Never Been Kissed

He lifts his head, looking confused. “I doubt that.” He chuckles before he starts cutting again.

“He left.”

“What do you mean he left?” Bunny’s tone sounds so angry that I almost laugh. She’s not one to get worked up. She’s always the calm one of the two of us. She can talk me down most of the time.

“He does that sometimes,” Jameson drawls.

“Where does he go?” Bunny asks before I can.

“To be honest, I have no idea where he goes. Sometimes he’s gone a day or two. Then other times he’s away a few weeks to a month. I thought maybe he’d stop now.” He looks over at me. Why would someone disappear for weeks on end? It’s not like he has a mistress stashed away.

“When you say gone I’m assuming you don’t mean out working or farming. Whatever it is you country boys do out here besides work your land?” He isn’t here. I should have figured as much with how he’d been with me. It is the only thing that makes sense. If Bow were close, he would have been in bed with me last night. But where the hell is he and what is he working on?

“Boys.” Bunny snorts. Yeah. There is nothing boyish about Jameson or Bow but I didn't come up with the saying.

“No,” is all he gives not elaborating. I let him sidestep my other question for now. But I can tell by the look on Bunny’s face that she’s not going to let this go.

“Jameson,” Bunny snips at him. Watching the two of them you’d think they have been married for years. It’s sweet. I want this. Bow needs to get back here so I can fight with him in our kitchen.

“He didn't tell you?” He puts the knife down, grabbing a pan.

“Tell me what?” Gah. Why hasn't my brother called me? I should tell Jameson not to tell me whatever it is. I should hear it from Bow. These are questions that I should ask when I see him again, but damn I’m so freaking nosy I can’t help myself. “You were saying?” I keep my eyes on Jameson. He suddenly looks uncomfortable, which makes me a bit uneasy, considering he always seems so confident. A knot forms in my stomach.

“Spill it,” Bunny shouts, scaring the crap out of me. Jameson looks between us. I can tell he doesn’t want to betray Bow’s trust, but Bunny is not backing down. When it comes to her and me, we ride hard together.

“No. I want Bow to tell me.” As much as I want to know, I don’t want it to come from Jameson. I wouldn’t want anyone putting me in that position if it were about Bunny. Jameson lets out a sigh of relief at my words. I know that he would have told me if Bunny pushed because that man will do anything for her, but I don’t want that. I’ll just have to do my own research and get in touch with Mason.

“I don’t think he’s trying to keep secrets from you, PJ. I’m just not sure he knows what to do in a relationship.”

I lean back in my chair, taking a sip of the lemonade Jameson had gotten for us and think over his words. I’ve never done this relationship thing either. I am a little lost myself. One second I think we’re on the same page and then the next I’m questioning everything. Jameson isn't questioning it. He seems sure Bow wants me. He scoffed at the idea that Bow broke up with me.

“You told me not to hurt him.”

“I did. Davis is a few years younger than me. We grew up together. His father wasn't a piece of shit like mine. He had the whole cookie cutter life with his family.” I can see the sadness in Jameson’s eyes when he talks about Bow’s family. “Until he didn't.”

“Then he was alone,” I whisper, feeling my heart ache for him.

“We tried to push our way into his life, Ma and I, but he doesn't let anyone too close.”

I nod in understanding. He fears getting hurt. That he could lose someone again. If he doesn't let anyone close that could never happen again. “I gotta go.” I hop up from my chair.

“Where are you going?” Bunny shouts after me. I’m sure she wants more details. I’ll give them to her, but later.

“Home,” I tell her, heading out the front door. Duke is hot on my trail.14DavisThe drive home is long. I’ve never paid it much attention before now. Now each mile seems longer than the last. I tried calling Precious the moment I was back in the States headed her way. The phone went to voicemail each time. I then called Jameson, who told me she was fine and still here in Texas. Thank fuck.