“Niya for fucks sake how long does it take to put on something” I storm over to the door and swing it open“Colt I'm going to kill you go back down stairs and wait” I slam the door in his face and walk over and lie on my bed with my arms over my head, the door opens and I look up and Colt’s standing there“Babe what the fuck are you doin'”“Get out Colt”“Baby it looks like the closet threw up in here” I look around and there are cloths everywhere on the floor all over my bed and even on my desk“Colt go away”“Baby what's wrong”“What's wrong? are you blind Colt, look at me I'm huge and nothing fits me anymore. I can't go to your Grandma's I'm sorry go without me” he comes over and sits beside me on the bed“You want me to make you feel better” I look up at him and he's smiling“No Colt I don't want you to make me feel better” even though my brain and body are screaming yes“Ok let me help than” he starts picking things up and showing me combinations of clothes together I keep shaking my head at his bad color choices and I start to laugh“Really Colt I'm not wearing that”“What it's cute like you” he holds up a romper I'd bought last year it's nice for someone who's a size ten but not for the size I am“Colt I wouldn't even be able to get that over my belly let alone thighs” and I slap my leg“Baby your fuckin' gorgeous and you’re not even that big”“Colt I can't even drive my car anymore”“Yeah because you fuckin' short baby not fat” well he does have me there“But still”“Ok what about this” he picks up a cute full length white maxi dress with butterflies embroidered all on the bottom I'd picked it up last year at the markets Maggie and I had gone to“I don't have a bra for that”“Babe you don't need a fuckin' bra your tits are perfect”“There not there huge”“I know” he wiggles his eyebrows at me smiling and I roll my eyes at him“Fine give me the dress”He goes back down stairs, I put the dress on and it actually looks cute it’s even feels a little freeing not wearing a bra, as I'm standing in the mirror I do a little turn and freeze when I see my tattoo right across my shoulder blades, you can see the whole tattoo in this dress and I smile knowing Colt's going to love it, I turn back and rub my belly looking at myself in the mirror. I still where my locket I've only ever taken it off once and Colt made me put it straight back on, I stare at myself and for the first time in months I feel happy with everything. Colt and I are working things out works great, Maggie and Razor are happy and my baby is healthy what else could I want“Fuck about time” Colt says as I walk in“Shut up Colt I'm ready aren't I”“Yeah after a fuckin' hour”“Are we going or not” I say walking towards the door, when I look back Colt's just staring at me“What?”“Nothing” he says smiling and I know it's because you can see the Property of Colt tattoo on my back, we get to Colt's Grandma's house and there are cars in the driveway“Who else is here?” I ask him“Just you know… family”“Ok” he takes my hand when we get to the door Cassey comes out and gives me a big hug“Come in come in”When I walk in the door I hear a loud SURPRISE and I scream and everyone jumps out Maggie, Grace, Sheryl, Colt’s Aunts and cousins Diamond, Jewel, Chelsea, Lena and a couple of others including some of the guy's Razor of course Dover Tank Stryker Tiny Cuff Socket Cookie Chance and the rest“OMG you guys” everyone gives me a hug and kiss the afternoon is spent talking with everyone food music gifts and games“You having fun sweetheart” Grace asks me“I am thankyou”“You know Cassey and Maggie weren't ganna let you have a baby without a baby shower”“it's just......I'm so grateful for you all you know” she pulls me into a hug“How is my grandson treating you” I smile“He's....and I look over at Colt he's amazing Grace you and Cassey done a good job with him”“Oh, it was all my beautiful daughter honey trust me” she looks over at her own daughters and smiles*The day goes by so fast and before I know it it's time to go home, everyone had spoiled me rotten and now I knew I didn't have to buy the baby one thing. Cassey and Maggie organizing everyone’s gifts so no one got the same thing from clothes to bottles to nappies of all ages, blanket bedding car seats high chair walker rocker play toys you name it they'd bought it and by nine pm I was ready for bed.