I was wet and dirty and hot.
But it had absolutely nothing to do with any of those things.
Oh, no.
It did, however, have every God damn thing to do with a hazel-eyed, purple-haired, spitfire who had shown me more of her softness back in that field. Whoever Maze really was, it wasn't the hardened badass she worked so hard at portraying herself as. The badass, she was a mask, a defense mechanism, big nasty thorns to protect the soft, delicate flower.
Being with her, kissing, holding, being inside her, it had been the best experience I'd had in a miserably long amount of time.
And I had no idea what the fuck to do with that information.
"You fucked her, didn't you?" Cash's easy voice asked as I walked into my room, causing me to stop short for a second.
"Did you seriously break into my room?" I asked, shaking my head.
"Yeah. Now stop trying to change the subject. You fucked her, right? I mean, I think we all knew it was gonna happen after the car incident."
In my chest, my heart started thrumming in a sickening beat. "Car incident?" I repeated.
"Fuck off," Cash laughed, crossing his arms over his chest while an easy grin spread on his face. "Steamed windows and you come out of it grumpy as all fuck? We've all been teenagers with blue balls before, Repo."
"Reign knew it was her?" I asked past the lump in my throat over him possibly knowing I had disobeyed a direct order.
"Repo, man, come on. Reign might be a lot of things, but he's not stupid. I think when he told you to keep your dick in your pants, he knew damn well that wasn't going to happen. Especially not when you're stuck with her night and day, always on her case. Hate can make a great aphrodisiac. And today when you got stuck with her, taking her out to that field no doubt..."
"Fuck," I said, shaking my head as I sank down at the foot of my bed. "I screwed up."
"Like I said, Reign knew you couldn't have..."
"But I should have been able to," I objected. "It was an order. What the fuck does that make me that I disobeyed it?"
"Fucking human? A pain in the ass biker like the rest of us. We have all done something that Reign wouldn't like before."
"Not me."
"Well," Cash broke in and I could hear the smile in his voice, "that's not so true anymore, huh?" I brought my hand up to my face, raking it across my brow. "Christ, Repo, chill the fuck out. It's not a big deal."
"Yeah, sure."
"Unless," Cash broke in, his teasing tone making me stiffen.
"Unless what?"
"Unless you have feelings for her that might get in the way of your assignment."
"Don't be ridiculous," I rolled my eyes at him.
It wasn't a lie. Not exactly.
Because it was ridiculous to have feelings for her.
But, that being said, there was no denying that they were there.
I didn't know exactly what they were, but they were something, something more than what they were supposed to be: probate to member, boss to subordinate.
"Wouldn't be the first time one of us ended up with a woman over something we first thought was ridiculous."
Yeah, well, that was the fucking truth.
Reign and Summer got together after she escaped the people who had held her captive and tortured her. He protected her. He fought for her. The whole thing was insane.
Then Cash and the leader of fucking Hailstorm got together. Hell, if someone would have told me that Cash, shameless manwhore, would end up with anyone, I would have said that was ridiculous. Let alone the female leader of a bunch of lawless men and women.
And Wolf and Janie, yeah, who the fuck wouldn't think it was ridiculous that a man who could barely rub five words together would end up with a woman who was never lacking something to say?
But it was different.
"Yeah, man. But none of you were in charge of literally making your womens' lives hell and killing their dreams."
"Yeah, I can see that complicating things," Cash said, moving to sit down at the other end of the bed.
"She can barely bring herself to look at me half the time she hates me so much."
"I think you underestimate her capability for understanding. She knows you don't want to screw things up for her."
"And she thinks it's pathetic of me that I can't say no to something that I am adamantly against."
Cash sighed. "I don't know what to tell you, Repo. The situation is fucked. Eventually, she's gonna be on her ass and she's going to resent you for that. But I think you underestimate how forgiving women can be if you make it worth their while."
"You have met Maze, right?" I asked, turning to look at him with a smirk.
"You've met Lo, right?" he countered. "And Janie? And Alex? Fuck, even Summer can be a stubborn pain in the ass at times. They're all strong and take-no-prisoners. And me, Reign, Wolf, and Breaker ain't ever been boy scouts. We fuck up. We stick our feet in our mouths. We piss them off. But they forgive us. You know... after they hand our asses to us. But, hell, all that conflict makes for some fan-fucking-tastic make-up sex so you won't hear us complaining."