and removing her legs from around his waist. "I told you how we can be together, and I really have to stick with that," she said her breathing ragged and body still pulsing with desire for him. It was one of the hardest things she had ever done, but she knew that she couldn't do this. Not again.

Jack groaned and moved to a sitting position next to her. "Yeah I know. It's just…this is what we're normally like. You're so damn sexy when you get angry. I just can't seem to help myself."

"I know. I didn't want you to help yourself either. I don't want you to have to help your feelings for me, but this isn't fair to Bekah. We've been here before. I don't want another Kate/Clark situation on our hands. It didn't go well the first time, and I have a feeling that it would be just as bad this time around," she told him sadly. Lexi hated so much having to have this conversation. All she wanted right then was to be swept up into his arms and be carried to his bed so they could have hot passionate sex all afternoon. But she couldn't do this again.

"You're right," he said meeting her desirous gaze.

"I'm sorry," she told him shyly. "I do want this terribly bad."

He reached out and caressed her cheek. "I know."

"Well," Jack began awkwardly, "I'm going to go take a cold shower." He stood up uncomfortably adjusting himself. "Feel free to come and go as you please. I really do have a lot of work to catch up on, but I'd love it if you stuck around. I can't seem to get enough of you." He bent down and kissed her forehead sweetly.

Lexi watched him exit the living room. She couldn't believe how close she had come to giving into him. She knew one thing though. She needed Chyna right then. Chyna was the only one who would keep her focused while Jack was taken. She had to give him enough time to deal with Bekah, and allowing him to think that he could have her without doing anything about the situation wasn't going to help her. She needed to stand her ground, but not getting swept up with their desires was a lot of work, and Lexi wasn't prepared for it. That's where Chyna came in. It was too bad Chyna was still hours away, and Jack was currently stripping down naked in the next room preparing to get soaking wet.