Falling From Disgrace

Adrianna swallowed and closed her eyes, allowing herself to breathe deeply for a moment before answering. “What does that matter?”

“How long, Adrianna?”

“I don’t remember.”

“It’s only been a few hours at most hasn’t it, but it feels like forever? You feel nauseous and dizzy and I bet your head is aching. I can see you’re trembling.” He moved to stand directly behind her at the sink and he put his hands at her waist, bringing his head close so that he could speak quietly in her ear. “And it’s not your back that’s in pain right now, but your whole body feels like it’s about to shut down on you from stress, doesn’t it? Tell me the truth, Ade.”

Adrianna kept her eyes closed and leaned back to rest against Jack’s body. His warm breath tickled her neck and his words hit so close to the truth she wondered if he could read her mind. But she wasn’t ready to admit her fault to him. Rather than deny it though, she just remained silent, waiting for her drug to take its effects.

“Adrianna,” he continued softly in her ear while his hand removed the bottle from her fist. “You’re addicted to these pills.”

Hearing those words, the words she had refused to admit, had never let anyone come to that conclusion by closing herself off so well, caused Adrianna to feel shame and disgust. Humiliated, she brought her hands up to cover her face. She was a junkie, a degenerate, a weakling.

Jack turned her to face him and tried to pry her hands away but they wouldn’t budge. He pulled her into him and wrapped her tightly in his arms, kissing the side of her head.

“Hey, it’s okay,” he whispered. “You don’t have anything to be ashamed of. It’s okay.”

He repeated himself over and over and a sense of relief came upon Adrianna. Whether it was from her secret being out to someone else or the pill she had just taken, she didn’t know, but she let herself relax and finally brought her hands away from her face to wrap around Jack’s body. They reached under his shirt to touch his bare flesh and the tips of her fingers pressed into his skin, pulling him more closely, gripping him like holding on was her salvation.

Adrianna turned her face up so that her nose skimmed Jack’s neck and she breathed him in a few times before pressing her lips to him. She needed him, needed to show him that she was sorry; sorry for what she did and who she was. Her tongue slipped out to taste him and desire replaced any lingering anxiety in her body.

Jack felt himself harden instantly when Adrianna's mouth grazed along his neck. He knew in his head this wasn't the time to take advantage of her vulnerability, but he was a man and her touch was too much. He quickly rationalized his desire; if she could expose so much of herself to him, rejecting her now would cause her too much pain. He brought her mouth to his and kissed her gently a few times before parting her lips with his tongue.

They kissed, their lips sealed together and their tongues taking turns advancing and retreating. They only broke apart when Adrianna pulled at Jack’s shirt to lift it over his head and then they returned to kissing while her hands scratched lightly over the taut muscles of his stomach. He quivered.

“I love how you touch me,” Jack told her, removing her top now and then kissing down her neck and across her shoulder. His hands roamed her back, her arms, her ass, before reaching between their bodies to undo the button and zipper of her shorts. Adrianna stepped out of her shoes and then helped Jack as he pushed her pants down her legs. While he continued to kiss her and knead the flesh of her bottom covered only by a small piece of cotton, she moved her hands to the waist of his pants. She only succeeded in unbuttoning them though, before Jack turned to push her against the countertop. She was the one needing right now and he was going to take care of her.

He pressed into her so that she leaned slightly back, bracing herself with her hands at the edge of the Formica. Jack’s lips kissed down between her breasts while his hand snaked over her stomach, teasing her at the edge of her panties before dipping below them to run a single finger between the slick folds of her sex. He brought his hand down towards her entrance and then back up again, spreading the wetness.