“I swear to you it’s done. I’m back here for good. I have to be where you are. It’s too painful not to be with you.” I admit my truth. “I’m in love with you. I know it. What else could it be? When I’m not with you it's like I can’t breathe.” Her sharp intake of breath tells me that I’ve surprised her with my confession of love. It also tells me that I have a lot of making up to do.
She lifts her head so that her eyes meet mine. “You’re in love with me? The man who said he never wanted to get married?”
“How could I not be in love with you?”
She lets out a sniffle. “Because you disappeared?”
“There were things I couldn't tell you.”
“I’ve seen the pictures of you out partying it up.”
I let out a long sigh. There was a lifestyle I had to play into. It was part of my cover. I needed to get close to the people we were trying to bust in order to gain their trust. Going out with them and pretending to live their lifestyle was an easy way in.
“That was before you.” I watch her face soften some. “It was a façade. Hell, it’s been a long fucking time since I’ve been with—”
She puts her hand over my mouth. “That’s all I need to hear about that.” I smile enjoying her jealousy. I kiss her palm and her hand drops away. “I’m so mad at you but I missed you too. I want to smack you and kiss you.”
“You already did the smack so that leaves a kiss.” She tilts her head, offering me her mouth, and I take it. It’s been too long since the last time I saw her in person.
She’s as greedy for me as I am for her as we kiss. She pulls her mouth from mine, trying to catch her breath. Her lips are swollen. I should stop, but I want her mouth back on me so badly. I ache for it. I never knew a person could ache for another person.
“What happened to you?” She lays her head back down on me.
“I got shot a couple of times,” I say to get it out of the way. It’s not as though she’s not going to see the marks. When we’re together it’s hard to keep our hands off each other.
“What!” Her head snaps up to look at me. “Where? When? Who?” She starts pulling at my clothes.
“Calm down. I’m fine now. I was only in a coma for a little while.”
“Why the hell are you saying all of this so casually? Does your family even know?”
I shake my head no. “I came straight to you when I landed back in the States.” Her eyes fill with tears again. I cup her face. “I’m okay.”
“I love you,” she blurts out. “I could have lost you, and you never would have known how I feel about you.”
Fuck me. That ache I was feeling goes away completely. “I love you too, pretty eyes. Knew from the first moment I saw you that you would somehow change my life.”
“Tell me what happened.”
“You can never repeat a word of what I’m about to tell you.” She sits up a little straighter, having an inkling that the conversation is about to get serious. So I tell her everything. “But I’m done now. I’m out and I’m home.”
“Promise you’ll never do something like that again? I don’t think I could bear to lose you.” Her bottom lip trembles.
“The feeling is mutual.” Finally I’ve broken down all her walls. “We’re going to my place. Our place,” I quickly correct myself.
“Okay,” she agrees easily. So I keep pushing.
“And we’re getting married.” She laughs at that one, thinking that I’m joking. I’m not. She’ll realize that soon enough. I let out a sigh of relief as we enter our home. I hold her hand, not wanting to let go as I head to the master bathroom. “I need a shower.”
I start to undress, but she stops me. “Let me.” This is going to be torture, but I let her do it. When she gets to my shoulder, she kisses the spot where I was shot. She does the same to the other.
“I’m okay,” I tell her when I see her eyes start to fill with tears. “It’s my turn now.” I don’t go slow, and it only takes me a few seconds to get her naked and pull her into the shower with me.
She washes me, and I stand there, enjoying her touch. When her hands wrap around my cock, it takes all I have not to come.
Then she drops to her knees in front of me. Her tongue swirls the tip of my cock before she takes me fully to the back of her throat. I try to stop it, but it doesn’t take much to get me to come. I’ve been away from her for too long.