“Jessica I said look at me.” Maybe I shoulda left that shit alone because the look on her face when she did obey me was just evil. “There’re things going on here that you don’t understand. I told you before that you don’t have anything to worry about where other women are concerned…”
She took her ring off and threw it across the room. I have to say, I’ve been in some situations before in my life, but nothing and I mean nothing had ever surprised me as much as what she just did. I looked from the ring to her and back a couple times before the pressure in my head came down a little.
“Pick that shit up are you nuts?”
“No, I wanna go home I don’t want to stay here.” How the fuck can you be crying and breathing fire at the same damn time? I knew that the anger that hopped up inside me just then was misguided, but I’d be fucked if she were ever going to get away with shit like this. Total fucking disrespect, fuck no. I moved over to her and grabbed her this time when she tried to walk away.
Without uttering another word I walked her over to where the diamond was glistening up at me from the corner. I held her by the back of the neck and bent her over. “Pick it up.” She got the good fucking sense not to rebel this time and did as I said.
I was suddenly pissed the fuck off at everyone and everything. This isn’t how the fuck I saw this day going, not four days after I’d taken her for the first time. We were supposed to be happy as fuck that we were finally together, but instead it seems like everyone was conspiring to fuck with us, and she wasn’t making shit any easier with her hardheaded stubborn ass.
I marched her through to my office just in case someone entered the club just then; I needed privacy for this shit. I started stripping her out of her clothes as soon as the door closed.
“Stop it Justice, I don’t want you to touch me.” She’s never called me anything but Creed and I didn’t know quite how to take the switch, but the last part of that statement was a big fucking red flag. I pulled her up so I could look into her eyes while I told her some home truths.
“I understand you’re mad, but you don’t ever fucking say those words to me again, and take that fucking tone down a notch.” I never thought in a million years I would be this close to spanking her ass, not so soon anyway.
“I said there was some shit here that you don’t understand. Deidre was the wife of a friend nothing more nothing less. I can’t just cast her off like I did Sonia, I made a promise.”
None of that shit was getting through I realized that shit when she actually put her hands over her ears and closed her eyes, essentially shutting me out. Fuck this shit, it’s like she’d been saving all this fuckery up for me. She sure as fuck never defied anyone else.
I took a deep breath and hoped for patience, I wasn’t equipped to deal with his shit. Since she wasn’t listening and her body was tense as fuck I tried a new tactic.
After I’d stripped her down to nothing I took her over to the chair behind my desk and pulled her down in my lap. “I’m sorry she attacked you baby, I hope you know I would never let anyone harm you.”
How could I explain that I was complicit in this shit? That I had my own guilt to deal with where this situation was concerned? I didn’t even know what the fuck was going through her head because she wasn’t talking, and this was new territory for us.
“Babygirl…”
“Don’t call me that you don’t mean it, you chose her…” She started to fucking hyperventilate and scared the fuck outta me. “Baby calm down, I didn’t choose her over you, please listen to me.” I tried hugging her to me to get her to calm down.
She wasn’t having that shit; she stiffened up on me and tried to get off my lap. “Stay where you are.” I held her even tighter, my guts in shreds because I’d hurt her and I hadn’t meant to. How had I fucked this shit up so royally?
“I hate you.” I took the blow but held on, telling myself that she didn’t mean it, that it was just the hurt talking. “Jessie please don’t do this, give me your ring.” I took it out of her tightly closed fist and forced it back on her finger while she cried like her heart was broken in a million little pieces.