Pushing less memorable thoughts away, she focused on the intense desire these two men where igniting in her. Even though her arousal was burning fierce, a tingling at the back of her mind told her this wasn’t right. Right?
“Wait,” she murmured against William’s mouth and pushed against his chest. He moved back right away but kept his hands on her arms. Rys hadn’t gotten the memo, because he was dragging his lips across the spot where her neck and shoulder met. It took everything in her to step out of his embrace.
“What’s wrong, baby?”
She looked over her shoulder at Rys, saw his eyes roaming up and down her body, and shivered. His gaze was like fingers skating over her body.
“Janey?” William’s soft voice had her turning back to him. A look of concern was etched in the hard, angular planes of his face.
“It’s just….” She glanced down at her attire. God, did you really think this bikini was a good idea? Since she had jumped in the lake and saturated the white material, her nipples were obvious as they stabbed through. The dark, quarter-sized areolas were obscenely evident. She crossed her arms over her breasts, shielding herself, and mortification coursed through her. Strong hands from behind her gripped her arms and pulled them away. Rys’s warm breath blew across her ear a moment before he spoke.
“Don’t hide yourself from us, Jane.” He slid his hand down her arms and linked his fingers with hers. “Your body was made to be worshiped.” He kissed the spot right below her ear. “Lift your head and look at William.” It took her a moment, but when she did, the expression on his face stole her breath. She could feel his desire wrapping around her. “Do you see how much he wants you? Do you feel how much I want you?” He emphasized his statement by grinding his cock into her lower back again. Her eyes fluttered closed as moisture pooled in her bikini bottoms.
“Look at me, Janey.” Although William’s voice was low and soft, she was surprised to hear a bite of command in his words. Opening her eyes, she was startled to see him standing right before her. His chest rose and fell rapidly as his eyes traveled down her body, stopping for long intervals at her breasts and the junction between her thighs. He licked his lips as he stared at her chest, and damn her traitorous body, she felt her nipples tighten further.
“Tell me what you’re thinking.” She ducked her head again, but William lifted her head with a finger under her chin so she was forced to look him in the eye. Rys continued to hold her hands, and the way he gently ran his thumbs over the back of her hands had warmth spreading through her.
What was she supposed to tell them? That she was worried if she went through with this, if she gave in to her feelings, feelings that had been growing inside her until she felt like she was going to explode, everything was going to go downhill? The idea that they would think less of her, that their friendship would be ruined by a mixture of emotions and feelings, had her petrified. Rys and William were the only people in the world who knew everything about her, had gotten her through the toughest time in her life.
They were the only two who didn’t push her away or judge her because her family lived in poverty and her father was a lowlife drunk who beat his wife and daughter. If she lost them, she would be lost. Unexpected tears pricked her eyes, and she inhaled deeply.
“Hey.” Rys pulled away and moved so he was standing in front of her. She suddenly felt so cold despite the heat. “What’s wrong, baby?”
For several seconds, she couldn’t talk. All she could think about, visualize, was not having these two incredible men in her life.
“Janey, please, sweetheart. You’re scaring us.” William ran his finger along her cheek, and she pushed her tears away. “Did we do something wrong? Push you too far? We didn’t mean to, Janey. We’re so sorry.”
William’s pleading broke her heart. She looked at Rys. His face was as stoic as always, but underneath that hardened façade, she saw a flicker of compassion and… love.
She took a deep breath. The guys deserved better. They deserved to know how she felt, how she feared losing them. “I’m afraid of going through with this and losing you guys.” She clasped her hands together tightly and made herself look both of them in the eyes. “I love you both so much. I’ve wanted you for as long as I can remember. If you weren’t in my life, I don’t know what I’d do.” They didn’t say anything, and it only caused her heart to pound harder. “I’d be lost.” She whispered the last part, and Rys pulled her to him immediately.