And then he couldn’t move at all.
Goddammit.
The Frenchwoman circled Mara, considering her for a long moment while Temple attempted to find his speech.
Hebert found hers first. “She will require lingerie as well.”
Temple disagreed. Mara did not require undergarments at all. In fact, he’d prefer she never wore another stitch of unmentionables again.
Or anything else, for that matter.
Good Lord.
She was perfect.
She was also lying.
For if he had seen her in her underclothes—in anything close to the things she wore now—he would remember.
He would remember the slope of her breasts, the spray of freckles across them, the way they curved in pretty, plump rounds topped with . . . he couldn’t see, but he knew that her nipples were very likely as gloriously well-formed as the rest of her breasts.
He would remember those breasts.
Wouldn’t he?
It is not the first time you’ve seen me in my underclothes.
He closed his eyes against the frustration that flared—the recollection that would not come. There had been a woman, one he’d thought was more muse than memory. More piecemeal than not.
Wide smile. Strange, intoxicating eyes.
“Is it red?”
The modiste’s words were like gunfire in the dark, quiet room. They startled Mara as well. “I beg your pardon?”
“Your hair,” Hebert replied. “Candlelight plays tricks on the eye. But it is red, no?”
Mara shook her head. “It’s brown.”
A silken waterfall of auburn curls.
“It’s auburn,” Temple said.
“You do not seem the kind of man to notice the difference,” she said, refusing to look at him, her eyes instead tracking the slender Frenchwoman now kneeling at her feet.
“I notice more than you could imagine.”
That hair had flickered in his memory for twelve years. There had been countless points when he’d decided it wasn’t real. In his darkest moments, he’d thought he’d fabricated it. Her. Something good to remember of that night.
But she’d been real.
He’d known Mara was the key to that night. That she remembered more than he did. That she was his only chance at piecing together his fall. But it had never occurred to him that she’d been with him for longer than it took to destroy him.
Perhaps she hadn’t. Perhaps it was a lie. Perhaps she’d drugged him and left him to distract the world while she ran from God knew what to God knew where, and those teasing words were her latest attempt at torture.
It wasn’t a lie.
He knew that as well as he knew anything.
But somehow, knowing the truth made everything worse. Because she hadn’t left him with no memory of the night.
She’d left him with no memory of her.
He had to pull himself together. To regain the upper hand. He forced himself to lean back against the settee, refusing to allow her to see that she’d riled him. “For example, I notice that you never wear gloves.”
As if on strings, her hands came together, clasping tight. “When one works for a living . . . one can’t.”
But she hadn’t been required to work. She could have been a duchess.
He wanted answers. Itched for them.
“All the governesses I’ve ever known have worn them.” He tracked the movement of her hands, knowing that they were well-hewn, the skin rough in places, the knuckles red with cold. They were hands that knew work.
He knew, because his hands looked the same.
As though she could hear his thoughts, she unclasped the hands in question, holding them straight and still at her sides. “I am not an ordinary governess.”
No doubt. “I never imagined you an ordinary anything.”
Madame Hebert stood then, excusing herself and leaving them alone in the room. For long moments, Mara stood silent before saying, “I feel a bit like a sacrificial offering up here.”
He could see why. The platform was cast in a warm golden glow, the rest of the room in utter darkness. In her awkward, pale underclothes, she could have easily played the part of the unsuspecting virgin, about to be tossed into a volcano.
Virgin.
The word gave him pause.
Had they—
The question dissolved into a vision of her spread across crisp linen sheets, long, lithe limbs spread wide, perfect and nude. His mouth went dry at the thought, at the image of her splayed open to him, then watered as he considered where he would start with her . . . the long column of her neck, the slope of her breasts, the swell of her belly, the secrets nestled between what he knew would be long, perfect thighs.
He would start there.
He stood, coming toward her, unable to keep himself from it, as though reeled in on a long, sturdy fishing line. She wrapped her arms about her midsection as he approached, and he noticed the gooseflesh on them.
He could warm her.
“Are you cold?” he asked.
“Yes,” she said, smartly, “I’m half naked.”
It was a lie. She wasn’t cold. She was nervous. “I don’t think so.”
She cut him a look. “Why don’t you take off your clothes and see how you feel?”
The words were out before she had a chance to think on them. Before she—or he, if he were honest—realized what they might evoke. Curiosity. Frustration. More. He stopped just short of the pool of light where she stood, unable to hide her face. “Have I done that before?” he asked, the words coming harsher than he intended. Filled with more meaning than he expected.
She looked down at her feet. He followed the gaze, taking in her stockinged toes. When she did not answer, he pressed further. “I woke naked that morning. Naked and covered in someone else’s blood. A damn lot of it,” he said, though the blood didn’t seem to matter so very much. He stepped into the light. “Not your blood.”
She shook her head, finally looking up at him. “Not mine.”
“Whose?”
“Pig’s blood.”
“Why?”
“I didn’t mean—”
Dammit. He didn’t want apologies. He wanted the truth. “Enough. Where were my clothes?”
She shook her head again. “I don’t know. I gave them to—”
“To your brother, no doubt. But why?”
“We—I—” She hesitated. “I thought that if you were naked, it would postpone your looking for me. It would give me more time to get away.”
“Is that it?” He was horrified to discover that the explanation disappointed him. What had he been expecting? That she’d confess a deep, abiding attraction to him?
Perhaps.
No. Goddammit. She was trouble.
He didn’t know what he wanted from this woman any longer. “I was naked, Mara. I remember your hair, down. Your body above me.” She blushed in the candlelight, and then he knew precisely what he wanted. He stepped up, crowding her on the little round platform, but somehow—by the grace of something far more divine than either of them deserved—not touching her. “Did we—”
“Excusez moi, Your Grace.”
He did not hesitate, did not move. Did not look back. “A moment, Hebert.”
The Frenchwoman knew better than to linger.
He snaked an arm around Mara’s waist, hating himself for the weakness in the movement. He pulled her close, her breasts pressed tight against his chest, as their torsos met. Their thighs.
She gasped, but there was no fear in the sound.
Dear God, she wasn’t afraid of him. When was the last time he’d held a woman who did not fear him?
The last time he’d held her.
“Did we, Mara?” He spoke in a low whisper at her ea
r, his lips close enough to brush the soft curve of it, the warm skin. He couldn’t resist taking that lobe in his mouth, worrying it with his teeth until she shivered with pleasure.
Not fear.
“Did we fuck?”
She stiffened at the word, hot and wicked at the sensitive skin of her neck, and a thread of guilt shot through him even as he refused to acknowledge it. Even as he refused to feel regret insulting her.
Not that he needed to.
The woman fought her own battles. She turned her own head then, and matched him measure for measure, pressing her soft lips to his ear, kissing once, twice, softly, before biting the lobe and sending a river of desire through him. Good Lord, he wanted this woman like he’d never wanted anything in his life. Even as he knew she was poison.
Even as she proved it, lifting her lips from him, making him desperate for their return, and saying, “If I tell you, will you forgive the debt?”
She was the most skilled opponent he’d ever faced.
Because in that moment, he actually considered doing it. Forgiving it all and letting her run. And perhaps he would have, if she could have restored his memory.
But she’d taken that, too.
“Oh, Mara,” he said, releasing her in a slow slide, fury and something startlingly close to disappointment threading through him. He harnessed one and ignored the other. “Nothing you could say will make me forgive.”
He spun off the little platform, calling for Hebert as he retreated into the darkness.
The modiste entered again, a pile of satin and lace in her hands, and approached Mara. “Mademoiselle, s’il vous plait,” she said, indicating that Mara should put the dress on. Mara hesitated, but Temple saw the way she eyed the frock as though she hadn’t eaten for days and there, in the Frenchwoman’s hands, was food.
Once she was headfirst inside it, her arms swimming through fabric to find egress, he caught his breath and his sanity and looked to the dressmaker. “I don’t want her in another’s clothes. I want everything made. By you.”
Madame Hebert gave Temple a quick look. “Of course. The dress is for style. You indicated a desire to approve the collection.”
Mara gave a yelp of disagreement at that, her head finally poking out into the light. “It is not enough that you humiliate me by remaining in attendance as I am fitted? You must choose the gown as well?”
Hebert was already adjusting the fall of the gown and fastening it up the back, affording Temple a view of Mara in the mauve concoction, slightly too tight in the bodice and slightly too loose in the waist, but a gown nonetheless.
He’d never put much credence into the idea that frocks could make a woman more beautiful. Women were women; if they were attractive, they were attractive no matter what they wore. And if they weren’t, well . . . fabric was not magic.
And yet this gown seemed to be magic with its beautiful lines and the way it shimmered in the candlelight and the way the color offset her pretty pale skin and played with the reds in her hair and the blues and greens in her eyes.
Hell. He sounded like a damn woman.
The point was, this was the Mara he’d never known—the one he’d not had a chance to formally meet. The one who had been raised wealthy as sin, with all of London at her feet. The one who had been set to be Duchess of Lamont.
And damned if she didn’t look remarkably like a duchess in that dress.
Too much like a duchess.
Too much like a lady.
Too much like something Temple wanted to reach out and—
No.
“The bodice should be cut lower.”
“Mais non, Your Grace,” the dressmaker protested. “The bodice is perfect. Look at the way it reveals without revealing.”
She was right, of course. The bodice was the most perfect part of the dress, cut beautifully, just low enough to tantalize without being too obvious. He’d noticed it the moment Mara had put it on—the way it displayed those pretty, freckled breasts to their very best advantage. The way it made him want to catalog every one of those little blemishes.
It was perfect.
But he didn’t want perfect.
He wanted ruinous.
“Lower.”
The dressmaker looked at Mara, then, and Temple willed her to protest. To fight the demand. To insist the cut of the dress be left as is.
Then he would have felt better about his decision.
It was as though she knew that, of course. Knew that he wished her to fight. Because instead, she stood straight, her head bowed in obedience he knew held no honesty, and said nothing.
Leaving him feeling twenty times the ass.
“How long?” he barked the question at the modiste.
“Three days.”
He nodded. Three days would work well. “She requires a mask, as well.”
“Why? Isn’t the goal to unmask me?” Mara answered for the dressmaker, her tone betraying her pique at being left out of the conversation. “Why hide me?”
He met her eyes then. She was a poplar, and he was a storm. She would not break. Admiration flared, and he hid it. She’d ruined him. She’d stolen from him.
“You are hidden until I choose to reveal you.”
She stiffened. “Fair enough.” She paused for a moment as the dressmaker unfastened the dress, and he gritted his teeth as it came loose, grateful that she caught it to her chest before revealing herself to him once more. “Tell me, Your Grace, am I to undress forever in your presence now?”
The room was hot and cloying, and he itched for a fight. And he didn’t think he could bear seeing her in her underclothes again.
He inclined his head. “I shall give you privacy, with pleasure.” He headed for the front of the shop, stopping before he pushed through the curtains to add, “But when I return, you had best be prepared to tell me the truth about that night. I shan’t let you out of my sight until you do. It is not negotiable.”
He did not wait for her answer before entering the storefront, with its walls filled with bolts of fabric and frippery. He took a deep breath in the dimly lit space, running his hand along the edge of a long glass case, waiting for an acknowledgment that he could return.
That she was once more clothed.
That Pandora’s box was once more closed.
He reached into a basket at the top of the case, and he extracted a long, dark feather, worrying it with his fingers, wondering at its softness. He wondered what it would look like in her hair. Against her skin.
In her fingers against his.
He dropped the feather as though it had burned him, and spun back toward the dressing room to find Madame Hebert standing in the entryway. “Green,” she said.
He didn’t care what color she wore. He didn’t plan to give her enough attention to notice.
And still he said, “I want the mauve as well. The one she tried.”
Years of practice kept Madame Hebert from showing her thoughts. “The lady should be in green more than anything else.”
For a moment he wondered at that, imagining Mara in green. In satins and lace and lingerie—in finely spun chemises and boned corsets and clocked silk stockings that went all the way to the floor.
He would pay good money to see her legs.
Perhaps he had seen them.
With that, frustration flared once more. He was irritated by the idea of her keeping secrets from him. Secrets that were as much his as they were hers.
“Put her in whatever color you like. I care not.” He moved to push past the Frenchwoman. “But send the mauve, too.”
“Temple,” The name on Hebert’s lips stopped him, and when he turned back, one hand on the curtains, she said, “I’ve dressed dozens of your women.”
“The Angel’s women.” For some reason, the qualifier felt necessary.
She did
not argue. “This one is not like the others.”
It was a colossal understatement. “She is not.”
“Clothes,” the Frenchwoman continued. “They have a power that is undeniable. They can change everything.”
It was rubbish, but he was not in the mood to argue with a modiste on her field of expertise, so he allowed her to finish.
“Be certain you wish for what you ask.”
Just what he needed. A cryptic French dressmaker.
He pushed through the curtains, his gaze flying to the platform where Mara had stood in that beautiful gown, proud and tall.
The now-empty platform.
The now-empty room.
Shit.
She had finally run.
Chapter 6
Three minutes. Perhaps fewer.
She had that long to hide before he would be after her.
And if he caught her, the evening would take a turn.
Not that it hadn’t already done just that.
Mara pulled her cloak tight around her, thanking Lydia for convincing her to purchase a warm winter coat for her excursions with the boys, and tore down the alleyway behind the dress shop, desperate to find a nook in which to hide herself well and wait him out. She’d escaped while his driver wasn’t looking, the universe on her side for once.
Now, to hide.
The closer to the shop, the better.
Temple would think she’d have run. He’d be calculating the time she’d had and the distance she could have made, and he’d be checking that radius. She simply needed to sit quietly and wait for Temple to pass her.
He’d never expect her to stay close.
She’d learned well how to hide in the last twelve years. Indeed, she’d learned to hide in the first twelve hours after she’d run. But she didn’t have a mail coach with a well-paid driver and a legion of people willing to help her now. Now she was in Mayfair in the dead of night. And she was on the wrong side of one of London’s most powerful men.
If he caught her, she believed he would force her to tell the truth.
But the truth about that night—about her life—was her only power. And she would be damned if he’d get it from her so easily.
That wasn’t why she’d run, though. She’d run because she worried she might not be able to resist him as well as she’d once thought.