We are both gasping and out of breath as we start to rearrange our clothes. She remains seated in my lap for a few seconds. I reach for her hands, to talk to her about what just happened, but she jumps up before I can catch them.
“I need to go see about dessert,” she announces abruptly.
I watch her walk away, in the opposite direction of the kitchen.
I can’t say anything in reply.
I’m stunned by what just happened and a bit worried that I just ruined everything by moving too quickly and being too dominant.
Did I scare her?
Will she let me do it again? Will she let me fuck that sweet, hot, tight, wet little pussy of hers the way I’m dying to do?
As I zip up my pants, I remind myself that she’s under my roof. And she’ll do as I say. And she’ll like it.
I just know she will.
But first I have to figure out how to get us back to this point and then we can go even further together.
Chapter 6
Cassie
I cannot believe what I did with Matt. I think I am going to freak out, or maybe have a panic attack. There are so many emotions running through my head right now. I can admit that
It was incredibly hot and intense getting off with him like that, but he’s my boss. I can’t afford to let myself forget that. This is too much to handle right now.
Life is playing games with my heart and my mind, because even though I definitely want to do more with him, I am way too embarrassed after what just went down.
How am I going to face him again after he saw how wet and whimpering I was for him?
I sigh as I stumble into the bedroom and close the door behind me. I quickly change into my sweats and plop down on the bed. I curl up and hug my pillow. I can’t get the images of everything that we did out of my head. I cringe every time I picture my reactions. I have no idea how I am supposed to react around him tomorrow. I’ll never get to sleep like this.
I can bear these thoughts no longer, and I untuck the comforter and pull it up over my head. I cover my body completely. After tonight, I just want to hide away somewhere. My heart can’t take much more of this. Eventually I stop thinking and fall into a deep dark sleep. This is exactly what I need. A break from thoughts and feelings, of any kind.
In the morning, there comes a light knock on the door. This is enough to startle me awake. I groggily poke my head out from under the blanket. I hear the knock again, followed by his voice asking, “Are you ok? If you have a minute, maybe we can talk?”
His voice breaks through my fog of sleep and brings back all my worries from last night. I know I won’t be able to face him now.
I feel shyer than I did when we first met. I wrap the blankets around myself and stay quiet. I hope he will go away for now. I don’t know when I’ll be ready to look at him again. I don’t know if I will ever be able to. It’s just so embarrassing for me to have acted in such a lewd way in front of him. It’s as good as admitting that I have feelings for him. I wonder if he noticed that and that’s why he initiated everything between us last night? Or maybe he has feelings for me too? Yeah right… but no matter how hard I try, I can’t come up with any other reason why we would have done what we did, and why he would be looking for me this morning.
Ugh, this is too confusing to think about right now. My head can’t deal with all of this! I just need to stay calm and stay away from him for a while, I tell myself. There are just too many things involved with entering into this kind of relationship. They almost never work out. An unhappy ending is another thing I don’t want to happen, because my feelings for him are so strong.
I wonder if he would fire me for not responding?
The thought of losing my job terrifies me, but I just can’t make myself open the door. I sit in bed and wait. The seconds seem to stretch on forever. It’s almost agonizing. I can feel my heart pounding in my chest. My breathing sounds loud to me as I try to stay quiet. It feels like forever but eventually I hear him walk away. I pull the covers off myself and try to relax a little. I doubt it will be any use.