I think about dragging it out. I think about just ending it and trying to be his friend. I think about how my head tells me it’s the smartest thing to do, and then my heart answers for me. “Yes, please,” I say, and he moves just a touch until his lips are on mine. The kiss is soft, and if I wasn’t watching him with my own eyes, I would think it was my imagination. He moves his head to the side and slowly slips his tongue into my mouth. I lean in just a touch, and it must startle Ari, who now moves from her head on my shoulder and calls for Ralph the same time my pizza delivery gets there. Ralph lets go of my lips and stands next to me with his hands over my shoulder. “I have to get my purse.”
“I got it,” Ralph says, taking money out of his pocket. He hands the driver money in exchange for the medium pizza I ordered.
“I’m sorry I didn’t know you were coming,” I say and turn to walk into the house. His arm never moving off me. “Is she sleeping?” He nods his head.
“I’m going to put her down in the crib,” I say, and he stops and kisses my lips before letting me go. I walk into the room and close the shades and then place her in the middle of the crib and cover her up. She doesn’t move, and I quietly walk out of room to the kitchen. I look for him, and I don’t spot him anywhere. I hear the front door close and look over to see him walking back in with the diaper bag.
“Is she down?” he asks, and I nod my head. “I have to put the milk in the fridge.” He lifts the bag so I can see. “But after that, I was wondering how really really hungry you are?” He places it on the counter right next to the pizza. He walks over to me and puts his hands on my hips. My eyes go down, and I look at his hands on me. A shiver runs through me as he comes closer toward me, putting us chest to chest. “Because I’d like to show you how much I’ve missed you.”
He smirks at me, and then my hand goes to his chest, and I feel his heart beating as fast as mine. “I am okay with this plan,” I whisper to him, my hands feeling every single muscle he has as they move up his chest, then wrap around his neck. “I want this,” I say. “I’m scared and petrified that in the end, I will be the one who gets hurt.”
“Candace,” he says, and I swear I could ask him to say it over and over again. I wonder how he will say my name when I take him down my throat. I wonder if he’ll close his eyes. I wonder if I can make him forget everything. “I can say this honestly.” His thumb rubs my chin so soft, and then his index finger rubs around my lips. “That if this goes south, you might not be the only one who isn’t left standing.” His lips meet mine, and the both of us sigh. Literally, sigh out as his tongue slides into my mouth, and I try to get even closer to him than I could. Any closer and I would be inside him.
The kiss is frantic, unlike the other ones before, and my hands go from his neck to his back. His hands leave my face and grab my hips again, this time pulling me closer to him. His hands squeeze my hips harder, and I arch into him, feeling his cock, and we both groan out. In one swoop, he’s got me up. I wrap my legs around his waist, and he walks us over to the couch. He sits on the couch, and I straddle him, his hands going now to my ass as I grind on him. I let go of his mouth to moan out his name, “Ralph.” He buries his head in my neck, and I move my head to the side to give him more access. His tongue comes out to lick, and then he bites me softly, then sucks in. “Ralph.” I wrap my hands around his head, and he grabs my hair, pulling it back to give him more access to my throat. I’ve never been so out of control in my life. My life is filled with control; it’s the only thing I can count on not to let me down. But here, this with him, I’m throwing it all to the wind, and I’m hoping like fuck it doesn’t backfire.Chapter 24Ralph“Ralph,” she says, and my cock gets so hard I feel like it’s going to break through the zipper of my shorts. I attack her neck as the smell of her all around me and making me lose my mind. Everything about her pushes me. When I showed up and heard a man's voice, I got a burning sensation in the pit of my stomach, and then when I saw Miller put his arm around her. Well, let’s just say I wanted to take his hand and pour acid on it after I throat punched him. It got to the point I couldn’t even think. All I could do is stare at the hand draped around her, and I saw red. It had to take me a couple of minutes to process what I was feeling because I have never had this reaction. I never got jealous because I was confident with myself, but seeing her with someone else, I just . . . I couldn’t even think about it without getting angry.